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Andrew: btw i thought you should know, im gay

Renee: huh interesting

Andrew: I know right, i thought so too

Andrew:

Andrew: do you think Neil will find it interesting?

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A little quick headcanon:

Andrew sewed the sheaths into his armbands by himself, because Renee suggested he shouldn’t just have knives banging around in there loose (and she’s got a point) but refused to do it for him, instead offering to teach him.

Upon learning that Andrew has been taught the basics of sewing, Betsy suggests he does some more creative things to calm him down and help him focus.

Andrew, five feet of spite, knows Betsy thinks he won’t do it, so he goes absolutely ham. Andrew can crochet a stuffed frog with his eyes closed, he can sew a mean set of new armbands—the boy even learns how to paint.

Betsy absolutely planned for him to try to spite her and her plan worked perfectly because Andrew has an outlet where he can express emotion without having to speak (and he brings her cute shit he’s made for her (though the delivery could use some work), so it’s wins all round)

Just Andrew sitting there, full of absolute rage and covered in glitter making a stupid card for Betsy’s birthday like:

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neil: What are you talking about? andrew is not in love with me.

renee: Yes, he is

wymack: Yes, he is

bee: yes, he is

literally everyone reading: Yes, he is

andrew: Yes, I am

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🥺🥺🥺

Andrew: It's pretty cold outside.. wanna hold hands? We should stay close. Neil, blushing: Okay. Aaron: It's fucking summer.

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These idiots are my favorite

andrew: yes or no?

neil: it’s always yes with you.

andrew: shut the fuck up. i hate you. 379287%.

andrew: wanna go upstairs?

neil: k.

andrew: do you have protection?

neil: *visibly panicked* what? why? who’s up there? what do they want? should i get my exy racket?

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Neil, laying grumpily in a hospital bed: I don’t see why I have to stay here, I’m fine

Aaron, reading off a clipboard: it says here you have three broken bones in your wrist

Neil, grabbing Andrew’s book out of his hands and pointing to random page: oh yeah? well it says here that you’re a little bitch

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*Neil running headfirst into danger*

Andrew: I want to kiss him on the mouth

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The Batman aka the original sad boi🥺🖤

this boiiii 👐

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Thinking about Andrew and Neil arguing over something silly and inconsequential, and Andrew is ranting so passionately, occasionally gesturing with his hands, unconsciously moving closer and closer to Neil until they’re barely a foot apart. Eventually he plants his hands on his hips and stares at Neil, head tilted to the side and slightly back as he looks up, waiting for a reply.

“Well?” Andrew huffs impatiently, already preparing his rebuttal.

But Neil stopped listening forever ago, because Andrew just looks so alive, all flushed and animated. His eyes are always golden and shiny, but right now they almost seem to sparkle? Neil knows he’s doing that look that Andrew says he hates but he can’t help it.

He leans forward and carefully presses a kiss onto the bridge of Andrew’s nose, and oh, that’s new. Andrew’s cheeks flush a bright red and his ears follow, and he can’t seem to stop stammering even as he glares.

Neil grins as Andrew pushes him onto the couch and proceeds to kiss him until he forgets what they’d been arguing about.

(Andrew brings it up again the next day, cornering Neil after his run. He’s got a whole thesis prepared.)

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Neil Josten is such an unreliable narrator that we don't even know Katelyn's last name.

But wait until he tells you about how broad and trust worthy Andrew's shoulders are.

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Andrew loved winter in Boston. he liked trying all of the holiday flavored coffees, and the string lights hung outside the shops by his apartment, and the snow that never usually came to South Carolina.

he’d bundle up in thick sweaters and the jacket Nicky bought him four years prior for Christmas and walk around the shops while he had time off from practice. he’d watch the snow fall against his dark jacket, looking at the unique shape it was before it inevitably got brushed off, or covered by a new snowflake.

he thought of Neil. he has never seen Neil in snow like it snowed in Boston. he wondered if Neil would enjoy it like Andrew did. he wondered if Neil would like the flavored coffee he got, or if he’d like the lights hanging outside if the shops.

“come to Boston,” Andrew said one night over the phone.

he and Neil had started calling regularly at night when Andrew had finished his practices. he told Neil that he called him at night to make sure he didn’t get murdered in his sleep, but he calls him so he can fall asleep to Neil’s voice. he’d do that in bad days while he was still at Palmetto, listening to Neil tell Andrew about the show he was watching, or the cool shirt someone was wearing in his math class. it comforted him.

“do you want me to?” Neil asked.

“mhmm. it’s pretty in the winter,” Andrew responded. he laid in his bed with his phone propped against a tissue box on his nightstand so he could see Neil while he started to fall asleep.

“tell me about it,” he said.

“i’d rather show you,” he whispered. his eyes we’re starting to get heavy with sleep. he let himself close his eyes, and Neil understood he needed to go to sleep.

Neil talked about what he thought Boston was like. he talked about snow falling on the ground, huddling together on the couch in some ancient coffee shop, watching people walk their dogs while they enjoy pastries and coffee. by the time Andrew was asleep, he heard Neil looking at flights for Boston in December.

when winter break rolled around for Neil, he had his flights all sorted out to visit Andrew. Andrew met him at the airport, waiting for him at one of the doors that lead to the massive parking garage.

the airport was crowded, but that didn’t stop Andrew from catching Neil when he threw himself at Andrew. his arms held tightly around his back like if he let go he’d never see him again. Neil pulled him up for a kiss, which they usually didn’t do in public, but it had been four months without Neil. he didn’t care.

they walked out to Andrew’s car, Neil shivering with his lack of coat. Andrew unbuttoned his and passed it over to Neil. Neil pulled Andrew into his side as they packed Neil’s stuff into the trunk.

“missed you,” he murmured into Andrew’s hair.

Andrew didn’t respond, but pressed himself closer to Neil in an almost hug, but not quite. his head was against Neil's shoulder, and Neil's arm was around his back.

“get in the car. let’s go home,” he murmured against his jacket. Neil nodded, and Andrew pushed him in the direction of the passengers side door.

they drove home with the radio on low volume to some song Andrew doesn’t know, but Neil hums along too. his hand rested on Andrew’s thigh, tapping his fingers with the beat of the music.

it didn't take them long to get home once they were clear of the airport traffic. they walked up the stairs to Andrew's apartment, Andrew taking one of the bags Neil had with him.

as soon as the door to his apartment closed, Andrew threw the bag he was holding on the floor and crashed himself against Neil. Neil let out a noise of surprise, but quickly placed his bag down beside him and wrapped his arms around Andrew’s back, holding him against his chest.

“missed you,” Neil said again.

“missed you too,” Andrew mumbled into his chest.

they eventually made their way into Andrew’s bedroom where they lazily kissed against the bedroom door. Neil placed his hands on Andrew’s hips gently and walked him backwards into the bed, giving him a light push on the shoulder. it wasn’t enough to make Andrew fall, but he let himself lean back into the bed. Neil climbed after him, his knees bracketing Andrew’s hips.

“yes or no,” he asked.

“what for?”

Neil reached down and lightly tugged on the waist band on Andrew’s sweatpants. “yes or no?” he repeated.

Andrew reached up, his hand cupping Neil’s cheek, and his thumb tracing over his bottom lip, pulling it slightly when he reached the opposite end. “not tonight,” he said. “i just want to fall asleep together. we can tomorrow, if you’re up for it.”

“you don’t have to explain yourself,” Neil responded. he began to climb off Andrew, but Andrew reached out a hand to stop him. Neil paused, letting Andrew pull him back up, and guide his chest down partially so he’d meet his eyes.

“this is okay. i want this.”

Neil nodded, letting Andrew rearrange them so they were against the pillows. Neil slumped against Andrew’s chest, eventually falling asleep against his oversized and warm hoodie.

Andrew was looking forward to showing Neil around Boston, but he was the most excited for moments like these.

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#jackskellington #coffeetime #halloween

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They wouldn't stand for a picture, stinkers. And this is the least fuzzy one of Spencer... #kidshalloweencostumes #bigbadwolf #littleredridinghood #yesibecamethatmom #lydialuella #spencerwilliam #kidsfashion

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Lydia is obsessed with suckers and k-cups. Coffee grounds clean off of a book much nicer than half eaten suckers so I'm thankful for that. #toddlers #idontgetit #thoughtilockedthemupwell #shestoocleverforherowngood

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Had some Caribou this morning. It was awful. Decided I needed to try and have a good cup today. Plus I'm getting in some reading, Oathbringer release is very soon!!! #coffeetime #brandonsanderson #thewayofkings #stormlightarchive #rereadforoathbringer #oathbringer #bookdragon

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#lydialuella #halloweencostume #littleredridinghood #socute #kidsfashion