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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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My kids and I
Sa ngayon, nararamdaman ko na kami nalang talaga ng mga anak ko ang magkatuwang sa buhay.. yung tatay nila nihindi sila mailabas o maipasyal sa labas simula nung nagkababae sya. Naawa ako sa mga anak ko. Hindi ko na kasi makaya pero pano kung mawala ako or mamatay ako, sino nalang mag aalaga sa mga anak ko.. kung ngayon palang hindi sila maasikaso ng tatay nila... sa tuwing niyayakan ako ng mga anak ko, o hinahalikan, naiiyak ako.. kasi mas maganda siguro kung komoleto kami.. ano ba ksi ang ngyare? Ano ba kasi nagawa ko.. ano ba kasi ang mga hindi ko nagawa.. anong kulang sakin. Sobrang sakit napaka sakit lang
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Isinisisi ko sayo lahat. For not being there for when I was young. For not showing me how to love. For not letting me feel love. For not showing me and letting me try or do all the house chorses. I blame you for doing all the things you want for yourself. I blame you for not letting me be myself. I blame you for all the damn thing that I cant and dont know how to do. Until now. I still blame you. Because what happened in my childhood had reflected while I was growing up and still reflecting and was told that I need to be a mother to my kids. Before going to work, breakfast should be ready and bathe the kids. I feel so small so stupid so immature. I should have learned all this shit. But because of you, I know nothing.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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11/29/2017 mark the date. My birthday and probably my death date too!!
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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11/29/2017 mark the date. My birthday and probably my death date too!!
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Sana pwede ko'ng sabihin na "dhie, tama na kasi nasasaktan na ako. Please tama na" kaso hindi. Iisipin mo na nag dradrama lang ako. Na ang corny ko.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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I want to die on my birthday
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Madami sa akin pumigil na makipagbalikan sa iyo. Pero hindi ako nakinig sa kanila. Dahil nga mahal kita. Dahil nga sa mga anak natin. Dahil nga sa takot ako na mabuhay ng wala ka. Pero ngayon ko lang nalamay na mas mahirap pala na mas mahirap na nabubuhay ako na anjan ka nga pero parang wala ka naman pakialam.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Matagal na pala. Hindi manlang sinabi.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Matagal na pala. Hindi manlang sinabi.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Gusto ko lang lumabas kasama ka. Yun kang. I want excitement
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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So much for my birthday!
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Trying my best. He said he wants me to be a mother to our kids. I did. When its my day off, I cook, give them a bath, play with them and do the laundry. Whenever I cook something he wouldnt really like it. He wouldnt eat the food thay I cooked. I dont know what to do anymore. I'm tired as fuck. I feel like I want to just end my life. Dear God can you just please take me?
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Kabwisit boses mo. Nakakainis pangalan mo. Nakaksura pagmumuka mo.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Kabwisit boses mo. Nakakainis pangalan mo. Nakaksura pagmumuka mo.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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To my 2 daughters. Mahal na mahal kayo ni mama. Sobra sobra! Pagod na kasi si mama eh. Sobrang sakit na kasi. Hindi kami magkasundo ng papa nyo pero wag kayo magagalit sa kanya ha. Kasi mahal na mahal nya kayo. Hindi nalang kaya ni mama ang magtiis at magisip. Dahil lahat,nagawa na ni mama. Dont worry! Aalagaan kayo ng papa nyo. Sana alagaan nyo din sya kasi hindi yan naliligo araw araw haha. Sobrang mahal na mahal na mahal kayo ni mama. Kita tayo sa kabilang buhay. Yung kung saan walang lungkot, iyakan, galit, at inggit. Kung saan masaya lang.
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Im sorry self for not loving yourself first. Sa kabilang buhay, wag ka magalala. I will love you to the fullest self. I promise!
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chenbarlan-blog · 6 years
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Im sorry that i cant be like her. That Im just being myself and not even close to what she is.
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