chimmyjaz

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Today is my 27th birthday!!!

Happy

27th

Birthday

to

Me!

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the insane experience of missing a fictional character . like you can always go back and reread the book , replay the game , rewatch the show or movie , you can always go back & see them , but you can never experience them & their story for the first time again . its absurd to miss them because they'll always be there , but you'll miss when there were still new things for them to say .

for a small time they were real & growing and changing and you hung onto every new word, but now all they can do is repeat the same story forever&ever & they're not real anymore because you know everything they're going to do. & you miss them. its fucked man...

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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what's wrong babe you've barely touched your potential even though all your elementary teachers really liked you and said you were gifted and that you were going to do great things

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when kosinski wrote “i’m sure there are aspects of my personality buried within me that will surface as soon as i know i am completely loved.”

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is anyone else not vibing with the always looming sense of impending doom or is it just me

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I’m starting to think some of y’all haven’t actually felt the rain on your skin… which is crazy because no one else can feel it for you

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Okay but hear me out, challengers but with exy and instead of 2 boys, 2 couples (jerejean and neildrew)

NO romance in the kevin books i want 400 pages of his deep and borderline erotic obsession with exy. i wanna see the nothin but court through his eyes

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“As you read a book word by word and page by page, you participate in its creation, just as a cellist playing a Bach suite participates, note by note, in the creation, the coming-to-be, the existence, of the music. And, as you read and re-read, the book of course participates in the creation of you, your thoughts and feelings, the size and temper of your soul.”

— Ursula K. Le Guin

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You ever hear that old chestnut about how most people neglect the part of the story of Icarus where he also had to avoid flying too low, lest the spray of the sea soak his feathers and cause him to fall and drown? You ever think about how different the world would be if Icarus died that way instead? If the idiom was to Fly To Close To The Sea? A warning against playing it far too safe, about not stretching your wings and soaring properly? You ever think about how Icarus died because he was happy?

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I will never be normal about him, he has changed my life forever 💖

if i think about reese from the vanishing half for too long i explode

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you will love and be loved again and it will be f*cking beautiful

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ALL FOUR OF THEM AT THE SAME DAMN TIME.

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really love that nora does basically no promotion. either you heard about tgr being out because gay people were screaming in your phone, or you didn’t

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what i want for jean more than anything is to forgive kevin for making him promise to stay alive. not for kevin's sake, not even for the sake of their past friendship, but because staying alive meant jean got to have the trojans. it meant rainbows and open roads and friends. it meant fathers and peaches and warm brown eyes that find him in every room. it meant reasons to keep going and reasons to feel joy and while nothing can ever make up for what he suffered, he's here now and he's grateful for it. he's grateful to be alive.

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oh wyatt callow, the boy who weighed everyones odds in the arena and still threw himself in front of a blade for lou lou, knowing hers too.