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Dear person,

Jan 13 Stalked your Twitter the other day loved the retweet that said "shout out to my ex for being a piece of shit" it hurt. I get you're single now and can become a asshole little boy again but don't be that douche to retweet and constantly like pictures of half naked girls. Yeah it hurts because I could never look like them but it's dumb because you just look like the little boy you still are. You're so busy trying not to hurt that you're okay with hurting me, as if I'm not hurting already. I start therapy next week...hoping I'll get some meds for my anxiety. Ever since the break up I haven't had anything but anxiety. I feel like a bottomless pit when I eat, I know I'm not hungry but my stomach hurts, I know I'm full but I could still keep eating, I know i haven't eaten all day and I need to eat but when I do I feel sick and nauseous. I can't sleep at night because I can't stop thinking about us. I know I ended this but it doesn't mean I still don't hurt. It doesn't mean I don't miss you. I ended this because I was giving you my all and I was getting nothing in return not even the feeling of warmth. I needed to get out of our relationship but it doesn't mean I wanted to. I should delete the video (you know the one I'm talking about) but I can't. And it's not for what you may think...I skip all that and go right to the end. We are joking around and laughing and smiling and it's just so genuine and happy. I watch it over and over and smile to myself because it makes me miss those little unforgettable moments we had. P.S. You’ll always be my first love.

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Dear person

January 9th Yesterday I was on Facebook and in my suggested friends you came up but it wasn't you old Facebook it was a new one. My anxiety was up the roof and I wanted to understand why? Was it because the tinder? Was it because our pictures were on that Facebook? (You know you could just untag yourself) Was it because you're trying to move on? It took everything in me not to text you. I wrote it out and I talked to my friends about it but I waited it out until I was numb enough not to send it. It's went like this: "I know I'm being unfair, and if you don't want to reply you don't have to. I know I did this I know I'm the one that doesn't want to get back together so it's ludicrous for me to text you when you're obviously just trying to move on and here I am being the biggest bitch on this earth and texting you after I'm the one that left you and hurt you." I stop myself from texting you because I don't want to be holding you back from moving on, but I don't know if I can move on with everything if I don't fell like I let everything out of my system. I was very unfair on what I said to you and making you feel like you had no credit for all the amazing things you did for me. Do you remember that time we looked at each other 4 minutes straight? We both cried what where you thinking of? I wonder what's u were thinking of always....I think I was relaxing we didn't belong together but maybe I was feeling how much I loved you

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if we don’t talk again remember i loved you 2015

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Dear Person

Jan 4th

Sat on my couch watching TV, couldn’t help myself from thinking about the memories we had on that couch. I miss cuddling with you and feeling safe in your arms. I wish I could text you but I know its not the right thing to do. I wish I could tell you how much I really appreciate the good things you did for me...yes many things were shadowed by all the bad but shit i did a lot of bad too, and that doesn’t keep me from appreciating what you did.

P.S. You’ll always be my first love.

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I hope you meet the right people in 2016, those who will appreciate you and won’t take you for granted. But if you happen to come across people who just want to use you, I hope you know when to walk away.

TW (via misjudgments)

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Things that are NOT okay for ur bf/gf to do: • tell u that u can’t do something with ur body (cut/dye ur hair, pierce something, etc) • tell u that u cant wear something • tell u not to hang out with ppl u like • separate u from ur family/friends

U ARE UR OWN PERSON AT ALL TIMES

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I wonder if you ever talk about missing me to anyone.

Because I talk to everyone about missing you (via nudely)

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Loving you hurts too much

(via vnicolebennett)

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Dear person,

Jan 2nd This past summer there was a night when I went out we got in a fight we weren't together and I had this urge the next day to just cuddle with you and lay in your arms feel your warmth and your kisses. Yesterday afternoon and all of today I had that urge again. Your warmth, your arms making me feel like everything is going to be ok, your kisses, making love with that passion I can feel coming from your eyes. I felt anxiety just thinking about not being able to have that. I've cried a couple times today just missing it all. I know I shouldn't be with you anymore but I don't think you'll ever understand that that doesn't mean I love you any less or care any less. I try to act strong for my own health not yours. We deal with things differently but you'll never get that... P.S. You'll always be my first love.