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You dirty chai

Tyne via IG

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I’m that kind of person who keeps letters and birthday cards, tickets from trains, parks or museums.

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you ever wanna fuck the living shit outta somebody but also cook for them and make sure they’re emotionally stable?

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S a e m .

Stress + Eating Disorder

Here we go again..it’s getting bad again.

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i want a “mutually obsessed with each other but in a healthy way” kind of relationship

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“The back of a very happy bean’s head whilst exploring some of her favorite places”

Lynn Gunn

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i understand that my friends don’t wanna talk every day. i understand that my s/o doesn’t wanna be lovey dovey and super indulgent every day. lots of people need rest from performative emotions. all people need rest in general! it’s okay!! it doesn’t mean they don’t love me!! it’s not a judgement or punishment!! they deserve to take their rest, and they deserve for me to treat their needs with respect!

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I’ve been upside down I don’t wanna be the right way round Can’t find paradise on the ground…

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This is for...everybody.

This is for the depressed whose mind forces you that you can no longer go on because it’s all useless and worthless, you are not your depression. You are not why it is so hard to get up in the morning. You are not the negative thoughts that keep you awake at night. You are not the missed opportunities you have slept through because sleep seems like the only escape. You are not tears you try to hide when you go in the shower. You are not the emptiness you feel when you’re supposed to be happy over beautiful things. You are not your depression. You are a person with depression, you’re still a person and you’re alive and you still have hope to heal, to have a beautiful life.

This is for the anxious ones whose mind cannot focus on one things because every single thing is too much. You are not your anxiety. You are not that buzzing tornado you feel inside you every time something happens. You are not how you lose control and how things slip from your hands because it’s all just too much. You are not your worries, your fears, your potential mistakes. You are much more than this. You will rise above all this and somebody but right now, just keep going. Count to ten to relax. Focus on specific things like the color of the walls when things just get too much. You can do this. You can do this. You can do this.

This is for the insecure ones who never believed in themselves. You are not your mistakes. You are not your past. You are not your imperfections. You are not your flaws. You are not what people say about you. You are not the number your weighing scale shows you. You are not the size of your pants. You are not the things you find ugly in yourself. Who you are is another human being whose soul is looking for patches when there are holes in you but you need these holes for light to come through, to let the darkness inside you fade. You may find comfort in yourself, to not always seek for perfection but for comfort and peace whether it’s a strength or weakness or flaw or beauty. 

This is for the brokenhearted ones who feel like it’s the end of the world. Maybe it’s the end of just one world, of one chapter in your life. There is pain inside you that words cannot even describe but it’s tearing you apart and you don’t wanna wake up anymore. But hearts heal. Pain fades. Or maybe when pain doesn’t fade away, you get to be the stronger version of you that lives with the pain and be okay with you. This broken heart of yours will find its pieces again and be whole in time. But right now, gently hold the pieces and let every edges be covered in love from people around you. You will heal soon. You will be okay.

This is for the angry ones who just can’t let go. It’s okay. You have the right to be mad. to be angry. or even to get hurt. You have valid emotions but anger is can grow into hatred and hatred can rot your soul. Be angry for a while. Say things you wanna say but be careful. And learn to forgive, maybe not for them for yourself because if you hold onto these things, you might miss out on better things you deserve. 

This is for the ones feeling they’re alone. Whether you are actually alone or you just feel alone despite the people around you, you got this. You got yourself. If there’s no one else to push you, do it for yourself. You can do this. If there is someone, let them in. Let them break your walls and let them in. Let them be there for you. Let them see who you are and let them be there for you. You need people too but you need to be there for yourself first. You can grow on your own for a little while and use this time to discover yourself first.

This is for ones feeling lost. You are confused. You don’t know what’s next. You don’t know what you want. Or maybe you do but when you don’t know what to do next. You are clueless or you have too many choices. You see too many roads and you don’t know which path to take. It’s okay. You can pause for a little while and think. But remember whatever you do, wherever you go, you will eventually come to the places you need to be. You will be who are you meant to be and you will realize why things have to happen. Breathe for a while, you are not in control of everything. Just breathe. 

This is for everyone, you’re all valid. What you feel is valid. Where you are now isn’t necessarily who you are. Your past may be dark but your present gives you the choice to add light into your future. Your soul may need rest but keep going when you can. You can cry when you need to. Just breathe. Love. Hope. Have faith. You’re all not supposed to be perfect in everything. You got this. 

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When I say, I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.

Joss Whedon  (via thelovejournals)

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When I say, I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.

Joss Whedon  (via thelovejournals)

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Lyn and Lights!!! 💖

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my heart still skips a beat everytime i read your name.

i don’t know. we both have our own life today. you with your little city life. struggling to be one with the people that surround you. i know for a fact that youre struggling, maybe less since the last time we talked. and me with my little messed up life. still undecided on what to do with my life. juggling responsibilities and feelings. its been a year, i think, since we talked face to face about life and shits. i still miss you but now, im not sure with what i really feel. 

we both have our own life and its good to know that youre doing well. for the last time, thank you for being a part of my messed up life. i wish you well. 

sana sa susunod nating pagkikita, pareho na tayong masaya.

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Anxiety. A constant, burdening, itch that can never be satisfied.

somewherebeyondwonderland, writing prompt #65: write a ten-word-story (via wnq-writers)