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If your regular everyday clothes* were put on a mannequin, and placed in a group of other mannequins that are dressed in regular street clothes of your region, could the people who know you spot the mannequin who is "you" from clothes alone?

*if you are of an unusual size or build, assume for the sake of this thought experiment that they've found clothing items that are otherwise identical to yours, but able to fit to a standard mannequin

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honestly I think impending change is worse than the changes actually happening, because when things are actually happening it's no longer a mystery box. I can just react to what already is instead of having to brainstorm what to do about what might be.

he was crabby today because he had to do stuff all weekend instead of resting, but he was able to articulate that he needed a break from my chatter and he got it. and she was feeling "raw" this evening after making a list of what she will need for the home they went to look at yesterday, she tried to hide it but ended up just being held for a bit, then we played video games for the rest of the evening.

I know it'll all be fine, but change can be really rough on me. I've lived with her for more than 8 years. and technically I could just go with her, but moving is not only miserable but dangerous. staying here is an infinitely more stable environment, and keeps me access to my doctors. and I can technically go visit whenever I want, for as long as I want. honestly I think I'm more worried about him than us? idk it just feels like a lot to ask and I'm not even the one asking. like I'm sure they've talked about it and worked stuff out amongst themselves and I'm worried over nothing but I missed it all because I was dying.

I just want to get it over with. I want to get through the awful Change part and get to the new routine, whatever it is. the room redecoration is part practicality, but it's also part attempt to make there be something to look forward to, a change that is under my control and for my benefit.

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-n- it is irritating that he'll complain to me about her at any given moment, but he'll never actually tell her these things bother him. especially when it's things that are easy to solve, like "the dremel noise is turning me evil and she works from home two days a week anyway"

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oh yeah also in this load of stuff out of my closet:

dressform

ukulele from the worst ex I need to refinish

my old coin collection

some rocks

my half finished giant squid plush (and all the stuffing for it)

a lot of other fabric (most of which is honestly hideous)

the table I stole from dad

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stepdad dropped off a bunch of stuff, mostly books, and half of them are like textbooks and stuff my uncle gave me that I am not keeping but half of them are like, almost all of my bloody jack books and almost all my tamora pierce books and stuff which was very exciting except I'm missing volume 1 of most of them lol so they must be in other boxes.

then we went to the fancy yarn store, matt got me 3 skeins of the yarn I wanted and someone there to sit and knit was very taken with my sweater.

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on monday I woke up fine, brushed my teeth, recorded lab results, cancelled appt, updated financial spreadsheets, cleared out tabs, did a reply roundup, shopped for curtains, made sunglasses case, folded stars, took a bath, checked mail, scooped cat litter, gave jackie greenies, brushed my teeth again, and drew kirby.

on tuesday I took prednisone, brushed my teeth, replaced sheets, pestered arin, checked craigslist, photographed stock, messaged pcp, messaged immunologist, edited photos, drafted all listings, drew announcement, updated craft accts, shopped for curtains, folded stars, washed dishes, gave jackie greenies, brushed my teeth again, and drew kirby.

on wednesday I imported objectives, brushed my teeth, walked to store, stopped at bakery, got sore, prepped container, counted stars, unpicked stitches, darned blankey, crocheted, sorted laundry, peeled carrots, supervised soup, cleaned floor gunk, replied to doc, got fussy, gave jackie greenies, brushed my teeth again, drew kirby, and sent scheduled message.

on thursday I took prednisone, brushed my teeth, robot vacuumed, sorted shred pile, shredded papers, crocheted, fed cats, updated financial spreadsheets, got fussy, talked to matt, talked to arin, gave jackie greenies, brushed my teeth again, and drew kirby.

on friday I brushed my teeth, crocheted, scooped cat litter, folded laundry, put away laundry, cleaned robot vacuum, walked to pharmacy, wrapped lamp, got food delivered, fed cats, got tired, took a bath, got blechy, gave jackie greenies, and drew kirby.

on saturday I took prednisone, brushed my teeth, put away dishes, researched lingering pain, went to big lots, went to craft store, went to dollar store, went to hardware store, got sore and sleepy, gave jackie greenies, and drew kirby.

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[221] to die would be an awfully big adventure

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got sidetracked reading some tweets from last year because I reread old posts sometimes and wow boy howdy even just reading about it is still kinda triggering since I still have not actually had enough of a break to like. long-term process any of that shit. and she's already moving again in a couple months which I haven't gotten to long-term process either. Fuckin Rough Dude.

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the first volume of this vampire won't give up was cute, it feels a little shallow and loud but I do also kind of like the main character, both consciously aware of how much of a sucker she is for a handsome face and consciously aware that she continues to be a sucker even immediately after resolving not to fall for it this time. I also like the whole through line where he's the son of her favorite author, and her favorite author she met once at a signing is her "first love" that she's been using as a handsomeness template for all these failed romances XD plus actually she also met him at that signing and just forgot until then and he'd been surprised and delighted when she randomly stumbled back into his life. but it feels like they're not doing much with it at least in this volume. maybe they have too much going on? cuz he's also a manga artist and she's his temporary editor, and like obviously he is a vampire. I do appreciate that none of these things are like, surprises or secrets, as that gets boring quickly to me. actually they even reveal who the random guy walking in on them on the last page of the last chapter of the volume is, in like a little bonus couple pages for the collected volume. so they're really playing things openly as a storyteller.

I'm not currently super invested in reading more, as there's plenty of other series I find more compelling, but I did enjoy it.

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someone reblogged tonight's kirby and actually has a "mariners tag" sorting tag so I poked through briefly and somehow I wasn't aware that there are folks out here blogging about the mariners like they're rpf hockey converts and honestly I am glad to know this. some of the shit I saw is already so funny (genuine and not mocking).

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she's feeling a little gross from all the travel so she mostly hung out by herself tonight but like such is life. (they did each give me time to ramble about my journey outside today tho)

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they are safely home and both very impressed with the place they looked at (he actually casually mentioned it would be a great place for all 3 of us which probably means nothing)

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also I've noticed that since I realized a desktop may better suit my computing needs, I like really want a desktop lol

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I also almost got some good looking cookies at big lots, they were those flat waffley type cookies but they were lemon flavor, but they didn't have a price on them so I didn't bother :( the only thing I kinda regret passing on. those sound really tasty rn and I burned a lot of energy being out.

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also I think my water bottle leaked on my tie blanket yesterday and it is still damp today :( I wish we had an in unit dryer

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girl I just got a blazed post of hetalia fanart in year of our lord, no shade to op but I genuinely thought that fandom was long dead

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Hey, I found a beanie boo that I liked the design of but I can't stand those giant uguu eyes. Do you think it would be possible to replace them with smaller safety eyes akin to the old beanie babies? If yes, do you have any advice?

I was gonna answer this in a normal way, but then I got curious about trying it for myself and thought I might as well demonstrate!

So, I went and picked up a guy from the supermarket. The selection there was pretty barren today but I found a decent test subject:

Eye replacement procedure below!

(First of all, to my friend who loves beanie boos, I am so sorry for this lmao)

So! First I opened up the closing seam on his back. However, I found an extra mesh barrier inside! Clearly this is to prevent bean escape since this is the most likely seam to accidentally pop open through play. This would be a bit annoying to work around so I just sewed it back up and went in the back of the head instead…

Opened and unstuffed the head…

…And turning it inside out to get to the backs of the eyes. Whoa, these plastic washers are the biggest I’ve ever seen!! Cutting through them will take some work!

Please be very careful of your fingers cutting through these!! Be careful not to cut the fabric around the eye too, but mostly be careful of yourself!

Anyway grrrrrrr attack attack slice slice grrrr

They’re out! With a little glue I think the washers would be able to hold on perfectly well again. I’ll keep these eyes to reuse on something where they’ll be a bit more proportional!

The washers on these eyes are particularly cup shaped, fitting around the back of the eye and holding the fabric tightly against them. Now that the eyes are removed, this has left imprints on the fur!

Plenty of brushing and rumfling will help to fix the creased and flattened areas of fur, and wetting the fur or gently steaming over a hot cup of water should help too. It might take a little time!

(Also, I did make a little cut in the cheek while removing a washer, oops! No worries, that can be stitched up.)

Now we can try on a few new eye styles! Restuff the head for now so you can see how they’ll look.

I have a few sizes of solid black, from teeny dots to absolute tbh creature…

These blue eyes were a little scary… no thanks!

I even have some glittery ones like the original, but smaller! Pretty nice actually!

And even some googly eyes hehehe!

But my favourite eyes were some basic 9mm black ones! They are placed a little funny here, but the position will change a little bit…

The holes left by the original eyes were very big, so a couple of stitches are needed on each one to tighten them up to fit the new eyes. I stitched the top outer corners, to move the holes down and inwards a bit. If you wanted, you could even sew them closed completely and make new eye holes elsewhere!

Unstuff again and pop those new eyes in!

Restuff! You might actually need to add a little extra stuffing, as the fabric not being so pulled around the eyes any more will mean it is a little ‘baggier’.

Then sew the head closed again and that’s about it! The fur is still a little creased around mine, but I’ll keep working at it and it should become less visible.

To add a tiny bit more shape to the big round head, I also did a touch of threadsculpting. I ran a thread from the corner of each eye to below the chin and back, just pulling the eyes in a tad more. You might decide you don’t need this!

And there we go! Hope you’ll try it yourself!