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Going to have my place for the first time in my life and I just don't know how to feel. Is going to be difficult to get by but I am excited to try and have my own way of living

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I think I'll try to put in real work to lose weight again. 44Kg isn't that bad, and honestly even if I don't get to that losing any weight will make me happy. This year I deserve to be conmfortable in summer and to finally wear a bikini. So I better get to work.

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Thin long legs give you this effortlessly classy appearance that I just love

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tips that aren't the same list from 2006

you know exactly what dumbass list I mean, and none of that shit is practical, it's giving uwu ana butterfly and we all know it

hi, I'm angel, I'm a nutrition major, and here are tips to keep yourself safe and hide your eating habits that actually make sense. this will not be in any particular order, but

avoid ketosis. i know, i know, you heard it burns fat faster! it also makes you smell like a dog rolled in sharpies and makes you stupid. i'm not kidding, you will be slow as fuck. avoid keto at all costs, carbs are better and healthier than being caught and dumb

take electrolytes and pay close attention to your potassium intake. if you neglect this, you will damage your heart and muscles and run the risk of having a heart attack. i use liquid IV because I have POTS and need the extra sodium, but that brand is also good for ED-havers because it has extra b vitamins

take ultra strength prenatal vitamins. they contain extra folate, fish oil, and dha, all of which are necessary to protect your heart and brain when you're not intaking much food.

For other supplements, I recommend Metamucil to keep your bowels going, iron, vitamin c packets (will make the iron absorb better, I personally use the +immunity ones), b-complex, calcium-magnesium-zinc, and vitamin d. Make sure the b-complex contains b-12. Feel free to send me an ask or dm me for dosages because some of these will depend on where you live geographically or what food you are eating.

find a protein shake you like. I'm a muscle milk bitch personally, but fairlife, premier, etc, are all good. make sure it isn't a meal replacement shake, and make sure it contains at least 20g of protein. these contain vitamins beyond protein that will help you stay healthy. the protein will also keep you full. i recommend using it as milk in coffee because the coffee will also suppress hunger and act as a mild laxative without harming the bowels. don't take your iron along with this, as dairy will hinder the absorption of iron.

don't take laxatives. you're going to give yourself IBD. maybe once a month as an extra cleanout you can do a little miralax, but the natural route is always better. regularly drink coffee and drink specifically senna green tea, they're both natural laxatives. the metamucil i recommend will also keep you going. if you need a bigger laxative effect, blend a whole peeled and seeded orange, a few inches of peeled fresh ginger, juice from a whole lemon, add a tsp each of cracked black pepper and turmeric, blend with coconut water until it's a thin smoothie consistency. drink that, you'll be good.

the best thing you can do for yourself is hide your behaviors behind health food gym girlie orthorexic behaviors. nobody takes orthorexia seriously and they encourage those behaviors. you can cut out whatever the hell you want if you're crunchy and healthy about it.

don't go too crazy about it. old tips would tell you to act like you loved food and it's really obvious. being obsessed with food and cooking is weird and obvious. don't talk about food constantly and make it your whole personality to try to hide, it's bizarre and one of the signs they tell parents to look out for. you have to be nonchalant. food is whatever. you like it, you have favorite meals, but you get tired of tastes quickly, you're picky about textures, you don't like it once it gets cold, etc. it's just fuel and it's meaningless to you. you eat for your health, not for pleasure.

high impact workouts like HIIT and running may not be the best idea. some studies show that high impact exercise stimulates hunger hormones in some individuals. pilates, ballet, and yoga are low impact, high results, and give a very desirable aesthetic. they're also quiet and can be done with a yoga mat and maybe a theraband.

get a job. get a hobby. join a sport. being out of your house as much as possible gives you the largest opportunity for excuses. oh my job catered lunch, oh there were snacks at practice, oh so and so brought something to the knitting circle. this can also be an opportunity to earn or save money (or swindle your mom out of cash by obtaining money for concessions at games and then only getting a diet coke)

if you control your own food, maximize your nutrition. salmon, tuna, sardines. kale, chard, spinach. beans, lentils. berries. protein pasta. pasture raised eggs. the fancy filtered fairlife milk. your body will hold out so much longer if you're keeping it fueled with proper vitamins and minerals.

track your food using cronometer - if someone sees it on your phone and asks, you have a perfect built-in excuse. oh, you don't care about the calories, but it tracks vitamin and mineral intake, and you're trying to make sure you're getting enough of those because you have, say, an iron deficiency or you're worried you're not getting enough omega-3s.

anorexic hair is really obvious. it's from malnutrition and stress. absolutely ensure you're getting enough omega-3s and other fats in your diet (avocados, eggs, oily fish, nuts like walnuts) to avoid the anorexia hair and the sallow, dry skin. this is also why i insist you take vitamin d, iron, vitamin c, a b-complex, and a pre-natal with folate and dha, those will also protect your hair and skin health. also make sure you're trimming dead ends, get a deep conditioner and/or bond repair treatment, do scalp massages, and if it does fall out, start using a mousse for volume and get a cut to maximize volume to hide it.

keep up your oral, skin, and nail health, too. these can also be obvious indicators. if you're taking the vitamins and keeping to the foods i'm recommending, it'll help, but make sure you're brushing and flossing, use the nasty brown listerine, a good dry skin lotion like curel, and a nail oil. keep your nails short if they start peeling, but if they're peeling, you need to take more vitamin d and iron, or you could have celiac disease.

there's no such thing as a broken metabolism, and you can't boost or slow down your metabolism. those are myths. the only way to make your bmr higher is to have more muscle.

extra tip: if you start fainting, tell people you have or think you have POTS. work smarter not harder.

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being tied to this body makes me so fucking angry

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People are so judgey about why you like the things you do when they don’t even know you. Yeah okay I seem obsessed with insert thing. Have you considered that thing is dually my special interest and my coping mechanism? Of course not. You see an autistic person invested in something and passionate and your instinct is to insult them and make them feel weird for engaging in something harmless that brings they joy, comfort, and peace

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I will always feel like I was robbed of what kind of person I could’ve been if I wasn’t traumatized and abused as a child

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I've reached a point in my ED were I dont weigh myself anymore, dont count calories, nor anything remotely disordered I guess, at least to a intentional level.

But I'm surely not recovered, and I do not eat in a normal way either.

i've let go the habits that I had to force on myself and honestly I just focus on protein and at the point I'm at I dont even have to think about not eating.

I have days were I eat the normal amount of meals (3) and I feel like shit and insecure. But that happens so rarely that I really don't need to do shit about it.

My day consists of high protein breakfast, and all the macros and then I just have that for the day in terms of meals and have small bites of food or snacks.

I honestly should stop with the mini packages of peanut m&m because at this point Its an addiction.

Im honestly worse when it comes to malnourishment right now than how I was a year or so ago when I was obsessing over my diet, but who cares?

I do 2h of artistic skating 3 to 4 days a week and walk.

I don't know my weigh but people have told me Im skinnier.

I dont feel much skinnier but I do feel like my body got a bit toned.

I still wish I was skinny, but not so intensely if that makes sense, I'm just not so desperate anymore, prbably because now Im much less obsessive.

I am painfully anemic but that adds a twist to it lol.

Even though I'm not obsessing over starving myself it's like nwo I learned to do it unsconsciously. Eating is not a chore but It's something that I need energy to do? Also, I think I got so picky with my food, to the point that unless I have what I crave and want to eat I will not eat. Even if there's been more than 8h since I last ate.

This of course has consequences, my body temperature goes crazy, and I feel like I cant handle any type of indoors that dont have some type of air flow because I just get dizzy all the time.

Even tho I am not obsessive anymore, I do " track" the way I ate in the month by checking my cycle. If my period comes later than 35 days, means that I did good and ate very little.

If not, it means that ate normal. My cycle has times where it either im regular by 28 days with no day off, or im around the 40 to 50 days cycle. no in between.

It's not very healthy, but At least im having my period, just not the regular one.

Im never lost my period, it just has this long ass cycles sometimes, which ends up skipping a month.

I also like the idea that im not trying to starve, I just happen to do it, so I just dont go against it. When I go out I no longer make sure I eat before, I just do the most intricate makeup which curbs my hunger in fear of ruining it.

College helped me with this because I spend full ass days in there without having a single bite of food, and when I got home at night I just wanted something fast to eat, my way to go is a protein liquid yogurt and some fruit and bread.

Honestly, this way of being disordered its the best one I had. Feels completely doable and I dont have to think about it or fill my mind with it.

I feel better about my body also because I am focusing on a specific sport, and being able to do what I want kinda helps somehow. I love the idea of being so thin I can see my bones but if I get skinny in a 18 bmi kind of thing I will not be unhappy.

I've had an ED since 15 and im 21 now, shit got a bit old and I guess this is what it is to have a somewhat "high functioning" ED ? idk.

I don't think Ill ever recover.

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guys i can feel it this month is gonna be ours

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losing weight takes so fucking long like i literally just have to sit around and not eat? annoying

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You love to see it

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What are Astrology Dice? 🪐🎲

Previously, we learned about Astragalomancy and the history of dice divination! This time, we’re going to dive into a specific form of this practice that incorporates astrology.

According to the Occult World, the blend between astrology and divination (dice) has been around for quite a long time:

“European fortunetellers used a simplified and formulaic dice divination system descended from the late antique astrological practice called ’The Part of Fortune’ [or Geomancy]. Dice representing the planets would be thrown onto an astrological diagram of the ‘Houses’. The result was read as the part that luck would play in the different areas of a person’s life.”

Although in our modern time, the Wessex Astrologer developed a new and simple Astro Dice divination method that consists of three d12 dies. Each of these die encompass different symbols and meanings to be interpreted once casted together:

Houses - Represents the area of life that will be affected or of concern

Signs - Represents the emotions involved in this situation

Planets - Represents the actions, circumstances or influences that affect the overall situation at hand

*If you are asking questions about people, such as a description of your future spouse, you should be interpreting the result as if it’s a natal chart placement:

5H Leo Neptune— The future spouse is popular or potentially famous. There’s a possibility that they are known for their artistic pursuits or idealistic and dreamy personality. They may be a natural with children, but perhaps a bit child-like themselves. Potential negative traits they’d have would be immaturity or egotism.

It is important for the querent to ask questions that are open-ended, similarly to how we consult Tarot. Yes/No questions are not ideal for this method of divination due to the fact that the message is meant to be read as a story. Think of the result as a sentence formation.

If you are already well-versed in natal chart reading, this will be quite easy for you! Otherwise, Astro Dice can help beginner astrologers practice interpreting placements.

Ex. What is in store for me in the next week?

10H - Your work and public reputation will be in focus in the next week

Aries - This is potentially a new job or work that will evoke a sense of drive, passion or even chaos. If this is referring to a person, it may be your boss. Otherwise you will be stepping into a more demanding role

Jupiter - Blessings or expansion is involved. Considering how Aries showed up in this reading, as it represents newness— you may be receiving a promotion

Since Astro Dice sets rarely come with a guidebook, I have decided to provide an extensive list of keywords for each astrological symbol. This way, you can easily string together a message from your reading:

Houses

1) Self, personal life, appearance, independence, individuality, new beginnings, the body, first impressions, attitude, identity, approach to life and how you view the world

2)Finances or income, business transactions, your possessions, self-esteem, material desires, work ethic, values, daily routines, comfort, self-care, priorities

3) Siblings, peers, short-distance travel, school or early education, the mind and thinking, communication, social activities, media, neighbours

4) Parents or guardians, roots, family, domestic matters, real estate, inheritance, emotions, foundations, mother, children, women, femininity

5) Fertility, pregnancy or children, creativity, hobbies and interests, romance, dating, spirit, joy, drama, self-expression, gambling

6) Health and wellness, fitness, hygiene, daily routines, injuries, pets or small animals, co-workers, work habits, organization, service to others

7) Close and personal partnerships; romantic relationships, business contracts, marriage, divorce lawsuits, rivalries, equality, interpersonal style, shadow self, justice

8) Death and transformations, rebirth, occult, taboos, secrets, taxes, debts, mortgages and loans, legacies, inheritance, investigations, corporate money, dangers, assets, property, joint ventures, sex, intimacy, mystery

9) Long distance journeys, travel, religion, philosophy, higher education, lawyers, dreams, divination, wisdom, the arts, media, publishing, ethics, learning, cultures

10) Career, success, fortune, public reputation, long-term goals, structure, status, masculinity, authority, men, father figures, fame, expertise

11) Groups, friends, collectives, social awareness, humanitarianism, technology, social media, hopes and wishes, the future, society, protection, gifts, praise, recognition, followers

12) Imprisonment, loss, grief, hidden enemies, solitude, fear, secrets, subconscious thoughts, addictions, healing, spirituality, karma, old age, past lives, dreams, institutions such as hospitals, clinics, etc

Signs

♈︎ Aries - Direct, brave, fearless, leadership, authoritative, independent, impulsive, competitive, aggressive, active, self-centered, passionate, sports, war, fighting, boss or CEO, masculinity, male figures, self-starter, impatience

♉︎ Taurus - Persistence, steadiness, trustworthiness, patience, endurance, tenacity, drive, reliable, security, stability, slow, stubbornness, materiality, resistance to change, indulgent, possessive, arts, beauty, luxury, grudges, fashionable, chic

♊︎ Gemini - Adaptability, intelligence, agility, communication, social networks, inconsistency, gossip, cunningness, superficiality, duality, mischievousness, curiosity, close friendships, twins, siblings

♋︎ Cancer - Loyalty, nurturing, emotions, support, compassion, unconditional love, dependence, passive-aggressiveness, moodiness, healing, femininity, feminine figures, mothers, ancestry, home, comfort, safety, soft, sensitive

♌︎ Leo - Playful, leadership, inner child, brave, protective, generous, charismatic, confident, pride, center of attention, selfish, dominating, vain, egotistical, fame, popularity, artistic, warm, outgoing, happiness, glamour, fun, entertainment, performative, royalty

♍︎ Virgo - Humble, modest, altruistic, logical, detail-oriented, responsible, organized, critical, obsessive, perfectionistic, cleanliness, solitude, rationality, inquisitive, communicative, writing, routines, service, environmentally conscious, helpful

♎︎ Libra - Charming, peaceful, diplomatic, easy-going, harmonious, relationship-oriented, artistic, intelligent, beautiful, sociable, indecisive, superficial, gullible, justice, passive-aggressive, thoughtful, debates, law and order, open enemies

♏︎ Scorpio - Passionate, driven, secretive, perceptive, determined, powerful, transformative, controlling, bold, intense, paranoid, jealous, clingy, destructive, sexy, vindictive, keen, intimidating, truthful, hidden emotions, endings and beginnings, restructuring, separation

♐︎ Sagittarius - Adventure, optimism, excess, expansion, truth seeking, ambitious, lucky, moral, open-minded, enthusiastic, versatile, intelligence, laziness, restless, gluttonous, wealthy, tactless, a philosopher, wanderer, student, scholar, hastiness, energetic

♑︎ Capricorn - Strategic, determined, hard-working, disciplined, responsible, persistent, patient, masters, intelligent, ambitious, stability, security, burdened, pessimistic, self-limiting, ruthless, rigid, cynical, fearful, authoritative, masculine figures, business, barriers, control

♒︎ Aquarius - Progressive, innovative, futuristic, intelligent, altruistic, friendly, reformative, emotionally detached, scattered, impersonal, quirky, unorthodox, humanitarian, friendships, future-oriented, technology, inventions, science, logicality, social media, ambitious

♓︎ Pisces - Dreamy, mystical, intuitive, spiritual, compassionate, sensitive, escapist, addictions, creativity, romance, music, idealistic, self-pitying, fantasies, psychic, introspective, altruistic, artistic, old souls, sickness, self-undoing, self-sacrificing, saviour

Planets/Nodes

☉ Sun - Self, ego, consciousness, stamina, vitality, creation, confidence, pride, identity, individuality, brightness, self-reliance, warmth, celebration, leadership, father, masculine figures, authority, governs the heart, marrow, spinal cord, and solar plexus

☾ Moon - Unconsciousness, personal needs, emotions, receptiveness, reflection, instincts, moods, habits, inner child and inner mother, security, feminine figures, nurturing, nourishment, cooking or baking, intuition, home, privacy, governs the stomach, breasts, uterus and ovaries

☿ Mercury - Communication, writing, intelligence, language, reason, learning, sensory information, thought processes, liveliness, childhood or school friends, students, youth, duality, governs the abdomen, small intestines, nervous system, shoulders, hands, arms, lungs, and pancreas

♀ Venus - Love, attraction, relationships, art, sociability, harmony, pleasure, finances, charm, gifts, luxury, attractiveness, sensuality, comfort, compromising, peace, balance, femininity, grace, governs the kidneys, bladder, lymphatic system, neck, throat, and cervical vertebra

♂ Mars - Agression, action, competition, passion, courage, sex, desire, survival instincts, self-assertion, the body, impulsivity, rashness, force, direction, leadership, command, authority, governs the head, face, brain, muscular system and blood

♃ Jupiter - Growth, abundance, optimism, understanding, luck, expansion, finances, happiness, travel, foreign affairs, gratitude, honour, law, morality, humour, good will, generosity, abstract thought, governs the butt, thighs, hips, liver, and neuromuscular system

♄ Saturn - Structure, restriction, discipline, karma, obligation, foundations, ambition, responsibility, obstacles, authority, masculine figures, dominance, burdens, blockages, conventionality, tradition, governs the skeletal system, knees, joints, teeth, ligaments, and nails

♅ Uranus - Eccentricity, unpredictability, rebellion, reformation, innovation, change, openness, sudden progression, technology, society, astrology, originality, ingenuity, freedom, friendships, adoption, humanity, governs the ankles, calves, circulatory and electrical systems of the body

♆ Neptune - Intuition, mysticism, dreams, delusion, imagination, confusion, psychic receptivity, inspiration, deceit, guilt, addictions, vulnerability, music, memories, photography, spirituality, idealism, governs the feet, toes, body fluids, pineal gland, and overall immune system

♇ Pluto - Power, transformation, rebirth, death, evolution, intensity, sex, subconsciousness, the occult, desire, obsessions, control, destruction, upheaval, deep emotions, receptivity, fears, unearthing, governs the large intestines, bladder, sweat glands, reproductive systems and genitals

☊ North Node - The ultimate present life lessons that are meant to be learned, your soul purpose, fate, and karmic path towards fulfilment

☋ South Node - The path you followed until now, past life baggage, karmic lessons, familiarity, self-introspection, gifts or qualities you have already masrered, and fears to overcome

*Note: Feel free to use this as a guide if you’re a beginner in astrology!

**I also personally use this in tandem with my Solar Return chart readings. It helps me determine my clients’ main focuses of the year, and has always been accurate!

© 2021 Copyright Lenora (Sailor Solar)

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“you know drinking diet soda is bad for you, right?”

I haven’t eaten in 3 days, Brenda, does it look like I care what’s bad for me?