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God do I yearn.

I want a love, a romantic love so badly that I can feel my heart ripping through my throat.

It feels like I'm splitting in half, as if to copy myself.

I'm the only one who could love a person like me.

I want a love, a love like the bliss of seeing the Sun rise after a terrible night. Because that's what it's be for me.

After a life of no one finding me worth it, no one finding me beautiful, interesting or entertaining enough to think of standing by my side, finding love would be seeing the Sun rise after 30 years of darkness.

Yes I have platonic love, and a brother who's one of my best friends. But is it so bad to wish for more?

Am I just not worth loving?

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wanting and being wanted

sources:

1. chaandajaan // 2. schuylerpeck // 3. phantom pain by caitlin conlon // 4. desperation sits heavy on my tongue by a.m // 5. what I could never confess without some bravado by emily palermo // 6. are_you_okay66 on tiktok // 7. ashstfu // 8. lily rain @/lilyrainpoetry on insta // 9. love as an act of merciful conquer by silas denver melvin // 10. 300122 by @ryebreadgf

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OF ALL THINGS 2025 by Kent Williams.

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old people are always like “you guys want everything to be easy” yessss queen exactly……

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I want to be a better friend, I do.

But when I say I am no better than a man, unfortunately that means I am bad at interpretting texts, I don't get context clues, I need things spelled out. I am also dumb and don't think to give context clues or elaborations to what I'm saying.

I didn't mean to make you upset, I didn't mean to invalidate you.

I just wish I didn't have to wait so long for you to take a breath and reach out when you feel better. I want to talk it through when it happens. Giving each other space to decompress before we talk it out scares me.

When you step back to sort your feelings and you're gone over a day I feel like you're gonna abandon me.

You're the only friend I have left

Please just teach me to be better, I can mold myself anyway you need me to.

Don't leave me