chelsmariesss8

[chelsmariesss8]

april 8th 2020

This is my first post in april,today i’m honestly just grateful. grateful for breathing considering half of the world is struggling to do so right now. half of the medical profession are risking their lives and preparing hospital beds instead of preparing for easter with their loved ones.....this is a really hard time to be positive but we need to at least be grateful for what we do have and i think this taught us all to appreciate the things that truley matter in this life. we just need to pray and stay safe,i hope everyone can do just that❤️ love,chels

[chelsmariesss8]

april 3rd 2020

and then no one wanted me around. at least that’s how it all felt.

[chelsmariesss8]

march 31st 2020

numb.

the word to describe the way i feel.

but seriously today is going to be nothing special and were in the middle of this pandemic. BUT i’m writing my feelings more so i’m excited to go back to these one day and think “that’s how you felt,you got through it!” and i’ll have all the emotions and feeelings i felt in specific time periods which become memories and flashbacks which to me is very important. how you feel in one moment to the next can change,and by writing i’m capturing the moment. you gotta capture it all good and bad. i really like to feel,so one day i hope i can write SOMETHING that means something to somebody. i want people to know it’s okay to feel whole heartily. every. damn. emotion. because that’s what got me to write in the first place. anyways i hope everyone is staying safe and don’t forget to be in the moment and to “capture it and remember it”. love chels💜

[chelsmariesss8]

march 30th 2020

the past 3 years have been the most escurshiating and painful ones yet. (i might be okay,but i’m not fine at all) fav t.swift lyric* anyways no one really prepares you for what it’s all gunna be,all the lessons learned,and the way others will perceive you. for some reason that’s always been a hard pill for me to swallow that not everyone has the same heart as you,i learned many don’t even have a heart at all. that’s probably why i hurt and feel sooooo easily but that’s when i realized does it really matter if a group of guys talks bad on my name,or that girls act out on jealousy twoards me,or just people finding someone they can tear down because it’s easy too...DOES THAT REALLY ALL MATTER when you know your going further in life or your future is brighter than all of this. no. but it’s the loneliness that takes over. i mean i have my mom,that’s always going to be my rock. but shouldn’t i have someone of my own...or someone to call to tell how my day was...shouldn’t i have someone who craves love and me??? or do i just crave lust and the idea of feeling something....maybe i just want to be loved and accepted by ONE person once in my life. IT JUST GETS REALLY FUCKIN LOUD SOMETIMES🤯 love,chels

[chelsmariesss8]

@taylorswift so i’m new too the tumblr world! but i wanted to share with you that a few days after i did my nails to the theme of the aesthetic of the lover album someone complimented them and i said “well their in honor of like my favorite human on the planet taylor swift.” and i wanted you to see💓💓💓thank you for this album i love you.

[chelsmariesss8]

sep 19th 2019

so i guess i’m going to start using tumblr as my personal writing space. so today i came to the realization that to be truley positive and have self happiness comes from a concept of self care. and i don’t know why but it took 20 years to realize. but yah know,like fully realize and feel it inside you realize. and today that happened and i magically felt cleansed within. i hope that fall in upstate new york starts getting more chilly and the leaves start changing. i hope everyone had an outstanding day and has an enchanting evening. love chels💓