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The Girl That Didn’t Exist

One of the pictures the catfisher used, maybe one of the foreign exchange student she knew that lived with her but that could be a lie. 

The pictures weren’t consistent at all.

Supposedly that is her face above.

Real Name: Alicia Manley Alias Names: Alicia Matsuo, Aliciabunny, Leeshbunny Location: California

She disguised herself by using pictures of other girls, and for some reason seeing them made me feel doubtful. There were lies such as her age, race, last name, city location, and etc. In addition to that her constant pestering and manipulative behavior which led to her suicide attempt.

It made sense the way I was reacting to her. This catfish was exploiting me and was not understanding me on personal space and needs. I gave in just so I would not get a negative response. At times I couldn’t express myself freely. It’s if she was acting as the victim, when in actuality I was the one victimized.

I wasted my time and everything on a fake relationship that wouldn’t come true in the first place. I was serious about this relationship, and felt the sorrowness after the breakup. It didn’t make sense with her, plus it was like l was in this relationship by myself. So the breakup seemed reasonable. I didn’t get much out of this relationship except for love, lies, and betrayal. I lost part of my true self too with the cringey chats.

This lasted 3-4 years and she knew she was a catfish from the start. I have only heard her voice. Not even once had she shown her face through webcam, although I mentioned how I wanted to see her via Skype. Unlike her, I had webcammed my face alone. 

Catfish Timeline

2011 –

We met off a Taiwanese Pop forum called Misster, and at one point I thought she was crazy. It felt off with her and I was hesitant in being with her. Since she said she was 17 which means she didn’t finish high school yet. I went into this online relationship expecting to meet up with her eventually. Within this year, I had already graduated high school. And I thought to myself that it would be fine to wait 1 more year so we could meet up after she graduates. If I had known she was 16, I wouldn’t have given the relationship a chance.

The relationship was a lie from the start, beginning with her age and display picture in MSN messenger. She used another girl’s picture posing herself as an Asian girl. The catfish told me she was a mixed race and that she was part Korean, Japanese, and White. We kept chatting and eventually exchanged voice recordings with another. I got the gist that she was a female.

December comes along and I bought her a Sanrio Cinnamoroll pillow plushie. I needed her home address, but she lies and tells me it’s her grandma’s address. I asked her to take a picture of herself with the plushie to verify it was her. I was wondering why it took her a while to do so. She photoshopped the plushie with another’s girl picture. I was thinking why the picture was slanted, but I was polite and didn’t comment about it. 

We also exchanged nudes too, and she was the first to send me a random nude picture of a girl that was photoshopped. After that I sent my real ones, and later on she kept using other girl’s nude photos. Using those nude photos were lies to herself and to me. 

2012 –

I webcammed with her but she couldn’t with me because her excuse was shyness and anxiety. I could only hear her voice through the microphone. Later on, I found out the nude picture she used was from a porn blog when I was browsing the net. I confronted her about it and asked why it was there. From there on I was more suspicious of her.

Her graduation was supposed to come up this year, so I was eager in meeting up with her. But she confessed that she was 16 going on 17. That means I wasted a year waiting for her, and now that I’m far into this relationship. I just thought okay fine another year and then we can meet. I asked her if she lied about anything else and she said no which is another lie.

It was strange I shared baby pictures with her but she didn’t, and there were excuses for camming too. I just thought maybe if I shared pictures of myself, she will then reciprocate when she felt comfortable. I was thinking why isn’t she giving input on wanting to meet up when I described myself driving there. Also, sharing info on housing as I planned on moving there to live with her. And then I had questioned why I loved her.

I bought her another Sanrio character for Valentines. She wanted a heart purse that was over $100. I gifted her a gift card for her expected graduation day. I sent other stuff such as couple rings, chocolates, phone case, letters, and more. For the Christmas holidays, I went out alone to the mall to buy her another custom stuffed animal. It felt like I was by myself in this relationship. Before the break up in 2013, she asked me if I could buy her an iron straightener/curler. Every item sent was always reference to her alias name.

2013 –

In 2012 I told her I needed space, but she had given a negative reaction to that. She didn’t understand my boundaries. We had time zone differences, I needed rest and to do other things too. Ever since meeting, the chat was constantly every day. Therefore, I felt drained and somewhat stress but I got used to it by now. I kept it up for her so she wouldn’t be upset, but she had no concerns on how I felt. I would say she was emotionally unstable, sensitive, and toxic. Every so then she would shift the blame to me and guilt trip me. But in my eyes, I thought I did no wrong and she was the guilty one after all. 

Things weren’t sitting right I suggested camming but still no face showing in real time and I asked for more pictures. The pictures were off too and I didn’t want to point out and be rude about her eyebrows. She did not think I loved her but I did in my own way, just not the way she showed her love. She broke up with me eventually as she knew she was hiding her identity too. She had given me false promises. Days go on I wondered why she was down and negative. And of course, it’s because she was catfishing me. She threatened me with suicide because she thought I didn’t care for her, but the catfishing played its part with the suicide. One day I called 911 because she was going to commit suicide, and her suicide was prevented.

2014 –

I’m sure why I kept my distant, she’s always initiating a chat with me but chatting with her was like talking to a wall most of the time. Most of the time I had put in effort with the chat, it was like I was talking by myself. She wasn’t open with showing pictures of her parents, baby pictures, and sharing information about herself when I questioned her. I even questioned her on the languages she could speak and her last name too. Along with her parents last name that was unknown to me. I’ve only heard her parents voice over the mic. And she didn’t give me her real school name and living location too, when I researched it came up mismatched. She wasn’t open and honest like I was. I think it’s unfair that she did not share with me. There were times she would nitpick on my grammar, as if she tries to poke at my weakness.

At first I went into this relationship great but now it’s not so fantastic with her nonsense. Friendship chat kept going and finally she gives me a real picture of herself. Posing as a White girl but not like those Asian girls within the pictures she had given me. She reveals her real name too. I had mixed feelings about this and the trust I had with her. Weird how I had random Asian pictures of girls for 3+ years, and she had mine for 3+ years too. Looking back she felt good that she was complimented through those Asian girls photos. She seemed vain and hypocritical, there was a time when she criticized Asian celebrities for their shiny skin. 

When it was her fault she wouldn’t own up to it. At times with our chat I am the one to blame, so I had to be careful not to upset her as she said she was fragile. It was like she had no accountability to her behavior. It had to go her way and supposedly I had to be responsible for her. The catfish makes some assumptions of me that weren’t true. When she spoke for the both of us it wasn’t true either. She played with my mind and feelings since she was emotionally manipulating me. She didn’t realize what she had done was wrong. This online relationship was just like a game to her.  In addition, she was a two-faced catfish with her online persona. On public forums she appeared dandy, innocent, happy, but with me she was depressing. As there was a time she sent me a picture of her razor blade.

I had to mention the lies she had given me, in order to get a short “sorry”. Where else I had to apologize for issues that were absurd. She also cussed at me saying “fuck you” and told me how I was stupid and other insults, then says the opposite later. Also, saying how she hated me but why? Maybe because I didn’t go along with her game. Odd she can do that to me but I’m not allowed to. There was even a time she cyberly said to poop in her mouth. It seems she wanted to seek out the bad side of me for her own guilt.

In the early stages I was told not to watch a music video because she would get jealous of the girl I admired in the video. But when it came to her and going to a Kpop concert, I didn’t oppose her not to go to see her favorite singer. Also, when I traveled out of state, I took a picture of a souvenir with her name tag together with her favorite artist name. I thought it was ridiculous to be jealous when there’s no chance in dating celebrities. When it came to games I was suppose to let her win, but my point of view was to play fair and square. I was also told not to act goofy on webcam. 

She even got offended when I said “that sucks” when she delivered bad news.There was also a moment where she said they must think I’m a bitch, because I chatted about her with someone. Strange how I couldn’t have the time to speak with other friends. Also, making false statement that I am all about the sugar daddy position. But on the other hand she asked me to buy her things. She even said good thing she didn’t have sex with me. Assuming all I care about is sex was false or otherwise described below.

First of all how would we ever have sex if I never met you or seen you through webcam. Plus the catfish was not even willing to meet up. Why would I be with someone who have lied year after year about their appearance with false information. It just shows you weren’t serious about the relationship, and the intercourse would have never happened anyway. A catfish who wasn’t open about themselves and a person who accepted gifts that was meant for another girl. I’m pretty sure she was delusional with her ideal ways. Someone who was lonely and had no love for themselves. A person who kept seeking compliments. A girl with insecurity, depression, anxiety, and eating disorder.

Overall, the catfish was mentally ill and selfish. No consideration for me but for herself since I was a puppet being played with. She seemed spoiled and entitled, with princess syndrome. It could make sense she was the only child being spoiled with the ability to travel overseas along with other gifts, and it seemed fussy when it came to her parents and chores? She was also obsessed in getting information about celebrities. Who knows if she had catfished others and used them too for her own benefit. She did move onto someone quickly via online. After coming clean, she goes on saying how she’s happy now, but what about my feelings from the start till now? Never once had she webcam her face to me but only by voice. I know I am not at fault for all this catfish mess. When it was mostly her fault all along.

I did some research for her catfishing profile and these results came up. I did not know this side of her prior to her catfishing me.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/uh8c4aed252cnyb/Help%20Pedobear.pdf?dl=0