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mike faist fans rn: ooh mike in anna christie

me, also a mike fan, reading the script: i do not think i’ll be seeing this

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over and over, // soccer practice - lizzy mcalpine

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read the full interview here! template credit

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now i’m all sad about it. // gave you i gave you i - gracie abrams

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nigel just needs a helping hand. // making plans for nigel - xtc

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i pushed this man as far as he could go. // it took me by surprise - maria mena

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take a bow, cause you’re the winner. // the winner - conan gray

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you’re not making it easy. // killing me - conan gray

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please, i've been on my knees. change the prophecy. // the prophecy - taylor swift

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hand on the throttle, // the prophecy - taylor swift

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why not me? // washing machine heart - mitski

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— how art’s trauma affects how he views sex, relationships, and his sexuality

trigger warning for rape, sexual assault, emotional abuse, physical abuse, manipulation, cheating, and blackmail

art’s trauma

art was abused for fourteen years. he was physically and emotionally abused by patrick and tashi. both of them were also guilty of sexually assaulting him, but patrick was the worst. tashi knew about patrick’s abuse. she was cheating on art with patrick and she only objected to art being with patrick because it affected his performance on the tennis court. she didn’t do anything to help art get out of his situation, though. patrick would often tell art that if art refused to meet with him at a specific time, he would tell tashi or lily or the press what they were doing. he used art’s fear of people finding out to keep him in line and in control. tashi would use art’s fear of her leaving him to keep him in line. neither tashi nor patrick ever considered themselves to be bad people, and art’s restraining orders against them came as a complete shock.

art’s views on sex

art doesn’t like the thought of having sex with anyone for a long time. he would be perfectly happy in an asexual relationship. he doesn’t like the idea of his partner finding out all of the triggers and issues he has around sex, so he just avoids it whenever he can. if he thinks an interaction is heading in that direction, he’ll leave immediately. he won’t explain himself and he probably won’t talk to your muse for a few days afterwards. the same thing will happen if he needs to stop during sex. he’s been forcing himself through it for years, so he’ll probably try to pretend like he’s fine and he can continue. sometimes (most times), however, he’ll freeze up without any explanation. he tends to put himself as far away from his partner as possible whenever this happens, and he doesn’t explain why.

sex is not something that art has a good relationship with. he has multiple triggers that can be brought on by the simplest of things, and he will not tell his partner about any of these out of fear that they’ll see him as weak or pathetic. he avoids any interaction that could lead to sex whenever possible. if he has to stop during sex (and this is highly likely), he will not talk about it. he will just pretend like it didn’t happen and he will try to ignore whatever questions his partner asks him.

art sees sex as a means for him to be used for his partner’s pleasure. that’s all it was for him for years. patrick and tashi didn’t care about making sure art had a good time. they only cared about themselves. and although art knows that not everyone is like this, he’s scared of it anyway. he doesn’t want to end up where he started, and he’ll do pretty much everything to ensure he doesn’t end up in another relationship like the ones he was in for years.

art’s views on relationships

art’s thoughts on relationships are pretty much the same as his thoughts on sex. he avoids relationships for years. he keeps any interaction he has with anyone strictly platonic, and he will remind them that he’s not interested if the interaction starts to become more romantic or flirty. he doesn’t want to end up in a relationship like the ones he was in, so he just doesn’t pursue anything with anyone. it’s not the best coping mechanism, but it works for him. if someone were to bring up a potential date, art is either going to shut it down or suggest that he bring his daughter along. he doesn’t mean to be rude, but he really isn’t ready for or wanting any sort of romantic relationship with anyone. not for a long time.

art’s views on his sexuality

art is bisexual. this is, unfortunately, something he tries to ignore. he doesn’t like the fact that he’s attracted to men because he’s scared that if he pursues a relationship with a man, it will just end up like another patrick situation. because of this, he tends to avoid bi and gay men, especially in a romantic context. he doesn’t mean to offend, but he doesn’t want to end up in a relationship like the one he had with patrick again, and by avoiding men that aren’t straight, he guarantees it won’t happen.

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— the clothes make the man

a study in: sharing clothes, matching with your partner, and what you wear when you’re alone.

art has a terrible relationship with clothing. he’s spent most of his life wearing clothes that other people picked out for him and because of that he doesn’t really have his own sense of style. he wouldn’t even know what to look for if he were to go shopping for himself simply because he hasn’t picked out his own clothes in so long.

when he was in college, he tended to wear either patrick’s sweatshirts or shirts, or he would wear gym clothes. casual clothes weren’t really his thing, and if he was wearing casual clothes, they would be patrick’s. patrick tended to wear a lot of blue in college. art doesn’t have a very good relationship with the color anymore. he’s working on it, though.

when art went off on his own after college, he was picking out his own clothes, but he was gravitating towards the sort of things he’d worn in college. so he was mostly wearing gym clothes and clothes that were reminiscent of patrick’s clothes (which wasn’t the best for his mental health, but he didn’t know that at the time). he avoided anything that was blue (except for jeans, because jeans tend to be blue no matter what), but for the most part, he was wearing clothes similar to the stuff he’d worn in college.

when art and tashi got together, they would go on shopping trips together. tashi would point out some clothes that she thought art would look good in, and art would almost always buy whatever it was. his wardrobe expanded to include nicer athletic clothing, along with suits and nicer casual clothing. he owns a lot of collared shirts and slacks, and the amount of t-shirts in his wardrobe is down to pajamas or loungewear only. he doesn’t wear sweatpants a lot; he tends to favor gym shorts. most of his clothes are different shades of red, except for his pajamas and athletic clothing, which tend to be in neutral shades (brown, white, black, gray, etc).

all of these shifts in art’s wardrobe are brought about by tashi. he doesn’t notice it, and once he does, he doesn’t think anything of it. he’s always loved to make her happy, and if wearing the clothes she likes is what does it, that’s what he’s going to do. it’s only after everything is settled that he realizes he’s got no idea what he likes in terms of clothing. he doesn’t really know where to start, either, so he just sticks to what he knows fits him and looks nice on him. he does eventually start developing his own sense of style (which is basically just athletic wear and casual clothing), but it takes him a bit to figure out what he likes.

tashi and patrick (but especially tashi) were also people that liked to match with their partners, and so most of art’s wardrobe would compliment theirs. he didn’t mind it then, but he doesn’t really like the thought of matching with someone unless he knows and trusts them completely now.

the only downside to this is that he doesn’t like it when people offer to buy him clothing with the reasoning that they think it’ll look good on him. if someone were to gift him a sweater and tell him they think it’d look nice on him, he probably won’t wear it. he’s trying to work on this, and he is making progress, but sometimes it’s slow going.

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