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i'd always assumed these photos reminded me of niagra falls because thats the only waterfall i can name but i guess it actually is (about 6 hours from newtown)

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My best friend was born on the actual day columbine happened and my boyfriend is the same age as the perpetrators (born 1981)

What does this mean lol

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I knew it was over for me when I started crying for and mourning Adam and everything surrounding the Sandy Hook case, I was initially disgusted and appalled by the case and his Cultural Philistine ramblings but the more I dug into his case, as I dug and listened to his voice and put as many pieces together as possible, the more I felt sad for him and everyone involved and the more I started to feel genuine love for him. I know that's a bit parasocial and I never knew him obviously but as I looked into his case more and more I couldn't help but feel this way.

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Stupid

A couple playlists I made

For the best experience they are intended to be listened to one after the other, Ặ first then ℒ. Ặ is more light-hearted and all over the place, where ℒ is much shorter in track number, only 5 tracks total with 2 of the tracks being MCR songs and the ending track being a very long song/album. That's just my humble opinion though, the last playlist entry in ℒ is something I've been listening to since around when it was uploaded nearly 12 years ago, it is of great importance to me for many reasons and as a vocaloid (and SeeU) fanatic for over a decade I find it to be a masterpiece lol

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hi

hi

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Heh

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<3

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Why is so much of tcc so young...? Like I really don't get it how are over half of you only 15

(Disclaimer: since I already just got a message from someone butthurt about this post I'd like to clarify I'm not judging... just surprised is all)

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Sandy Hook is about a two hour drive from where I live, too bad I don't intend to get my driver's license because I'd love to visit someday... maybe I'll find a way to visit eventually.

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I started drawing Adam recently, I almost always draw traditionally with either pen or pencil and I need this drawing to be perfect but I'm very out of practice (once I get into a groove though I can sometimes make something decent) I can't seem to find the time to finish my drawing of him though because I'm either working or not alone with the possibility of someone looking over my shoulder and asking "who's that?" :(

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Currently in Connecticut to get away from town and see a movie (I'm from New England so basically everywhere in New England is easy to get to aside from like, Maine bc it's huge)

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When I was in 7th grade (when Sandy Hook happened) I was a typical edgy middle schooler and decided to draw a blonde little girl (badly) in a fleeing position with crudely drawn blood splatters in the background using the deviantart paint tool. My thought process behind it was "rest in peace to all the victims, this was a tragedy" but it wasn't interpreted that way seeing as the drawing I uploaded depicted a scared little girl surrounded by blood, despite how cartoonishly bad it had been drawn (I was barely 13) my "friends" at the time, being the little snitches they constantly were went to the principal and informed him of the drawing. Not long after that I was called into his office, he asked me why I made the drawing and I told him exactly what my thought process was behind it. He then responded with "why couldn't you have just posted something nice, like balloons?" I don't remember what my response was after that but whatever it was had him shouting at me until he was beet red in the face LMAO