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Y’shtola has been moved over to my multimuse blog @ metamorphoria

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Magnai: You know, the more y’s somebody has in their “hey”, the more interested they are in you. Magnai: With that being said, heyyyy. Y’shtola: He.

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alright, here’s the plan. I will be around during the weekend mainly because I miss Edgetola & I need a bit of a break from my other blog (@dansiere if anyone is interested). -- gonna get around to empty my inbox & drafts I suppose hah.

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Midnight, the long, long chime; Here in the quivering darkness I am afraid of time.

Sara Teasdale, from Vignettes Overseas (Florence) in “The Collected Poems Of Sara Teasdale” (via adrasteiax)

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𝙏𝙔𝙋𝙀𝙎 𝙊𝙁 𝙋𝙀𝙊𝙋𝙇𝙀      -     𝙒𝙀𝘼𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙍 .

TAGGED BY: @thyellae, the one & onLY

TAGGING: whoever sees this tbh, I have no idea who is still around.

𝙍𝘼𝙄𝙉 -   melancholy at best , introspective , severely misunderstood , pleasure in the subdued , helping in your own way , dreams in poetry , the slowness of falling asleep , refreshing meditation .

𝙎𝙐𝙉 -     sunbleached clothes , futures that are too bright , everything at arm’s length , balancing intensity , blind encouragement , comfort of sleep , distracting sunspots in your vision , necessity of growth .

𝙎𝙏𝙊𝙍𝙈 -     chaos with a purpose , emotions running high , natural comfortable anarchy , high volume , leaving your mark , brief flashes of violence , rambling quickly , the intensity of desire .

𝙒𝙄𝙉𝘿 -   running towards instead of away , instinctive motivation , making an impact , knows everyone who knows anyone , playful pranks , mood swings in a split second , collecting old trinkets , uncontrollable focus .

𝙎𝙉𝙊𝙒 -     serene on the surface , cold blooded heart , love it or hate it attitude , good memories , heavy discussions , sharp determination , relentless resolve , not as scary as it seems .

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「AETHERIAL WIND」

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Cold, I felt. Cold as a garden in winter, gone deep to ground.

Madeline Miller, Circe (via luthienne)

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​bury a friend // billie eilish

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bold –   always  ⁄  often italic   –   situational

in combat, your muse …

◾   fights honorably  /  fights dirty ◾   prefers close - quarters  / prefers range ◾    chats during  /  goes silent ◾    low pain tolerance  /  high pain tolerance ◾    attacks in bursts / attacks steadily (she deals extreme burst damage with occasional downtimes whenever forced to resort to ice magic instead of preferred fire magic; however, she will ALWAYS try to cast even whenever she is forced to teleport / switch positions. Her to go choices are aero / thunder or scathe; occasionally fire I or foul.) ◾    goes for the kill (if you attack her, you will most likely die; she has no time for mercy) / aims to disarm /  fights defensively  /  strikes first

◾   is provoked easily  /  provokes their opponent / teases ◾    gets visibly frustrated  /  shouts while attacking (whenever angered or reaching her pain endurance threshold). ◾    uses strategy  / focuses on the battle /  experiences conflicting thoughts during battle ◾    rushes in recklessly  / tries to read their opponent before engaging ◾    fights wildly   / fights calmly / fights apathetically  /  fights with anger (black magic requires you to turn the aether in your body into a weapon; strong emotions will make her spells more powerful)  / fights with excitement / fights because they have to /  fights because they want to ◾    fights without regard to wounds  /  runs away when wounded  / hides wounds /  takes a blow to protect another ◾   prefers a blade  /   prefers a gun  /  prefers hand to hand combat /  prefers a bow  /  prefers a shield  / prefers a personalized weapon /  prefers magic or spells ◾   their greatest weakness is physical (her body is in a state of permanent decay & while black magic does not demand as much of her as white magic, long term use has a toll on her) / their greatest weakness is mental /  their greatest weakness is emotional

◾    transforms for battle  /   fights as they appear ◾   relies on strength (raw spell power) /  doubts their strength  /  relies on speed (short battles are her favourites) ◾    uses everything they have (when the lives of people she cares for are at stake? Absolutely) /  proceeds with caution (she may be ruthless & occasionally reckless but she is not stupid) /  hides their full potential ◾    exhausts quickly (depends on the situation but she is the kind to attempt & dispose of her enemy as quickly as possible since her body is a wreck. -- her spells are very, very powerful & devastating but sometimes demand a LOT in return)  / has high stamina ◾   behaves arrogantly  /  brags after landing a hit  /  belittles their abilities ◾   uses psychological tactics /  uses brute strength ◾   avoids civilians /  strikes down civilians ◾    damages surroundings (black magic is destructive. 90% of her spells consist of explosions) / avoids damaging surroundings ◾    signature fighting style  /  makes it up as they go ◾   mastered skill - set /  learning their skill - set ◾    fancy footwork / sloppy footwork ◾    messy fighter  / elegant fighter ◾   accepts defeat  /  refuses defeat  /  begs for mercy ◾    compliments their opponent (she compliments the fight itself or says nothing at all) / insults their opponent (snarky insults, mind you). ◾    uses unnecessary movements  ( flips, twirls ) /  moves efficiently /  barely moves (she is a Black Mage / spell caster after all...) ◾    prefers to dodge  / prefers to block ◾   defends their blindside  /  has no blindside  /  leaves blindsides vulnerable

◾    uses all available advantages ( ex : uses a gun but also throws punches, kicks out while blades clash, etc. ) /  strictly use one main method ◾    plays around /  holds back  / fights ruthlessly /   shows mercy ◾    waits for an opponent to be ready  / strikes when opponent isn’t ready ◾    fears death /  fears pain  /  fears killing ◾   has PTSD (samurai & being in the proximity of swords upset her greatly. She won’t show / admit it ofc but... yeah) /  avoids fighting ◾   has lost a fight /  has won a fight ◾    has killed  /  refuses to kill ◾    wants to die standing  /  would succumb slowly

Tagged by: @aenchantress​ ! almost a decade ago but uh... well. Tagging: last seven peeps on my dash; @chaotides​, @erleidn​, @naecromancy​, @echopulse​, @breslin​, @oriphic​, & @glacinium​.

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me: ’shtola is on a hiatus. I lost her muse again. @breselin​: *responds to a meme I sent* :))))) me: ah, hello Y’shtola. Nice of you to show up!

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God In Fire - Dissidia 012 Duodecim

Another song that’s been stuck in my head these past few days

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Was I raised without love? Or was I born unlovable?

(via alkoholimblut)

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒!

* 𝙵𝙰𝙲𝙴 𝙲𝙻𝙰𝙸𝙼 :   in-game cutscenes, Dissidia NT, Opera Omnia.  * 𝙽𝙰𝙼𝙴 :   Y’shtola Rhul * 𝙰𝙶𝙴 :   according to her namedays? 29; however, she is 24 physically & around 40 mentally. Age is a fickle thing in her case; theoretically speaking, Y’shtola died at the age of 24 but continued to age mentally while being in the lifestream. Since time runs faster in the aetherial realm than it does in the physical realm, her mental age no longer aligns with her physical one. Additionally, she does not necessarily physically age anymore (more below). -- needless to say, her age as such is horribly disjointed.   * 𝙷𝙴𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 :   5′2″ (160 cm). * 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙲𝙸𝙴𝚂 :   seeker of the sun miqo’te; one of Eorzea’s many races. A proud, patriarchal folk generally referred to as “cat-people” due to their feline trademarks. -- oft found in deserts, living in clans & tribes. * 𝙶𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙴𝚁 :   cis female. * 𝙽𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈 :   originally Dravanian (born in the Hinterlands), later made Sharlayan upon entering the “Circle of Knowing” at the age of 19. * 𝙱𝙸𝚁𝚃𝙷𝙳𝙰𝚈 :   September 18, 1554. * 𝚂𝚄𝙽 𝚂𝙸𝙶𝙽 : Virgo. * 𝚁𝙴𝚂𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 : Verse dependent! She spent the first six years of her life as a nomad before becoming Master Matoya’s protege at the age of seven. She moving into the other’s abode in the Hinterlands close to Idyllshire & lived there up until her 19th nameday; after that she moved to La Noscea, namely Limsa Lominsa & lived there for four years ere again adapting more nomadic tendencies & never staying in one place for too long. Most recently, she has settled in the Rak’tika Greatwood, namely Slitherbough, where she has been working as the Night’s Blessed’s sage for three years. * 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝙸𝚃𝙰𝙻 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚂 : single; not one to pursue a relationship as such due to deeming herself bitter & unlovable. She did have  them in the past (on-off relationship with Yda Hext) but decided to step away from any form of romantic involvement after Yda’s disappearance. She is not quite sure what she wants either way; her status as “half-dead” & “half-living” also complicates matters to a ridiculous degree. * 𝙰𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙽𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 :   Lawful Neutral (ARR - SB), Chaotic Neutral (SHB). * 𝙳𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙺 :   wine & tea in every shape or form; she prefers bitter flavours, however. * 𝙵𝙾𝙾𝙳 :   in her youth, her diet was rather balanced & usually consisted out of lean meat & fish alongside a wide array of vegetables & fruits; quite the fan of broth & fish stew or anything with fish in it, really (she spent most of her adulthood in La Noscea & it shows. At least in regard to her favorite cuisines).-- post her death in ARR however, Y’shtola often suffers from bouts of nausea & extreme fatigue that render her unable to keep any sort of food down. She has adjusted accordingly but has grown rather haggard due to it. Her body’s metabolism has become “chaotic” / extremely fast & impossible to properly pinpoint. As such, her diet (like her sleeping schedule) has become just as odd & irregular. Even more so after her second & third death throughout Stormblood & Shadowbringers.  * 𝙳𝙰𝚈 𝙾𝚁 𝙽𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 :   usually fond of the day, but it does not really make a difference to her anymore. * 𝚂𝙽𝙰𝙲𝙺𝚂 :   she has quite the sweettooth; pastries, chocolate coated fruits, rolandberry / vanilla tarts are high up on her list. * 𝙿𝙴𝚃 :   do frogs & enchanted broomsticks count? * 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚁 :   varies; if we go with Shadowbringers it is black & variations thereof, alongside a deep purple & the colour of ash. Before that she generally associated herself with the colour white & red. * 𝙵𝙻𝙾𝚆𝙴𝚁 :   purple carnations; love & dedication, wittiness & wisdom, capriciousness & unpredictability in a positive sense but also impulse & recklessness, repulsion & a specific kind of hastiness & impatience that invoke harm to oneself or others. Often added to a funeral bouquet. * 𝚂𝙴𝚇𝚄𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈 :   uncertain; she has a clear preference towards women due to her aversion towards men (prompted by her father & general Seeker culture, I will elude on that eventually), however. * 𝙱𝙾𝙳𝚈 𝚃𝚈𝙿𝙴 :   most certainly ectomorph due to the circumstances of her death & rebirth. Ever since she has been drawn out of the lifestream, her body as such has been in a constant state of decay & no longer functions as proficient as it should.  She has lost weight, & has troubles putting weight on again, barely sleeps or eats despite craving either fiercely. Additionally, Y’shtola has to constantly alter the very aether in her body to keep it from... well, dying.  * 𝙴𝚈𝙴 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚁 :   formerly teal; a very, very striking & bright kind of blue / green. Post her death / time spent in the lifestream her eyes have turned white; a consequence of the “flow” cast given how it scorched her eyes / burnt them out. * 𝙷𝙰𝙸𝚁 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚁 :   white with darker highlights mixed in-between.

𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙴𝙳 𝙱𝚈:  @ndeavor​, um excuse me while I weep. 𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙸𝙽𝙶:  @seiriel​, @twicebled​, @aetla​, @aenchantress​, @chaoswilled​, @garuvusu​, @glacinium​, @dreadwyrmtrance​, @allageyed​, @enpyred​ & @inhumanistic​.

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fading

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Queen of Peace - Florence + the Machine

Like the stars chase the sun Over the glowing hill, I will conquer  Blood is running deep Some things never sleep

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I defend myself with the past which is not mine, the archeology of manure: this is not history, nothing ever happened here, there were no battles or victories: only deaths.

Margaret Atwood, from Digging in “Selected Poems I: 1965-1975″ (via adrasteiax)