chaoskeyvin

[chaoskeyvin]

Forgive me, God, I have sinned. And I'm not ashamed. I'm such a bad man, Father, how am I still alive? God, I'm a fucking queen, so fuck the princesses.

The cross on the chest shows I still believe. The birth stains on my chest is a cross with four top. Are you still there, God?

You see, I'm suffocating, Father. What do you say now? Give me another shot. Send me the light you gave to others. My light goes on -- why isn't she looking at me?

God save the Queen.

[chaoskeyvin]

Burn that fucking letter.

[chaoskeyvin]

I just want to get all my secrets back, I don't want anyone to know anything about me anymore.

[chaoskeyvin]

Homophobia, churches and men.

Hey, so I thought it would be nice to talk about something just to figure out something out of my life. So, by the headline, we'll start with homophobia and why these three words are connected. In fact, there's a lot of time to talk about problems in society because they're endless. Like, seriously, why would I tolerate the fucking shit of my life?

You know, being a homophobe isn't cool. Like, yeah, I'm gay/lesbian/bisexual/any other LGBTQ+ person, but I can be homophobe because it imposed a fucking society on me, yeah. And yes, I admit there's something in this social group, but I can't think of it as normal, because I have biases. But nevertheless, I am not afraid of it, nor despise it. Because there's shit like respect for others. No, I don't respect most people, but their lives are none of my business. I have no right to insult them. But the hate of people will never disappear. That's the problem. And you're trying to fight her. Like, guys, we can never create Utopia, but we can create our own circle of communication. That's cool, right? I'm trying to say it's time to stop fucking other people's brains because they're different from you. Unless they're criminals.

The Bible is used as a tool of oppression because Apostle Matthew wrote that breasts are a sin. But every fucking Bible sex is a sin, no matter who fucks, but the love of a man who's emotional, perfectly normal. My dear, every person looks at the Holy Book differently than any of you. And if you decide to prove something with the Bible, you'll learn the book in an ancient Jewish language. Yeah, I don't believe in fate and luck and all, so you can't call me an atheist.

You really haven't figured it out yet? It is the adult patriarchal men who are the main social group that can't accept other people because of their upbringing. And, like, they can't justify their behavior by animal instincts because we evolved. They don't want to admit they're just moral freaks. And no, I'm just talking about some oppressors, because there are certainly good men.

[chaoskeyvin]

You told me not to write to you. I didn't write. Because I fucking care about your feelings. Yeah, I'm a total dick, I agree. But why am I here yelling if you don't give a fuck about my explanation?!

Fuck it! Let's close the subject!

P.s.And, yeah, I'm a fucking bitch.

[chaoskeyvin]

Shut the fuck up.

First of all, you didn't let me explain everything I had to tell you. Yeah, maybe we're the fucking problem. Yeah, I was like shit, and you have the right to be mad at me. But you thought, what the fuck am I afraid of talking about «us»?!.

Read the text on picture, and maybe you'll understand something.

[chaoskeyvin]

Et je baise tous les sentiments voilés dans les positions. Je vais dire une dernière fois : tu n'es pas pathétique, j'ai besoin de toi et tu n'es pas un remplaçant.

Je déteste ça.

On peut rester tranquille et parler au lieu de nerfs ? Non, sérieusement, j'aurais dû penser aux problèmes avant.

"Nous" n'est pas un problème.

[chaoskeyvin]

Tu ne comprends pas. Je n'ai pas besoin d'amour. J'ai besoin d'un ami. Je ne suis pas prêt à assumer mes responsabilités.

Tu sais que je suis totalement contre qu'on m'aime.

[chaoskeyvin]

Je veux être nécessaire. Mentez-moi, dites-moi que vous avez besoin de moi. Je suis si pathétique, si inutile.

J'ai tellement besoin de toi. Arrêtez. Tu es si belle. Je me fiche des démons que vous êtes. Je ne vais pas te tourner le dos.

[chaoskeyvin]

Laisse-moi me sentir bien. La chaleur humaine me manque tellement. J'ai froid.

[chaoskeyvin]

Tes poèmes sont magnifiques. Et mes illusions ne sont qu'une comparaison de discours.

Sérieusement, vous appelez mes comparaisons -- des illusions, et ensuite vous dites que c'est fou, comme la mort dans la douleur ? Essayez-vous de me convaincre de cela ?

Je n'ai besoin de rien.

Picking up the pieces of my life 

[chaoskeyvin]

Si tu veux te débarrasser de moi, dis-le-moi.

[chaoskeyvin]

Je ne suis pas en illusion, je suis dans l'espoir. Ne dis pas une illusion quelque chose en quoi tu ne veux pas croire ou quelque chose en quoi je ne crois pas.

Je n'ai pas besoin de chaleur. Je veux me débarrasser de lui pour me brûler. Je suppose que c'était ma tentative d'autodestruction.

[chaoskeyvin]

"Quiconque se lève est humilié, et quiconque s'humilie est élevé."

On mérite tous la chaleur. Je ne te gâte pas, te donne ce que tu mérites. Si mon feu ne me réchauffe pas, pourquoi en ai-je besoin ? J'aurais pu partir, mais je suis resté et accepté. Je me fiche de ma vie, mais est-ce que ça compte sur mon chemin ? C'est moi de décider si je suis digne du meilleur ou non.

[chaoskeyvin]

J'ai besoin de quelqu'un. Je veux toucher, câlin et regarder, mais pas écouter les gens ennuyeux.

Tu connais le français, n'est-ce pas ? Quand on montera sur le toit, je t'allumerai une cigarette et tu pourras garder au chaud.