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[charsweb69]

I’m just saying…at 70 years old and I am really sorry for being so foolish about this past 30+ years and #2 marriage to wake up to see deception can ruin the deceptee’s life.

Unfortunately it has ruined me, my 2 sons, and 3 grandchildren’s lives as well.

I was deceived by a man who pretending to be a Christian we started, what I thought was beginnings of a Mature adult relationship, we were both in our early 40’s. We did get married after dating just over a year.

Now after 32 years, I have not been a wife at all.

Oh sure I cook, do all the housework in and out Jump at every snap of his finger, Expects I follow each Double Standard rule he demands. Yes, I am still in shock myself but I don’t have a n explanation for this lack of self-respect I take me to my Senior (Golden Age) citizenship and have nothing to show for any accomplishments in my Adult life.

After my first Divorce , (married at 17, 2 sons. we had out grown each other, so after18yrs we divorced but remained friends until he passed 5 yrs ago. I was 37 and had to be on my own for the first time. I had excellent credit when married, but to get an apt, bank account, credit card was disappointing to say the least. But I didn’t give up on the obstacles that challenged me. I had a good job and was an honest good woman and mother after all.

Well, now I have no job no bank account, paying for Debt relief program, and living on my monthly Social Security check. In the Red by month end. You see, I am only a roommate status with the Christian man. We have not been intimate for 20 years. The past 2 yrs in separate bedrooms.

Anyhow, I need to put on my BIG GIRL PANTIES and get out of this dysfunctional relationship a ASAP. Basically I am really to be homeless for a minute and get right with self esteem and find some Peace and control to recover from Stress and Depression before I can’t.

More to the initial point of the reason for writing this, is I hope if you have some understanding of what I am saying, been through this yourself. Perhaps you would like to share .

Sincerely

Char690

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