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March 18, 2021

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March 21, 2021

Well I’m still forgetting to take pictures 🤷🏻‍♀️. I will try my hardest to get back to it. Works been better… I don’t feel like I’m having a heart attack everyday anymore… so that’s a good sign. Still having some problems because I don’t have the right access to do all of my job yet. But hopefully I’ll get the access soon so I can get on with it.

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March 17, 2021

Much needed night out tonight. I needed to just be in the moment for a little bit. It sucked that we couldn’t celebrate how I’d like to… but it was still a good night with just me and Ryan. In other news I’m a light weight now 😱. One tall and one short beer and I was tipsy. How am I going to survive Emo night when it finally starts again?!

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March 9th, 2021

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March 16, 2021

I had the shittiest first week imaginable. so no pictures for awhile… I barely want to look at myself let alone take a picture. My anxiety was so bad I couldn’t eat, felt nauseous, was throwing up, crying all the time, and lost almost 10 pounds in just a week. I was a complete mess. I honestly thought about quitting and going back to the bakery. The only thing that kept me going was how much money I was going to be getting. Sure money isn’t everything but it sure helps a lot of stuff. I was so stressed out over all this shit that my period was late. Then obviously I started stressing about the possibilities of what that could bring especially with the nausea and vomiting.

But ya know everything works out eventually. My period started once my stress level dropped a little. That then dropped it even more. By the middle of the second week I’m feeling a little better.

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March 8, 2021

Wow today was exactly what I thought but also nothing like I thought. Sooo stressful but hopefully it’ll get better. We stayed at my house last night to try to make today as smooth as possible. It would be nice if we could stay some more. It’s nice sleeping back in my own bed. I’m ready to sleep for like 12 hours now.

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March 7, 2021

So tomorrow is the big day. I’m so nervous I think I’m going to die. I haven’t felt this much panic in a long time. But on to other panic inducing items. I think we have some semi plans for a house. Don’t feel the greatest about it but I think we can make it our own. Ryan on the other hand keeps flip flopping on how he feels. One second it seems like he’s on board then the next not so much. I don’t know the whole thing is just ughhhhhh. Like I know I’m hyper fixated on the house situation to keep my mind off of the anxiety of starting a new job. I just wish that I could hyper fixate on something a little less stressful.

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March 6, 2021

I feel like I’ve looked high in my last few pictures. I’m not it’s just that I’ve been an emotional wreck the past few days. If I’m not overthinking everything in my life I’m tearing up thinking about everything. Like what’s changing and what’s coming next. I don’t know I’m just a huge mess right now.

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March 5, 2021

I can tell this living situation isn’t going to work. If I’m honest I haven’t felt like it’s working for awhile now. Only problem is I want to find a place for the two of us but Ryan is reluctant. The thing is I’ve basically already moved out of my house. I sleep at his every night then come home in the mornings and change. So to me I’ve already took the plunge. And to be honest it’s pissing me off that he doesn’t want to move. Ughhhhhhhhhh

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March 4, 2021

I GOT THE JOB

Oh my god I actually got it. I had a feeling I might have with the phone call yesterday and everything but I didn’t want to get my hopes up. On a side note… I had a mild breakdown driving to Ryan’s house tonight. With so much rolling around in my head it was a bit much. Getting the job, anxiety over if I’ll do ok, if we should get our own place finally, and so much more. Sometimes ya just got to let it out and ugly cry for a bit.

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March 3rd, 3021

So I had a call from the head finance guy from the job I interviewed at yesterday. So that makes me think it’s going well. It’s nerve wracking and I’m super scared that if I get this job that I won’t do good cause it’s been so long since I did accounting work. But I’m here willing to learn and do whatever I need to get the job done.

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March 2, 2021

Had an interview today that I really hope went well. It would be so nice to get this job. But like I haven’t done anything with my degree since 2018 so when they asked me some accounting questions I didn’t get them all right. But for once I’m going to be optimistic.

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March 1, 2021

Y’all I actually remembered to take a picture today. This months goal is to take a picture for every day. Nah, not really. I’ve got way more important goals than that. But as of now that one seems the most reasonable.

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February 28, 2021

I can’t believe it’s the last day of February already. This year is going by so fast. Hopefully March will bring me some good fortune.

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February 27, 2021

I’ll probably catch up with this eventually… maybe.…

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February 26, 2021

I for real keep forgetting to do this.

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February 25, 2021

I finally remembered to take a picture. Pretty sure it’s been about a week. I just haven’t felt like it lately. Barely felt like writing anything. But I’m hoping to be better at this.

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February 24, 2021

After a mini breakdown yesterday about my whole job situation today is looking up a little bit. Had a temp agency call me to set up an interview for a few of their jobs. This temp agency actually seems like a good fit for me compared to the ones in town. Then had a second interview with a job in Painesville. The job description changed so now it’s full-time so I’d be more willing to take it. While I was waiting for that interview I got a call from another job to set up an interview for Tuesday. And on the drive home I got a call from one of the temp agencies in town about a job opportunity. So I’ve got lots of opportunities but let’s see if any of them pan out.

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February 23, 2021

I had an interview at a daycare today. Can you believe that I stooped so low as to apply for a daycare. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m probably definitely not getting the job… But Interview what kind of good. It was nice being able to talk to somebody about my job issues without really knowing them or caring what I thought.