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Tomorrow doesn’t feel like Christmas.

I’m in hard denial and disassociation this year.

It’s hard.

I’m hoping that seeing my sister and getting to give her a good long hug will help.

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Craft Foam Feather Tutorial

It can be hard to find the perfect feathers for your costume. Easier just to make your own! Foam feathers are cheap, durable, and relatively easy to make. I made these feathers for my kenku costume and here’s how!

Below is a thorough dissection of feather shape to help you if you’re trying to get a highly realistic look.

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Help keep the Unsent Project Alive!

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If evil spirits in killer doll movies decided to inhabit a B-52 Heavy Ordinance Bomber we’d be screwed, luckily they choose a small plastic doll instead

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If the voice inside of our own heads is our consciousness, who is the person listening

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Life is a free-to-play game, it cost nothing to get here, it was easy at first and then required grinding and microtransactions to keep going, and it isn’t as fun as it was when you started.

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Uranus was overthrown by Kronos, his youngest son. and Kronos was overthrown by Zeus, his youngest son. So maybe Zeus never stopped having kids because you can’t be overthrown by your youngest son if there’s always another one coming.

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Realizing that Im half wired from adhd meds and half “I’m an adult I don’t wanna go to bed there is too much to do”

what alienation of labor does to a mf

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as a Certified Germaphobe i really think the west should really adopt the trend of wearing face masks when they’re sick tbh

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wrap it up covid I wanna be in an interactive science museum

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If there’s anything worth living for, it’s kittens trying to imitate their moms.

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This is the month of “Renew”.

I’m starting over from “scratch”.

I’m going back in my memories to a time when I at least thought I was happy, thought I was at peace with myself (for the most part), and reanalizing everything from there.

Friendships are going to be rebuilt from the ground up. (Not a slate wiped clean, but realizing what my end looks like. How I view the friendship, what I bring to it, what I want out of it, etc). I’m working my way through to not only better myself and ground myself, but be able to be there for them how I truly want to be. I’ll never be perfect, but I want to be at least pleased and at peace with my choices.

Hobbies are going to be rebuilt from the ground up. I’m going to divide them by category, then my level of activity (passive vs active aka how much energy and time they take and how o want to give). After that I’m going to analyze whether they are worthwile in the new life I’m leading. Kind of the Marie Kondo method. If I no longer will pursue it, I’ll thank it for the time I’ve had and let it go.

Physical items are going to be cleaned out and managed/replaced. This will be one of the last steps as not only do I have years worth of things, but I have to get my heart and mind more organized to be able to know what to do with my stuff. There is a lot I keep for sentimental, that I think I will be able to let go of or at least take Photos and let go of after I have dealt with the memory side of things.

This month is not for putting off what I’ve kept saying for years that I needed to figure out and take care of. This month is for “getting my act together.” For making myself better to be better for myself and for those I love. Some may never understand, and some may reject me for it. But I cannot keep living this way.

I cannot keep living always worried about hurting others, not being able to be there for others, and worried I’m not letting me be there for myself. I’ve spent the last few years torn between finding myself and keeping up what I’ve always done for others, and it’s nearly torn me apart. But no more. I heal myself now and allow God to heal me so that the future me has a chance. That the people I love have a chance. Even if this road causes them to walk away from me, I will do what is right to live with as few regrets as possible and be the best for myself and for those who will stay. I’ll never give up on the ones I love, they will always have a part of my heart, and I will always fight for the best for them, but I will not be as lukewarm about my interactions with them.

My future is my own, I will always have to walk it solo, but if our paths run parallel, I welcome the company and aim to make their paths easier in this life.

Change is hard, but not allowing growth is worse.

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Frozen 2 really changed my life. During “The Next Right Thing”, Anna is going through someone of the worst pain imaginable and yet she faces it one step at a time. I really struggle with depression and I get easily overwhelmed, so each time I tell myself all I have to do is the next right thing. I just have to take one small step in the right direction.

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“What I’d give to return to the life that I knew lately.

But I know that I can’t solve my problems going back.”

-“Home” Beauty and the Beast