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i wish this sad would go away

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one of my friends popped in to see me at work today and i was telling them about zenless and i joked saying " you guys got me " ( ' you guys ' being the furries ) and they said " finally , it's about time " and i said " about time ? " and they said " yeah. look at you. it was bound to happen eventually "

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when does he get here !!?

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dealing with the crippiling realization that i have to actually create things for people to interact with me

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im just so sad and i don't know why

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i've been very sad so here's a list of things that make me happy that im still alive ;; ( u can ignore this , it's just for me )

tights with funky patterns ( bonus points if each leg has a different design )

blue ‘nd brown color combo

seeing lambs play

blue on blue outfits especially with denim

collecting things

white tulips and baby’s breath

paper stars

taking handwritten notes

when seashells are stuck in wet sand

cold showers , but hot baths

when restaurants have the napkins folded pretty

the texture of oil pastels

water drops

tomato juice ( i can’t wait until im old enough to try a bloody mary )

my cat , ‘n’ the things she does that reminds me that we’re just one soul in two different bodies

every few months when my baby-est brother goes through a phase where he loves to cuddle 'nd be held

lace curtains

the fact that i know that one day i’ll have my own home that i can decorate however i want

buttons

dolls

when dragonflies run into me

foamy coffee

the smell of cut grass

snails

when bugs climb onto my backpack ( surprise friends ! )

seeing the creative things people make

safety pins

how thin the pages of the bible are

silver trinkets

sudoku & word searches

dried flowers

cotton balls

how light my head feels after haircuts

explaining something 'n' being understood

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characters apologizing for things they have no control over. mumbling sorry while losing consciousness. feeling ashamed of a bleeding wound. embarrassed when an infection sets in. deep seated feverish guilt when they need to be carried, when their legs won't keep them upright anymore and they lean heavy on a friend, slurring apologies..........

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finished chapter 2 ( more or less ) uhhhh we're two for two with zenless chapters making layla cry ...

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" i wear sunglasses so nobody can tell what im looking at "

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"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?

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not sure if it's just bc he's voiced by mister saab but i am very much digging anton ....

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my huohuo popsicle sticker is peeling off my laptop :((

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soooooo sleepy but i really wanna get to meeting lycaon in the story

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i need to know the answer to this. it is very very important knowledge that i absolutely must have !

do u think his tail would wag if i scratch him behind the ear ?

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do u think his tail would wag if i scratch him behind the ear ?

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i was showing my brother zenless today when he came over , 'nd i was going through the characters with him , and i told him " oh and this is the one my friend likes " 'nd showed him hugo. and he said " now i've never met a vampire before, but that. that's one of them "

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@bellstrung / @larkwinged

dearly beloved