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Post 1; My Second Pregnancy & Blood Clot Story

when i first found out i was pregnant with Juliana we were definitely shocked & indifferent. it was “yay, we’re having another baby!” & “woah it’s way too soon!” & “hopefully it’ll be a boy this time!” in the middle of August Joshua got out of the Navy & we moved back to Ohio, but the headaches started long before then. my headaches began to get so bad that i literally couldn’t even keep water down. finally i went to the ER. “it’s just pregnancy hormones” they kept telling me. for TWO WEEKS. not being able to eat. constantly over the toilet. back & forth from both ER’s every other day. by this time i’m down like 10 pounds. one day i was laying next to Joshua & my arm started to go numb. i tried to speak to tell him what was going on & i couldn’t form words. little did we know i was having a stroke. a few minutes went by & it was over. i told joshua & AGAIN we went to the ER & they paid no attention to me telling them what i had experienced, still telling me everything was “pregnancy hormones” i could barely see! by the way they couldn’t even really give me pain medicine because i was pregnant & Tylenol did absolutely nothing for me. i went to the OB-GYN & could barely walk. i basically passed out as i walked up to the counter. still haven’t eaten much & if i did it didn’t stay down. they took my vitals & asked me some questions. i didn’t even see the OB, they just decided to admit me to the hospital. i go to the hospital & i get admitted. finally the doctors order some headache medicine that worked & was safe for my baby. the downside is i could only get it every 12 hours. after being there & so out of it for 2 days, they give me an MRI. that’s when they seen them. the MANY blood clots in my brain. so many i don’t even remember the number. they were everywhere. cerebral venus thrombosis is what they called it. this is when they decided to send me to the Cleveland Clinic. i was worried, but something kept me calm. as i laid there waiting for the ambulance to take me, i had my first seizure. i wasn’t hooked up to anything & no one was in the room, so no one knew (not even me). i didn’t realize i had it until i got to Cleveland & they asked me. i also didn’t know i had a stroke until i got to Cleveland & they told me. two more weeks. i stayed in the hospital for 2 more weeks. food is a thing of the past by this time. nothing will stay down, not fruit cups, juice, nothing. everything came back up. i honestly don’t remember half my time there because my head hurt so bad & i was so out of it. abortion. “the baby might be the cause, so she might have to get an abortion.” is what they told my family. you want me to kill my baby? is all i could think about. i might have to kill my baby to save my life… they had no idea why i had these blood clots and they had no idea what would take them away. i vaguely remember getting another MRI while in Cleveland. i also got an ultrasound. my baby was perfectly normal. i was still pretty early (under 12 weeks) i was still getting the headache medicine, but i was also getting shot every 12 hours with blood thinner & i was taking 3 different seizure medications twice a day. the first night i got to Cleveland they glued sensors to my head. i was having physical seizures and my brain was also having them. one night while my brain was i was hallucinating & i thought the nurses were trying to kill me. i called my family & i’m sure i scared the hell out of them. that was a crazy night. down 20 pounds. i finally had SOME sort of appetite & my headache pain went from a constant 10 to maybe a ¾. i could eat. barely, but i could. this was a good sign. i was almost ready to go home. after a few days it was finally time. i was going home. the first few weeks were really hard. i still got headaches, just not as bad. i could barely walk. i could barely take care of Joraye. the thought of possibly having to get an abortion was still in the back of my head. everything was just really hard. i went to church. i got prayed over. i knew i was going to be okay. i knew Angels were watching over me because i saw them (which is why i was so calm throughout this whole ordeal & never thought i was going to die. they kept me at peace) then Apostle told me a story about a girl that got an abortion because her doctors told her to & her & her baby both died. i knew then there was NO WAY it was meant for me to kill my baby. i knew i was going to stay pregnant & my baby would be just fine. i was high risk my entire pregnancy. extra precautions were taken the entire time. i saw special doctors. i got 10 iron infusions. i lived at the hospital & doctors offices. 6 months later it was time. it was time to have my baby. because of all my brain stuff i had to get another csection. they assumed going through labor would be too much from me. March 14, 2017 @ 8:03am Juliana was born. this little baby has just came out of me & i didn’t know if she was the cause of everything that had happened to me the past 9/10 months. this made me a little distant. i didn’t want to hold her. i didn’t know if i could feel the same way about her, as i did Joraye. then they put her in my arms. they made me hold her & I’m so glad they did. i never thought i could love another baby as much as i love Juliana. i’m literally obsessed with her. i’m so blessed she had no birth defects or complications from all the medications & everything with my brain going on the entire time she was inside me. i love her. her daddy loves her. her big sister loves her. Joraye is just as obsessed as i am. she tries to help me with everything. my latest MRI shows that my blood clots are now slim to none. it’s still unknown why i got the blood clots. i don’t know if they’ve depleted because of my blood thinners or if my daughter was the cause & because i’m not pregnant anymore they’re gone. either way i’m blessed & i thank God for keeping me & my children.