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I can feel it, it’s in my guts. There’s a different life for me, out there. Ghaaad. Lead me to it

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I feel like I need to do a risk

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I wonder whom I can ask for a quick stroll and a non-stop chit-chat, it feels like I am still not satisfied. Im always grateful but it feels like I am still not enough, what I have is still not enough. I hope there’s someone out there with a mind like mine, who will drag me to Allen in the middle of the night for a spontaneous trip, drag me to islands, somewhere, swim with me at night, live with me on tents, drink as hard as I am drop dead, someone who would take pictures of me. I want mad, intimate, hard love. I want it like in movies. I want to live a different life. I want outside my town!

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U gotta move ✨

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Last night I drove from allen to catarman alone via the shortcut road in lavezares. It’s scary but both thrilling grabe la ak fighting spirit hahaha kaisog grabe!

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I miss reading law books, i think ill start reading books for 2nd yr subjeccts heheh

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This man and his love for bands

I was really calm because it is Friday today so I can have an overtime to finish this best peso compliance na giihai na namon gnpara trabaho

Yet this guy really wanted to attend Benben

And so I was sk determined to finish my part in best peso

Haaay, anything I would do for this guy

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I miss Mom, she’s sick, has cough again. But we will have time together this weekend and on my birthday. Cant wait to take photos and videos of her and treat her verry princessy

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What do you call this longing and wanting?

I could never imagine not seeing him within a day, it irritates and annoys me when I have to work and study and not see him

I kinda want to be independent and not need him and look for his presence but I always wanted to be around him

I am becoming clingy and possessive i think? But we got to spend only our times 2 hrs in a day because of work, and couldnt even hang out with him during weekends because oh his shop duties and my study sesh

That’s why there’s sumthing in me that wants to spend whole days with him

But, I also feel guilty when I do not have time to take my mom and family out, my treat, or hang out with them because, it feels like time is so fleeting, I hang out with Eyb, with them and I couldnt study anymore

Well, I am thinking of marriage so that I could be legally with Eyb and somehow manage being with him but it is still out of his picture

I dont know anymore, whats wrong with me, it just feels like Im running around in circles

I want to spend time with Eyb, I want to hangout with mom and family and shangie and Sigad, I want to hangout with my friends and classmates, I want to study law, and I want to work well but I just couldnt handle it

But I hope Ill survive this sem and pass! And let’s figure out what life will bring next sem! Fighting

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Year 1 is almost over, one last exam next week and yehey survived 1st year of studying in Bachelor of Laws.

I have 5 subjects

Consti 2

Crim Law 2

Civ pro 1

Legal Research

Obli Con and Sales

So far I survived and passed 4 subjects, however I am not sure in Civ pro 1. Goshh lemme pass Judge but if not I will also accept the reality that I will not finish it in 4 years maybe. Laban, atleast u did try

Thank you so much, Laws! You saved my wandering mind ☺️

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I still have many things to write, but first lets sleep hahaha it is already 1am

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Let me just recall my fondest and best memories of my lifeee

1. When I saw firsthand mom and ate angel reconcile on a PPE during angel’s litol family quarantine: I was just there laughing while half crying because I cant believe it is happening right in front of my eyes

2. Our trip to Manila on Christmas, with Kuya and shann and mama and everyone

3. Mom’s first bday celeb with Ate angel and erinbear in it

4. When Mom get to see us bonding together, shes just so happy and her eyes just twinkles and lit up. Like really happy, like right now when Ate is back home for a vacay, shes just sooo happy

5. When I get to travel to Coron, Palawan alone. I am the happiest! It is so nice to travel solo.

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Read for whole day today like literally from 9 am to 1am. 🙂

Im so serious to pass the civil procedure exam dear 🙂

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And another new win: I am one of the exempted for taking the exam in sales. So I will only last 2 exams to take for finals! Yeyyy 🥰☝🏻

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Wait, I always forgot to write my lucky chances in life. Let me enumerate some of it:

1. My boss was not around so I was able to relax and review my notes since I am so nervous already since I havent study from weekend unti Tuesday because of our work and compliance for a Search

2. Our exam was moved to 1pm, so I can have time for the OT and not mixed up my work with studies

3. I was not chosen as part of the highest position in our work which enabled me to pursue my other dream- study laws

4. Our exam last sem, was not continued on the scheduled time due to a typhoon (well i am not saying na its lucky, but grabe lang the chances to study to make it happen, since i wasnt prepared and havent studied)

5. When we were having an OT in work- packing livelihood materials and I decided not to attend the class and yes, I was not called in class in Obli

6. When I am tired and decided not to attend class in Consti and sakto wara manggud klase gosh

7. When I attended Santacruzan, and I decided to attend late because i really want to listen in the mass and homily, so I decided not to attend anymore and just submit my digest after the Santacruzan event, then suddenly there was message in the gc, Sir stating there will be no class and apologizes for the late notice. Omggg thanks God tlaga

8. I attended RCSP and we finished late, and I planned to not attend the class or maghabol nalang then may message ulit na walang class huhuh grabe obli pirmi timing

9. In crimlaw classes also nung nagka hubag ak there were no classes also that enabled me to only have 1 absent instead of 2 omgg thanks G

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Lowkey still hoping that he would accompany me on my birthday plans yet I want to be an understandable gf since he wanted to buy his dream phone and soccer shoes