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Hi hi commfishions…..

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alas poor griddle

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oh that? that’s my childhood, yeah, it’s just the generic brand, but it was just like the regular kind, yeah, and it tastes the same as the other stuff, or at least that’s what my mom says anyway haha

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medicalising the trans body

two colour riso

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Found Wanting

two colour riso, copies available Here

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Quiet, cozy moments 🌛

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[ you meet god and she is mostly dead fish. ]

a comic based on this post:

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"all the wrong people are unlearning shame" right yes, and i assume that all the right people are still trying to convince themselves that their own shame is ennobling, and as such their open resentment towards people with insufficient shame is a valuable moral service

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Pipe-intestine passage way.

God (1917), by Baroness Elsa von Freytag-Loringhoven and Morton Livingston Schamberg, gelatin silver print.

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#FishFriday 🐟:

Shiro Kasamatsu (笠松 紫浪 Kasamatsu Shirō) (Japan, 1898-1991)

Waves of Petals, 1956

Color woodblock print, oban size, image 36.9 * 24.7 cm (14.5 * 9.7 in)

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things designed to become more beautiful with wear>>>>

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untitled (tight squeeze), 2024

18 x 19 x 23 inches

just realized i never posted this piece here?? i made this in an intro to sculpture class that i took during my last semester of college and its something im really really proud of, i learned how to weld for it!

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so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation, the goal of which was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-denial that so many of us once learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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The Kiss of the Lash - ink on paper, some digital - 2022

a commissioned piece

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talk about something you want so loudly and so obnoxiously that someone who has been repressing wanting that exact thing for so long and so miserably that they can’t not lash out at you

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extremely cool article you should read if you haven’t already