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Loyalty and dedication to the point of dehumanization but only when paired with appreciation and gratitude to the point of rehumanization

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more feminine women and masculine men in fiction please

ALSO the one that's been on my mind lately as smth I want to see in fiction is an example of faithfulness and fidelity in marriage where somebody attempts to seduce the fellow and not only does he resist it, he basically doesn't have to resist it because it isn't genuinely a temptation bc he has a good and lovely wife at home

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8, 9, 11, 17 for the writer/artist asks!

8. Do you have any OC family trees?

I do, from several years ago, but I can't remember where I put them. I could recreate them, tho.

9. Favourite OC?

Since I already answered this, I'll pick another favourite, Tom. His insecurity and struggles to unlearn habitual misogyny have captivated me because my boy is TRYING he's DOING HIS BEST at separating from the poor company that influenced him for years. He slips up, but he's still trying his best. Overall he's a very relatable character.

11. Sum up one or more of your wips!

I wouldn't exactly call this a wip because I haven't seriously worked on it for years, only bouncing around my brain a bit, but: Patience, the dear beloved knitting oc. I love her and her story and may even find it in me to write it during nanowrimo this year, if I haven't properly planned out any of the other ones I want to get written.

Patience copes with life by hiding away in a small sandstone cave a lot of the time, halfway up a mountain. She knits a Lot, so much so that she has to sell her pieces just so she can afford to buy enough yarn to knit with. This upsets her, but hey, she copes. She's really quite contented with her life, until one day she hears the rattling of *her* rope-and-stick ladder that *nobody else* uses, and a head pops up above the ledge. Unfortunately, its owner is trying to be friendly. Even more unfortunately, due to a combination of circumstances it is sprung on her completely without notice that this is her new adopted sister, Rhona. Patience does not like this. Patience Does Not Like This. However, she does her best to try and work with her, but Rhona just doesn't vibe very well, really. Time passes and her parents are at the end of their rope and it seems that Rhona will have to go elsewhere, though where they don't know. I completely steal a plot point from Dear Enemy in which Patience saves Rhona from a fire, in the process breaking several bones. While she recuperates, Rhona comes to understand her more and learn how Patience works and vibes and how they ought to interact, better. By the time Patience is well enough to go back to the cave as previously - having to overcome her newfound fear of heights, with Rhona's support - they are good friends and enjoy one another's company. In the final scene, Patience is teaching Rhona how to knit.

17. What are some tropes and character dynamics found in your wips?

The Sudden Realisation, in romance; I do not know how romance develops, or how feelings grow. If I have a POV character, either they're Suddenly Aware, or it's an already established thing. (Examples of the Suddenly Aware include both Tom and Adira - he realising he's not actually interested in another girl romantically, she by seeing a photo of them asleep together and going oh - and the established thing would be Paddy and Lilac.) I love the grumpy one/sunshiney one as a trope, and to some extent that's represented in Vaniah and Anneka's relationship, and certainly with Neil and Faith. (Spoilers!! Faith takes a while to be introduced and that relationship certainly surprises the other characters.) I can't think of any other tropes or dynamics off the top of my head rn, but if anyone wishes to pick them up in my writing and ask specifically about it, I'll answer, lol.

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Vaniah when he shows even a hint of collarbone

Me: NAKEY 😳🫣

Girl I JUST told you he is in a button up shirt here

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one thing she said that i found very interesting was - well, I was talking about how sometimes I deal with life by writing, and cited Vaniah's suicide attempt as an example, but also said that while I understand his perspective, I don't know how Anneka responds, walking in and seeing him bleeding out. I wrote it, but I wasn't sure how she would respond actually.

and my friend said something very interesting.

she said that in a similar situation she would feel a terrible sadness, that the person did not care for themselves as she cared for them, as she knew their worth was. there was more than that, but that was what stuck in my head. I've never thought of sorrow as a possible reaction to discovering someone attempting suicide. anger, yes, but grief?

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Whumptember 2023 Prompts

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1. “Did I do good?

Mentor whumper | Young hero | Blood loss

2. “Let me do this for you.”

Sacrifice | Guilt | Caretaker turned whumpee

3. “This can’t be it”

Betrayal | Left to die | Running away

4. “Where are they?”

Kidnapped | Left behind | Desperation 

5. “What do you want me to do?”

Owed a favor | Whispered conversation | Sneaking around

6. “I didn’t do this”

Framed | Bloody clothes | Behind bars

7. “No one will believe you”

Behind closed doors | Fake smiles | Touch aversion 

8. “Don’t come back”

Kicked out | Saying goodbye for the last time | Lashing out 

9. “This was always going to happen”

Doomed relationship | Opposing sides | Fatal wound 

10. “What are you doing to them?”

Brainwashed | Hanging from their wrists | Phone call 

11. “There’s nothing else I can do”

Last resort | Character death | Medical whump

12. “I can’t leave again”

Homecoming | Multiple responsibilities | Failed rescue 

13. “You don’t remember me, do you?”

Finally free | Open arms | Clothes that don’t fit

14. “I’m on my way. Just hold on a little longer”

Bleeding out | In and out of consciousness  | Voice cracking

15. “I thought you were dead”

Faked death | Under the radar | Trail of blood

16. “Can I go home now?”

Young whumpee | Captive | Chains around the wrists

17. “Can you come pick me up?”

Sensory overload | Feeling like someone’s watching | Bad luck

18. “You said I’d be safe here”

Ambushed | Paranoia | Being watched

19. “You are not a hero. You’re a child playing dress up. Now take off that silly mask and go home.”

Villain mentor | In over their head | Trembling 

20. “We can’t all win”

Failure | City in ruin | Boot on throat 

21. “Take me with you”

Failed escape | Stumbling | Too weak to move

22. “I’m getting bored”

Captive whumpee | New whumper | Electrocution 

23. “Is that blood?”

Passing out | Hyperventilating | New scars

24. “You have to promise I’ll come back”

Muffled screams | Returning home | Uncommon restraints

25. “I won’t leave you here”

Desperate measures | Fireman’s carry | Head lolling

26. “You aren’t supposed to be here! You have to leave now”

Unexpected visitor | Explosion | Caretaker turned (accidental) whumper

27. “I thought you, of all people, would understand why I did what I did.”

Reluctant villain | Old friends | Cornered 

28. “I never should have let it come this far”

Failed hero | Hospital stay | Begging for help

29. “You told me this was the right thing”

Mislead | Blood on hands | Too late 

30. “You were in my way”

Stabbed in the back | Whimpering | Chained to a wall 

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“Consider also, maybe try this on for size: I don’t deserve happiness. I don’t deserve love, or joy, or anything except a slow torturous death. How does that sound to you?” “Utterly unreasonable. Don’t you believe in God?” “What has that to do with it?” “So much. The Son of God was sent, and his blood was shed, for us.” “I am aware. So what?” “His blood was shed that ours shall not be. How do you think God feels when we hurt ourselves?” “At the time when I hurt myself, do you think I care?”

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I need to get up but she’s litcherally laying in my lap gazing up at me adoringly 😭

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hm i seem to Not Have a specific excerpt I wrote about vaniah?? the one where he gets drunk? i swear i wrote it and i don't remember enough to find it

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visited my parents over the anzac weekend (australian/nz public holiday connected to the first world war) and it was. so nice. in some ways i wished i could have just stayed there for longer. mum cut my hair and we had some nice conversations. idk it was just nice

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thinking about the emblems, the Eucharist - I've forgotten the name y'all use for it this instant but I was just reading a Catholic thing so there's the Catholic name for it as well as Christadelphian -

It's based around food and drink, around nourishment. The emblems themselves aren't supposed to be nourishing (see the verse in... I want to say one of Paul's... maybe Corinthians, in which he berates them for some being drunk and some having nothing), but they're a symbol. I heard a talk once about the moral imperative of keeping yourself healthy, which was fascinating - upsetting because he referred dismissively to anorexia and self harm as things people in the world do, with no apparent understanding of the numbers of Christians in his audience who had a history of such things themselves - but useful. There's the verse about "the truth will set you free", the number of times sin is compared to slavery and righteousness is compared to freedom, too. Freedom from arbitrary rules, like the rules in an eating disorder.

The truth will set us free, truths like "you don't need to starve yourself", "you don't need to cut yourself". Easier said than done, but in an ideal world-

We're not in an ideal world of course but Still.

It's interesting to me that since I started self harming, the cup itself has become more important and thought-provoking to me. The phrase "his blood was shed that ours shall not be" is very important to me - I can't recall who came up with it but I don't think it's a New Testament verse or anything. Anyway, the idea that he took our sins on him and died for us is also very important - obviously, it's the core of the gospel.

Anyhow I don't really have a good way of ending this I was just rambling.

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psych: write a letter to your anorexia

me: ok

the closing line of the letter: to conclude, i would like to politely damn you to hell

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The girl reading this~

The girl reading this is Christian! 😊

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Having thoughts that would get me in trouble with my mutuals

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all according to keikaku (Gods plan for u)

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I am on a precipice and the drop is down, ‘way down. I teeter— I’ve been here before. Is this the time I’ll slip? Will I find my feet again? Do I want to? Oh God— God of my refuge, be with me now. I cannot say it— cannot tell the people who I must tell— if this is a problem, oh God— I am on a precipice, and everything might change.

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