chhaviisingh

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there’s not always a bright side, and that’s okay. some things just suck.

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i need this desi romance.

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lu’s watchlist in 2022 - conrad fisher, the summer I turned pretty

you see how there’s no starting or ending point? you could travel endlessly around those curves. goes on forever. that’s infinity

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the song of achilles ripped my heart out of my chest, used it as a punching bag, chopped it up into pieces, slammed it into a blender, froze it, and shattered it into smithereens. perhaps i believe in love again.

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someone: what was that one phrase achilles used a lot?

Me: *internally screaming, don't say it don't say it don't say it*

Them: oh yes, it was "what has Hector ever done to me?"

Me: *implodes*

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A lot of the time, loving and admiring yourself is a choice you’re making in the moment, even if it’s just smiling at yourself in the mirror or whispering “that’s good” after you’ve finished doing something. If you just keep on practicing acknowledging yourself in those little moments, you’re already doing really well.

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“tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway.”

Edgar Allan Poe

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chaotic academics that don’t leave any space on their walls

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chaotic cat academia

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D.L. Smith

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I don’t know who needs to hear this, but not being in a romantic relationship or having little or no experience in a romantic relationship does not make you weird. Society just place a lot of weight on romance for some reason, so it’s seen as something everyone must want to be in. And I’m here to tell you: You really don’t. Not wanting a romantic relationship, not having experience with romantic relationships or having little experience does not make you weird. First of all love comes in many forms, and you can have a beautiful and fullfilling life without romantic love. But if you do want a romantic relationsship, know that you may feel a lot more alone or weird than you actually are.

The thing is, when society deems something as “desirable, important, a must have” then you will likely not have a whole lot of people raising their hands and talking about their experience if it goes against that “goal”. Which is why we need to share stories and broaded the spectrum of experiences. People feel alone, and they are scared of talking about their experience/wants, so because of that you actually don’t know how many are in the same shoes as you. And people who fit with these goals will speak more, cause they do not have the fear of being weird. There can be a million reasons why it hasn’t happened yet, or why you have limited experience. You’re fine, I promise. And if you want a romantic relationship now or at some point in the future, I hope you find someone really nice & gentle, whom you just click with. 🌸

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you don’t need an excuse to do the thing that will make you happy. but sometimes you need encouragement, and a reminder that what you’re doing will lift your mood.

this is that reminder.

go do something that will bring you joy. go spend 5 minutes on a hobby, or get your favourite snack, or send a text to a loved one.

you don’t need a reason. you don’t need to wait until there’s something to celebrate. every day is a new opportunity to make your life better.

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on earth we’re briefly gorgeous / ocean vuong

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There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

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“Patroclus is my sworn companion. His place is beside me.” 

The Song Of Achilles, ch. 10

[chhaviisingh]

i’m full of too much love but i’m also full of too much mental illness