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𝑰 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒀𝒐𝒖

𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 :)

Truthfully, I am someone who gets close and attached to people easily and you were no different in the beginning. Though, now, you are the most different friend I`ve had. With you I truly feel like myself, you never complain or point out how I`m being weirder or higher than usual. Instead, you join me and it becomes a fucking mess and then I find myself laying on the floor, crying. We didn`t meet until a while ago in a group chat and joining that one group chat was the best decision I had ever made. I, too, left quite an impression as a flirt with my iconic puck-up-line, “My name is * but you can call me yours.”  Ever since that day, you haven`t stopped calling me a flirt. I`m sorry, I understand; you were sixteen and scared.  At first, our friendship mostly included of us (mostly me) roasting and bullying each other to no end; making jokes about our behaviors and last-surviving braincells, Betty and Jane; pretending to be furries and koreaboos simply to troll and make people uncomfortable and then laughed about it. Or that one time when we made fun of each other`s nicknames meanings. I will never forget yours is a slang for penis.  Eventually, we started talking everyday. As time passed, I found myself getting closer to you and our conversations never died down. We found something new to do, like trolling people online and opening that LizKook account to prank our other friends. I have many memories with you in such a short spawn of time, but I know that I will treasure them forever. Just like I will treasure our friendship. With you, I feel safe. I feel like I`m on my own personal heaven, laughing and smiling with you by my side. At first, I doubted you wanted to really be friends with me but as time slowly passes, I realise that there are more to just empty words and promises to your kind words. You spend most of your time talking to me (just like I do), you put up with me even when I`m in the sourest mood and try to cheer me up. You were there for me when I was feeling insecure and sad, too. Everytime I think of you (which is pretty much all the time) my heart swells, because, suddenly,  I`m reminded that there is someone waiting for me to come back home and text them and vice versa. Because of you, I have one more reason to wake up in the morning and continue my day.  I love it when we go full-fangirl-mode over something, starting from BTS to DAY6 and all of the groups we stan. The fact that I am able to fangirl with you over my favorite game, Mystic Messenger, too, just makes me happy.  You make me happy. From the slightest things you say to me, to the morning pick-up-line tradition we have. There is honestly nothing better than to start and end my day with a text from you.  The first time I made you cry, was not over a few days ago, on supposedly the most important day of the year; your birthday. The fact that I had been partly the reason you had cried that day shatters me completely. That night I couldn`t even bring myself to stay up anymore, instead laying on bed and crying myself to sleep. But you forgave me. And I felt like that made us even closer.  It`s the wish to never lose each other, the fact that we love and trust each other that, hopefully, we will always be friends. And over all of the promises I have made, this is the one I intend to keep with everything in me.  I know I shouldn`t be only hanging onto words, but when your best friend lives in another country, precisely  1,529.7 mi away from you, what else can we do? But the point is that,

I love you, dumbass. (I miss you. Come back, idiot)

                                     𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐢 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐇𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐨𝐤

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and people ask me why i have trust issues