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[chammy16]

I have this odd thoughts.

Thought like,

I felt like the world will still revolve without me.

And the people around would still be okay without me

It felt like they're better off without me.

They're gonna be fine without me.

I'm certain of it. :))

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It saddened me how time change everything. 

As I look old photos, 

I saw how pure and sincere it was before. 

I saw how it was good before

And if I could turned back time,

I was I could make it  stay

Just what and how it is. 

Well, I see the good in changes. 

But sometimes, changes.. took the most genuine moment. 

One person, who was being him, goffy, smiles a lot and actually sweet,

Now became cold. 

One person, who was really active, set hospitable examples, 

Now became inactive.

Couple who were my favorite and use to be my second mom and dad,

Now they were silent by death 

And just waiting to be called. 

One person, who was very zealous and my role model, 

made mistake and totally changed her life. 

One person, who I rely the most 

Got lost. 

One person who used to be really zealous too and has good qualities, 

Now, just doing what she can do according to her situation. 

Regrets was, maybe if I did something? 

Will this happen? 

But I was too young back then. 

And now, there's a new set of people sorround me..

And I worry that I will take this all for granted. 

And then time will change it everything again.

And here I am being hopeless

Coz I can't do something 

I just watch how things slowly change 

Until I can't have the glimpse of it. 

It also scared me. 

What if, time will also change me into something that I never imagine. 

Just like how those people change and turn into something .. that I know they don't also want to happen. 

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I sing my heart out.

Coz somehow this song comforts me.

[chammy16]

Lesson 1 : You know what? Don't listen to that voice when YOU'RE SAD.

What voice?

Those negative voices hypnotizing you.

That you're worthless!

That you're bad!

That you will never change!

That you are this and and that!

No!

It was all a LIE.

And you will know it once you're okay, HAHA!

Funny how your own mind and thoughts drown you. But guess what?

News flash!

You are in the driver seat.

You can control your mind and emotions.

Show them who's the boss😎

Ps. This is so funny! Hahahahhaha

This is me after being okay.

See???

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I really appreciate this. I really do. But sometimes this kind of messages makes me feel so immature.. immature in a way that maybe if, just maybe if they didn't notice that I was being not okay, maybe if I acted more matured, I wouldn't get this kind of messages. Messages like trying to tame me.

But thank you so much, I wish I can tell you what I really feel. But I think I can't. I'm overthinking that the moment I'll started to share, I'm just gonna get your sympathy. And im just so OA.. I should have acted okay and move on.

Thank you nae. I wish I can do better for you. I'm sorry for not acting as a friend.

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aww thank you so much anty. thank you for appreciating♥️🥺🤟

Now I'm gonna cry if I loss you. So stay healthy auntie. You've done so much for Jehovah. You are a perfect example of giving the very best for Jehovah, using time in the most bestest way, and setting mature example in congregation.

I've heard ur flaws, but honestly I can't side with those flaws.. because what you showed to me are all opposite of what I heard.

That's why I like you.

I'm glad that I met you.

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Our motto for today and forever isssss JUST BE OKAY!

haha, yes! I mean yeah just be okay. Like, you might feel frustrated, angry and disappointed but who cares? Do someone really care? Like care as in care? Like care as in know how to mend you? No.

You're just a bad girl.

Kaya okay.

Yon lang.

Hahahaha!

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Regional Convention with a theme "Exercise Patience!" (Magmapailobon!" )

I don't know but for me, patience was so underrated before..

It was always love.. lovee and lovee and patience is most likely never to mention.

But this 3day convention, it made me appreciate patience so much.

Patience is a very beautiful virtue that I really want to apply..

Here are some key points that I learned:

If I have a problem, be patience that everything will be alright.. because it will really be alright in time.

Jehovah sees it all ug si Jehova naghulat nga pakitaan tag pabor busa pailob lang!

Be patience with everyone. Patience comes with understanding.. understand soround you. Understand your friends and family even though sometimes you don't understand why they act like that. Be patience with them..

And be patience with yourself🥺

Because everything is on process.

Everything will not happen in a very short time.

Your goal? It won't happen in a snap.. you need to patience to come up with it.

Spiritual routine? It needs patience.

Good qualities? It also needs patience.

Mga Saad ni Jehova? It also needs patience and trust that it will come true.

Jehovah was also patience..

There's this talk that I will never forget..

He said 'What if Jehovah was not patient? What if in year 2017, Jehovah ended this all?

Do you think, you are in paradise right now? '

And I said, no.

I was not ready that time.

If Jehovah ended it all that year, I would never experience a great relationship with Jehovah and that start in a year 2020.

Jehovah was and is always patience.

And I must try to imitate that.

I must try hard..

08-01-23

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My 3 day regional convention ug ang dili mawala wala nga notebook😆😆

First day, I was completely in awe seeing so many brothers and sisters it was indeed a paradise♥️

My heart filled with so much joy in this 3day convention.

My clapping at the end of every session was not enough to sought what joy I really feel.

I can't thank enough Jehovah and also people behind this to make it all possible.

It was so organized🥺

I hope someday, I will be part of the volunteer team preparing for this very amazing event❤️

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I want to tell and remind my self, to be kind always.

BE KIND.

TO EVERYONE.

Don't focus to yourself too much.

The behaviour of others is something that you cannot control.

But you can control how you respond to it.

Everyone is facing battles.

You are and We all are!

So please just be kind.

Don't be selfish.

Try to understand others..

And be kind to them.

Just don't and don't.. please don't focus about what you feel..

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this always petrified me..

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Making a first step for a dream and plans for future✨ Learning VA courses.

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I don't know but I can't stop smilinggggggggg huhuhu.

These two are like my childhood dreams.

But here it isssssss, I got one. FINALLY😭

Thank you so much sis liezel and kuya tonnn🥺🥰

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My plan for this whole sem break monthhhh

[chammy16]

062623 I just finished watching Anne with an e. I can't explain this but I wanted season 4 and 5 and 6 and everthingggggg!! I almost forgot that what I'm watching is fictional and now I am so hurt that all that I watched is not happening in real world. There is no Anne and Diana. There is no Anne and Gilbert. And there is no loving parents like Matthew and Marilla. Coz in reality, they have different livesss. ): How to get over this. I was so drawn of the series, I was so hooked that I was hoping and loving every character of it.. and reality slaps that they weren't real. All was scripted. Huhu. I'll get over this. But I'm gonna miss everything about this series ):

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so pretty anne! with an e ofc

Life is worth living as long as there's a laugh in it.

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our ice coffee date+ spiritual activity