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PSA

I’ll be fully using my instagram and twitter, chiwarino. Since I rarely have feedback here, I will stop using tumblr for a while, please move to instagram if you wish to see my art^^

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Hello, your art is honestly soooo beautiful~! I came to know you through your Dreamer x Mastermind comics and I'm really grateful for that incident, because I love your art SO MUCH. Thank you for making them~ They always bring a smile to my face. (a fellow INFP)

Hello! gosh I thought it will be long buried and my tumblr page is dead, but thank you very much

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Okay this was 4 years ago, I promise after that I will share downloadable dakimakura Oso and Kara for free. Feel free to print etc  for yourselfbut I will NOT allow profiting from this. will take down if I see.

There’s no need for me to profit over this anymore, but a follow or appreciation help to my blog will be helpful.

Download link:

https://www.dropbox.com/s/hazz16uaw4zco1a/finaldaki.jpg?dl=0

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I just reread your Dreamer x Mastermind comics~ Which of them would have confessed their feelings / ask the other put first? Neither seems likely to IMO :-)

Yes, I also think they’ll just..stick around and understand they have mutual feelings instead saying it concretely XD

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I’m doing the best I can and that is enough.

[A drawing of a blue cloud with black text inside it that reads: “This is the best I can do, I am not slacking off, I am not using my mental illness as an excuse, it is okay that my best is not the same as other people’s bests.”]

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I’m doing the best I can and that is enough.

[A drawing of a blue cloud with black text inside it that reads: “This is the best I can do, I am not slacking off, I am not using my mental illness as an excuse, it is okay that my best is not the same as other people’s bests.”]

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Personal thought #2- MBTI

I remember discovering MBTI 8 years ago and became addicted to it, after finding I am an INFP. At that time I have mental illness but I wasn’t aware that was what makes me unable to think clearly, I also have a kinda of delusional moment too much..when I look back at my old diary.

And therefore I was lost than ever-- in class I didn’t manage to finish thing properly. I got trampled and laughed over. It’s because I am not sure what am I, what I do, that I only followed the current and grew to become sensitive. If someone told me I am A, I believe I am A. It’s because I didn’t have a kind of self actualization. So if people told me my weaknesses I believe I have only weakness. Here, MBTI comes a s savior.

But it’s not becoming better, my addiction to it, even if it leads to creativity that fruitful, is double edged sword. I started boxing people and depended too much on it. I think it’s part of my unstable mental illness too. Because I don’t have my own path and I keep seeing people “leaving” to a better place, I became thirst for a sense of validation.

I find attraction when I read about ENTJ personality--well who doesn’t? I believe most NFP do. The kind of opposite of what am I. I believed I am weak and hopeless, and the ENTJ personality is like total winner. I wanted an ENTJ partner because of that, to meet safety in another person greatness because...my own egg shell was empty. But you know ENTJ, obviously at the me of that time, they will only see me loser and meek weakling. It led me to total oblivion and I was sent to a hospital, got treated for 2 years for occurred severe mental illness.

Then after this huge storm I thought I’d never get out, I finally find hope. won’t get into details but seeing this art blog, you know what and who. Together with it I finally find myself, what will I do, what do I want, and what I am. They  are real, they exist in my piece of artworks.

I seek no longer validation from other people, I found my own strength pillar in me and started to see, the kind of me who have to be dependant on other people is only an illusion. Other people were like me too..even worst..they never found realization and stuck in it. I have my own me, my own moral compass. I am just the same as others and I have big dreams, and story I want to deliver, to help others who got lost like me in the society.

so what doesn’t change?

The part of me wanting ENTJ partner. it is. But, this time, it’s not to seek validation or depend on him.

These two years of me polishing my skills and chasing for my dreams made me realize I have strength in ambition and passion. I need someone who run with me, speeding my pace. And I have a high, sharp mind large empathy that I would like to guide him with it--I just feel my purpose in having these insights is to share it with my special  one (heheh). And I love knowledge, so basically also sparring partner in discussion ( I am bad at debate but I love knowledge exchange). I feel I can do it.

will I ever find that one person though? well..who knows. I keep believing it in my struggle. Something in my heart tells me I will find him.

even if my pessimistic side who is stronger tell me the opposite,,,