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I just realised but...

First he grabs her because she might fall. After that he finds a better position for them. On the third panel, he holds her back. But in the last? In the last he holds for dear life. In the last he realises all he almost lost and all she did and all he cares for her and damn. That's something. -Can't stop thinking about the moment before Arianna grabs him in the hug when he looks so glad for her but so sad in the same time.

That movie is quite something.

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"im having creation ideas beyond my skill level" DO IT ANYWAY. "i don't have good supplies" DO IT WITH BAD SUPPLIES THEN. "i don't have free time" SO DO IT SLOWLY.

FIND THE SHORTEST MOST DIRECT ROUTE TO YOUR CREATION BEING REALIZED AND DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET THERE

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Sick, working on two projects, new job: Wait.... Since when did I not write? *look nervously at files* Ah... Need to work on that.

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Who decides things inside a fandom? OO Like the name of a ship, or the name of the people being a part of said fandom or the date of some events... Or things like that? 

It’s something that always intrigue me. Is there a vote that I always miss? Some influent people taking the decision for us? A secret meeting in a secret room to secretly decide? Is it a scam? A Happy coincidence? A Plot?

And why are we all accepting this things..? OO

I need to clue for look -I need an excuse to lost myself in the big internet.-

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Okay, strange topic, but, as a writer, did you ever just bugged on the hits ratio. Like... There’s people reading what I write. And it’s a lot of people. More than a High-school promotion. It’s crazy.

You wrote something and people read it and just.... There’s people who didn’t like it, people who start to read, close the page and re-opened it. People who like this and never felt okay telling you for thousands of personal reasons and people who told you that they liked it and people who read it. And re-read it; And re-re-read it and.... It’s crazy.

I just want to say that I’m grateful that you spent some of your time on what people like me, put on internet. It just hit me. And I find that unbelievable and amazing.

So that you comment and help me see what you like/understand of my texts or that you just read it and left not saying a word about it:

Thank you. 

You’re amazing and I’m grateful for the attention you give to what I and other people do.

And I really have to write more xD

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This month -last two years- is a roller coaster of intenses emotions, delusion and moment of hopelessness and I thought I was finally done with it.

And then I was hit by a big slap of disappointment and I realized that I put far too much faith and hope and trust in things and peoples that I don’t really know things about. And you know what? I’m too old for that!.

I will consider this my Flynn Rider, take my chameleon, my frying pan and jump out of my tower of illusion and easy trust LOL, says the girl with Trust issues and face the wild world of my projects.

Let’s hope that I can find my light and dreams during that journey. I guess it’s time for life to begin.

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It’s gonna be fun!

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Why do you like villains so much when they hurt so many peoples? how would you feel if someone evil came up to you and killed you? Would you like that? Would you like them then

BRO??????

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Mood: I want to do so many things!

Will:... How about we start tomorrow? How about, really, not now? We can start next week..? What do you think of next week? Yeah.... Next month sounds pretty great. Let’s do many things later.

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good day owl house and tangled the series fans

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📥 📝 and 🌈 for Hourglass

Hi Divi ~

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

I love receiving comments on all my works..? But if I really have to chose one, I would say Are you Alright? Not because it's my favorite or anything like this -I don't have a favorite to be honest xD- But because I think it's both "easy" to read and "difficult" to leave without feeling something about it. Or at least it's how I tried to write it xD And I think that strangely, I thought the form of the One-shot for it to serve the story, where I had to think the story for the form in Hourglass or I had to sacrifice it for The Story of Yesterday. There's some kind of creator's curiosity in me when it comes to Are you Alright?. Something like "Did it work? QQ" And the more feedback, the more I know if I achieved my goal -says the Fanfictions' writer xD-

📝 What is one growth area you have for your writing?

I will answer something strange, but I think I got better in letting go? I sometimes just let the characters do things that I'm not really okay with but I'll go with it because the flow of the story is better thanks to that. Or I just try to get what the reader might have seen in the story, that I intended to put that here or not. And it's strangely relaxing and scary in the mean time but it's also extra cool. I'm sometimes surprise by what I end-up with and yeah, I got better at letting things happen and writing things that I might want to write.

🌈 What inspired you to write Hourglass?

Well, I asked Maryflower for a word and I intended to do a short story about that theme, around Christmas Eve. I knew that Froggy1988*, Adi*, Kai517* were working on a Avent Calendar and I thought that it was a fun idea. I had a busy moment, it was like hell in my life and I decided to do my own calendar because it would allow me to deal with some of those problems, while being focused on something and it would also make one Advent Calendar for the other authors who were working on theirs -so you know, they could join the fun of having something new to read each day. And also because I woke up at three in the morning with the two finales sentences of the story and I needed to write them down and do something about it.

I wanted to do something realistic and warm, and "edgy" and loving and most of all, a story with character's growing, understanding, a work in progress with a key moment to end. I created events in mirror, chapters replying each-other, elements linking everything together while following the idea of Maryflower's Snowflake everywhere and tadaaa.

I'm not sure that it answers the question xD But to make it shorter, I would say that I was inspire by Maryflower choice of Snowflake and my annual Christmas badmood linked to special depressing events in 2020 xD

I didn't add anyone in this with a link because it's an answer to an ask and I don't think they have interest in it, but if it's seem more fitting then I think I can look for a way to link them ><

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Hi Adi ~

💖What do you like most about your own writing?

I like that I try different things but always in a way that -tries to- make the reader feels from the character perspective. Like how do you see, or feel, or comprehend the world when you are 9 months old or 31 years old. It's something that I really like to do ><

👻 What is one WIP you think you may never pick back up?

So many of them xD I have different versions of the same story and I know that a lot of those tries are more Dead than WIP xD.

And I have some fanfictions that I really loved at the time and that I see, now, as really not that good. I know that I won't pick them back. One was too much for me to chew and the other one goes absolutely everywhere xD

🏅 What is something you recently felt proud of in regard to your writing (finished a fic, actually planned for once, etc).

That it exists..? It's strange to say this, but two years ago, I wouldn't have imagined writing in English, let alone publishing anything. And while it's far -and I mean faaaaaaaaaaaaaaar- from perfect, it sometimes still surprise me and makes me feel happy that it simply exists and I dared to make it.

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If anyone feels in the mood to ask something ~

-That might help me get back on writing things, I’ve been letting myself go lately =0-

Fanfic Ask Game (the movie, the sequel)

In celebration of me actually working on a fic, I made y’all an ask game instead of continuing to work on that fic. Pls enjoy.

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

😐 What embarrasses you most about your own writing?

👻 What is one WIP you think you may never pick back up?

👀 Do you have any WIPs that you would never let see the light of day? If yes, what are they about?

📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?

✏️ Do you write every day?

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP.

🏅 What is something you recently felt proud of in regard to your writing (finished a fic, actually planned for once, etc).

😈 Is there anything you enjoy doing that you think your readers hate?

🌙  What time of day do you prefer to write? Why?

👖 Are you a planner, plantser, or pantser? Is it consistent?

📊 Current number of WIPs

👨‍👧‍👧 Do you tell people in real life that you write fic? 

🌝 Who is one character you haven’t yet written for that you would like to?

📝 What is one growth area you have for your writing?

📚 Do you read your own fic?

🌈 What inspired you to write [insert fic here]?

🤔 What is the hardest part of writing fic?

🧠 What’s an idea you have that you can’t quite call a WIP yet?

💻 Do you do research for your fics? What’s the deepest dive you’ve done?

✨ Choose three adjectives to complement your own writing.

💭 What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

👩‍🏭 If one of your fics was going to get you arrested, which one and why?

⏰ Do you spend more time reading fic, writing fic, or do you do both equally?

💋 [Freeform - what is something you want to know about one of poster’s fics?]

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Fandom as a concept was ruined when death threats started being normalized. 

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“This asshole blocked me because he couldn’t take how right I am.”

“They don’t reply in that debat. I win”

“They left in the middle of that conversation because they were afraid of my ability to prove them wrong!”

No.

No, they aren’t afraid. No you didn’t win anything. No you weren’t right.

People blocks others because life is short and they don’t have any time to lose in petty war on internet about fictional characters or fictional creation. Some people just join a fandom to chat with other fans about something they liked and don’t care about being seen as right or not. Some people just want to see more of a show, a book, a movie -a FICTIONAL UNIVERSE- and join the wild internet to do so. And chose who they don’t want by their side during that journey.

So no. You weren’t right. You didn’t prove anyone that their way of thinking was bad. You weren’t too right for them to support. You didn’t win anything. 

You’ve been left alone with your ideas because someone deemed you unworthy of their free time. You’ve been exclude out of the journey of fun of someone.

There’s nothing to be proud about in that.

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The level of accuracy in this just hurts TTTwTTT

My life.