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First spooks visit...

So tonight was my first time of visiting a spiritualist church (so spooks seemed fitting). My auntie goes every week and is always talking about the lovely messages she receives from her dad and other family and friends that have sadly passed. My nana recently passed away and i wasnt able to say my goodbyes, so i thought i’d give it a go. “Keep an open mind chelsea” was all i seemed to say to myself as i have never been a big believer in talking to the dead. 7:30 we all sit down and are introduced to the medium of the night, lovely woman very chatty but i suppose she’d have to be, we’re now here until 9pm. We all said the lords prayer and sang you raise me up, it was all great so far, i was enjoying myself and so was everyone else. Then came the readings. She began with a man sat in front of me. “Please sir could you place me a great grandmother in spirit who you wouldnt like to get on the wrong side of?” Of course he had a great granny in spirit and not only that when he was a child he never would have crossed an older lady as children back then respected their elders. So that didnt have me hooked. “Ive got a steve, a john, a mary and maggy”… who doesnt have at least one of those names in their family? So at this point i was pretty much ready to leave. She gave him plenty of evidence of specific people that had passed away and then a message to tell him to relax, he’s too stressed and needs to put some people with problems in their place. Now to me this could have been a message for the whole room, everyone has someone that needs to be told about themselves and secondly who ISN’T stressed? So as it stands im still not buying into this whole medium business.

Then she comes to myself. “Can i come to the young lady here, may i speak with you?” I couldnt say no thanks this isnt for me, besides i did go for this reason after all. So she tries to give me ‘evidence’ so i knew who it was trying to speak to me. The only problem being i dont really know a lot of the people that have passed, only my nana (good job my auntie was there to help me). So a lady came through, short lady, loved her fashion and was very out spoken and of course i didnt have a clue who this was but my auntie told me she knew. Her name was alice, my auntie alice who i never got the pleasure of meeting but who im named after chelsea ALICE welsh. So yes i could take all of that and the rest of the evidence. The message she had to give me… do not doubt myself, i have a lot of love around me from the spirit world who will help me come to a decision. she couldnt go into more detail as the 'spirits’ wouldnt let her. Instantly all i thought again was that could be for the whole room, nothing special or specific that no one else could relate to. And finally, “stop worrying about that text message and just send it, no harm can come from it”. I broke down and sobbed my heart out.

Anyone who knows me will know ive had problems with my family for years. My own daughter has never met her great grandparents because of these problems! Recently ive been thinking of reaching out and making peace with my nana. I told no one. Not even my partner. How could she know this? I didnt give her any information about myself, she asked me no questions to get a slight idication of this. Its safe to say im shocked and broken all i could do was nod my head and agree that i will send that text. She leaves me with the love of my spirits and moves on, just like that shes done with me leaving me a blubberimg mess! I didnt even listen to anyone elses messages from then on, i just wanted to get my fingers typing, so the rest really is just a blur. Sorry. As soon as we leave my phones out and i couldnt put my words down properly so i let me auntie do the talking and i sent THAT message to my nana who i havent spoken to for over 2 years “hi nan, its chelsea i got your number off amy. I know yous have been asking about me and Esmae and i would just like you to know that you can meet her if you would like, but not out of my company, i have to be there with her just let me know what you would like to do if you would like to meet her, if not i understand”. Scariest thing is rejection and being ignored especially when it concerns my daughter. And the text back read “i’ll call you tomorrow.” Is this really what needed to be done in the first place to sort this whole mess out? What actually has just happened?

So spooks; Do i believe in this? Not quite but that took my mind to a whole new place. Will i be going back weekly? Of course i will be doing! I know that not every week i will receive a message from the spirits but i am definitely more open minded about the whole concept of there being something more after death. Now im just waiting on that phone call.

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