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So  a little about me...

I am a Virginia Beach Native

I have an adorable 4 year old pup who is my baby girl 

I work for GEICO, just started on the claims side, but was in the homeowners/ renters service area for over a year

but really I do like it there

I went to Longwood University for my BS in Criminal justice with a minor in psychology aka would love to be in the BAU

because who doesn’t love these two <3

I’m a major nerd for Disney and Harry potter and have no shame about it 

but that’s a little about me what about y’all? I’ll be spilling my guts about my life, my life choices, my love life, how adorable Ellie is and how crazy my family is and probably going nuts over GoT in the next week or two along with my course stuff for going back to school for me AA in Management. but TTFN

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and this is why I love disney... still relevant for adult life if not more so

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oui bien sur!

J'adore l'été • I love summer • /ʒ‿a.dɔʁ l‿e.te/ We’re having a big summer sale! 50% off all of our made in France products with the code SUMMERINPARIS. Click the link in bio to visit our boutique.

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I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I gave you everything that I have. I’m sorry because I cared about you. I’m sorry because I was always there for you. I’m sorry because you were always my first priority. I’m sorry because I cry over you. I’m sorry because I loved the way you smile. I’m sorry because I fell in love with your eyes. I’m sorry because I made you my everything. I’m sorry, because I loved you.

P.G.G (via for-him-diaries)

This is an apology to myself and not to anyone else because no one deserves an apology more than myself/ heart for putting myself in a downward spiraling situation

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ain’t that the damn truth

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kermit really is that bitch…… he went from crying in showers and talking to negative inner monologues to running freely in a dandelion field,,…i’m tryna be on this level

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So this is me ... 26, single adulting, in student loan debt and living and loving life as much as I can in the short amount of time we have here

The pup is a throwback of my partner in crime my baby girl Ellie Belle a spoiled black lab/ German Shepard mix who at 80 lbs believes she is a lap dog and I love her to bits

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This is a really cute picture right, looks like a really pretty engagement photo right?

What would you say if I told you while we were taking this photo shoot he was cheating on me? what would you say then? 

most people would scoff and would say I was crazy, hell even the photographer said we were a cute couple and that she could just see how perfect we were for each other. 

The way I found out about him cheating the 1st time, was from my niece. See she had been wanting an iPhone and him working for T mobile he was wanting to go back to androids so she bought his phone from him. He swore he cleared everything off of it, well he didn’t do well enough since she got the nude that was meant for him.

After some sleuthing aka, FB searching not hard since she had a major tattoo I was pretty sure I had seen before I confronted her and him. 

She basically blew me off and told me she had been talking to him for awhile, 

he denied denied denied and stupid me afraid of being alone believed him but i told him this was his last strike. for awhile he was trying to make it up to me, sent me flowers and surprises at work apologies left and right, I thought we were past it, and I attributed it to the long distance relationship we had considering we only saw each other every 4 months. 

I moved into an apartment on my own thinking we would be living together soon since he talked about transferring and coming out here ( CO> VA) 

but when he was supposed to out in his two week notice, he told me he needed to wait and do what has best for him.  

See this is my last straw, he was the one who said he would move here, i never once pressured him, he was the one making these plans and convincing me to move out so that we could be together considering we were together for over a year I was thinking this was the one. 

I found him in the 2nd lie by accident really, I had already planned that, this was the end but when checking my data usage I see that he has more text messages than me, low and behold he’s talking to someone non stop for over a month until 2-3 in the morning, I confront him, and he won’t even own up to it. Not surprised really his father has cheated on his mother numerous times, one of the many reasons he hate’s his father and something I listen to him whine about constantly because that’s what good girlfriends do they listen and help in any way they can.

I got a little bit of myself back that day telling him to piss off and that we were done.

I’ve dated since and am still trying to myself and my happy but this is reminder to me not everything is as it seems and to accept nothing but what’s best for me.

I hope me spilling my guts helps someone else out there, we accept the love we believe we deserve. I’m getting to where I need to be loving myself my family and my pup but I refuse to be that girl that will take scraps and crap when I deserve so much more.