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“It’s like when someone says, ‘How are you?’ Do you say, ‘Well, my head hurts and I’m lonely and depressed and I’m worried about everything and the world is collapsing and full of evil’? Or do you say, ‘I’m fine’?”

— Sara Shepard, The Visibles

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“Do you know how much thinking and feeling I’ve done? It’s terrible. And nothing’s come of it.”

— Andrei Platonov, Happy Moscow.

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Hey hey, as a librarian, can I just say don’t pace yourself at the library. I get a lot of customers saying “oh I shouldn’t get too many books out at once” but like you should!!!! Max out your card, take everything we have on a subject you’re interested in, make a book fort in your home. We love that shit! It doesn’t matter if you read them or not; just take them for an adventure and bring them back whenever they’re due!

For public libraries, one of the ways we secure funding year to year is lending. Governments don’t want to fund more books if they’re not being used and the way we measure use is by issues. Regardless of whether you read it or not, whether you have it for a day or a month, if you issue it to your library card, we get the stats! It makes the library look good!

Help your local library; get books out even if you know you can’t read them all!

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“I’ve spent so much time in my head and in my heart that I forgot to live in my body.”

— Tara Hardy, Bone Marrow

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“Do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return?”

— Tyler Knott Gregson

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Promise me you will not spend so much time treading water and trying to keep your head above the waves that you forget, truly forget, how much you have always loved to swim.

Tyler Knott Gregson

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“I’m really bad with words, i hope you’re good in reading eyes.”

— Unknown

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“I have never known who or what I am supposed to be. The only thing I know for sure, is that I am supposed to be more than I have been.”

— William Chapman

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A solar halo is a ring of light that appears around the sun. It's caused by sunlight refracting through ice crystals in high, thin cirrus clouds.

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I got the chance to road trip out to the path of totality! My phone camera didn’t do it justice, so I painted what I saw instead 🌞🌚

Here’s the photo I took and the sketch I made with my finger in the notes app while watching it happen 😆

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Relax your soul

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and sometimes i have to remind myself that it’s okay. it’s okay to isolate. it’s okay to take a break. it’s okay to slow down and not rush. it’s okay to just take a pause and inhale deep breaths. it’s okay to stop waking for a while. it’s okay to rest. it’s okay. at times that i feel discouraged and overwhelmed, it’s okay to pull away. and it’s okay to feel heavy. it’s okay to cry. it’s okay to ask for more time. it’s okay to let go. that it’s okay to not be okay.

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I am drowning in negativism, self-hate, doubt, madness - and even I am not strong enough to deny the routine, the rote, to simplify. No, I go plodding on, afraid that the blank hell in back of my eyes will break through, spewing forth like a dark pestilence; afraid that the disease which eats away the pith of my body with merciless impersonality will break forth in obvious sores and warts, screaming:

"Traitor, sinner, imposter."

Sylvia Plath,

(The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath 1950-1962).

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I am afraid because I can so clearly foresee my own life rotting away of itself, like a leaf that rots without falling, while I pursue my round of existence from day to day.

Osamu Dazai, The Setting Sunessimysit

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