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now feels like a good time to reiterate that Iranians have been martyred by america + israel already, both empires that possess nuclear weapons, and that Iran does not have nuclear weapons. so now is not the time to joke about america getting nuked-- any retaliation on Iran's part is justified and the only way we escape this situation, but Iran is not going to nuke us, because the entire premise that Iran has nukes is how america justified bombing them and also the exact same rhetoric we used against Iraq and how we killed my countrysmen when there was again no evidence of nuclear warfare. New York City is not going to get fucking nuked. go listen to a podcast or something

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I love how in book 4, as we get to the second half of the book, the conflict comes from the fact that they have no idea how long they'll be stuck there. It's the source of Ryan's breakdown, most obviously, but they also bring it up in the bathroom of the party car, and in the art gallery car. Like, yeah, I'd be worried about my exit if I was stuck on that train, too, and being stuck on the train is a major fear that follows all of the characters (yes even grace & simon. maybe not hazel, though). But it hits hard with Min and Ryan because being on the verge of adulthood is such a long process. It's so long and it's so focused on what's coming up, that you don't know what the hell to do with yourself, and you don't know how long you'll be in that limbo. (one of the reasons the train is flawed but i digress)

Much like Min and Ryan's lack of progress on their number, which keeps coming back to 202, it's hard to see any growth in yourself when you hit dead ends and have to start over. But eventually, that breakthrough does happen, and it wouldn't have been possible without the dead ends. It was Min who seemed to have this attitude as time went on: around the halfway point he was able to appreciate the silent progress they were making, even when it wasn't expressed in the number (he slid back in the art gallery car, but that was the docent's trick). Whereas Ryan was so focused on their lack of movement, that it drove him to that depressed, burnt out place at the end of the book. It all comes back to their shared problem--the inability to live in the present

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season three of infinity train goes so hard it’s a crime that you can’t watch it on max anymore. watching grace and simon go through the exact opposite storylines, becoming foils of each other in response to one another. grace losing her apex mark upon realizing that she was wrong as simon’s only got brighter. watching grace’s number go down to her hand as simon’s covers his entire body. all of these children being indoctrinated into a false religion causing them to go on a rampage while thinking they’re doing the right thing when in reality they stray further and further from the true right thing every day. grace leading them thinking she’s also doing the right thing when in reality, she’s doomed them. simon deeming tuba’s inhuman nature a valid reason to kill her, despite the fact that she was a fully sentient being who his friends loved and cared for. hazel losing the only mother she’d ever had. hazel being a denizen and not knowing it even when she was acting as one. simon not realizing hazel was supposedly one of the soulless monsters he hated so much because she didn’t look like them. hazel truly being not only so human, but such a child, begging for tuba to come back and promising to be really good. god there’s so much more i could go on about but it’s just the entire season. it’s so incredible. streaming services really just get rid of their best shows and don’t look back, huh.

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simon was ten. i just can’t over that. what could a ten year old have possibly done to warrant the train. his number was 55. jesse’s number was lower than that. he knows how people bring you casseroles after a funeral. he lost someone i’m sure. parent, maybe a sibling but i’m guessing mother based on how he acts with samantha and how much he hates hazel and tuba’s mother/child relationship. he was just a kid just like grace and hazel and the rest of the apex. samantha is so clearly meant to be a mother figure to him, calling others kitten, the whole scene of him being grossed out by the bear guy in her house. his response after samantha left being so so similar to hazels after tuba died. both of them being scared and lost little kids who grace could take in and who both looked up to her and loved her so much. god.

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simon was ten. i just can’t over that. what could a ten year old have possibly done to warrant the train. his number was 55. jesse’s number was lower than that. he knows how people bring you casseroles after a funeral. he lost someone i’m sure. parent, maybe a sibling but i’m guessing mother based on how he acts with samantha and how much he hates hazel and tuba’s mother/child relationship. he was just a kid just like grace and hazel and the rest of the apex. samantha is so clearly meant to be a mother figure to him, calling others kitten, the whole scene of him being grossed out by the bear guy in her house. his response after samantha left being so so similar to hazels after tuba died. both of them being scared and lost little kids who grace could take in and who both looked up to her and loved her so much. god.

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rewatching infinity train and man. thinking about book 3 and how they all wanted to get their numbers up and for the most part it was working but there seemed to be a cap or sorts. like no one ever got their number higher than their arm y’know? i think it’s because a part of the train is about trust and relationships and loyalty, mainly to the denizens but to other passengers and people as well. their numbers went up bc they were assholes to the denizens but stayed low ish bc they were loyal to each other, specially simon and grace. amelia’s number went so high because she didn’t care about anyone. not the passengers not the denizens, no one but herself and her own happiness. she had no loyalty or respect and that’s how her number was able to go up so high. and when simon officially betrays grace and leaves her in her memories we see his number shoot up instantly from still being hidden under his sleeve to peaking over his collar because the biggest loyalty and love he had he has now turned his back on. again when he’s fighting grace his number goes down both arms and up his neck but not on his face or legs but as soon as he pushes grace off the bridge again it shoots up his face and down his legs as he once again forsakes the only bond he has. and in turn through the season graces number goes down as she bonds w hazel, a denizen, and tries to save and forgive simon after their fight. slightly unrelated min and ryan’s number went down whenever they were laughing or genuinely having fun together. so much of the train is about love. tulip gets her exit by being loyal and loving to atticus and one one. jesse gets his exit when saying he’d never leave lake. similarly, ryan temporarily gets his exit when he promises not to leave min, and it disappears the second he considers taking it without him. it’s about loveeeee it’s always been about loveeeee im tearing out my hair.

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animated TV shows I think more people should watch:

Infinity Train - indulgent anthology series about misunderstandings, growing up, redemption and lack thereof, and trauma wrapped up in humor and devastation

Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts - post-apocalyptic perfection explored by a cheery pink girl, reskinned Finn and Jake, and a familial trauma survivor with a beautiful, intricately world-built backdrop

Scavengers Reign - story of survival, the deterioration of morals under stress, and the horror of nature told without much dialogue and the eventual message that community and regrowth are our most powerful tools

Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur - satisfying autistic genius lead, her best friend, and a dinosaur become superheroes to fight monsters of the week and gentrification

feel free to recommend more in the notes!

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Can you draw jesse x lake (infinity train) :0

yup yup

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那这里也发一下

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sinking town

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Cause some people in my inbox were wondering what rose’s scholarship was for :3

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movie vs book (i adore them both) 

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if anyone is seeing this, let me know what is your current word pleaseee im curious

there are words i use in my head a lot, and they change in soem periods, like monthly or in a few weeks. and the current word is ridiculous

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there are words i use in my head a lot, and they change in soem periods, like monthly or in a few weeks. and the current word is ridiculous

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THE trio of all time

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If I had to associate an Epic song with a PJO character I'd 100% say that The Underworld IS Nico di Angelo's song (putting aside the part where Odysseus talks to his comrades)

"All I hear are screams everytime I dare to close my eyes I no longer dream, only nightmares of those who died" this is how I imagine Nico felt when he first unlocked his powers and learned that he could talk to the deads, see them and hear all their pain and sufferings

"I keep thinking of the infant from that night" re-elaborated as Nico thinking about the moment Percy told him that Bianca was dead

The part where Polites sings is Nico meeting Bianca's ghost one last time, her telling him to not hold grudges ("Greet the world with open arms")

AND THEN- "Waiting" "That voice... it can't be" "Waiting" "Mom?" "Waiting, Odysseus when you come home I'll be waiting, even if you're the last thing I see" "I'm right here mom, can't you see? I'm waiting. I took too long" is when Hades shows Nico his past, the day his mother died, him wanting to talk to her ghost, but he can't anymore... (this applies to Bianca's ghost when she chooses to reincarnate).

And "Bye mom" is Nico accepting the fact that both Bianca and his mother are dead, he comes to terms with his past, his memory that has been erased, his powers, he gets used to all of this.

And then there's the final desperate "ALL I HEAR ARE SCREAMS EVERYTIME I DARE TO CLOSE MY EYES, I NO LONGER DREAM ONLY NIGHTMARES OF THOSE WHO DIED, NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS BUT IN THE UNDERWORLD YOUR PAST IS ALWAYS CLOSE BEHIND, DOWN IN THE UNDERWORLD" is actually Nico DURING and AFTER being pulled into Tartarus. Eveything is amplified, what he sees and hears goes beyond what even he, a son of Hades, was used to. And he will never recover yey