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Weekly Reflection #6: Where am I in Life?

Amidst the hectic atmosphere and current chaos in my life, I feel as though I have found solid ground. I genuinely think that this was the best first year at college I could have had and am so grateful for all the opportunities and memories that I was able to make. Finding a safe and solid friend group at the beginning of the year made it easier for my college process to transition. As I went on, I am beginning to find out more about where I want to go in the future and the path I want to take.

Throughout this process, I have been able to achieve a couple of my goals. Being extremely introverted throughout high school and middle school, one of my main goals was to be able to branch out of my comfort zone and grow my confidence. Although growing my confidence is still something that I am still working on, I am glad to say that I have improved. Another one of my goals that I have achieved is to try new things. Rather than being sedentary and too strict on not changing, I believe that trying new things is all in the process of growth. Putting myself out there and being able to realize that nothing is all that deep help me take a new outlook on life. Lastly, I am working on gratitude. In the end, all of this is such a privilege that I am so grateful to have, and learning to appreciate it is such a huge change in perspective.

In terms of goals I have not yet achieved or things that I want to improve on, I would like to improve on my study habits. This quarter, I am afraid that I let loose a little too much, causing me to lose sight of productivity and efficiency. Throughout the rest of this year, I hope to be able to get back on track and make changes to my learning style in order to figure out ways to learn better. Thanks for listening and hopefully you join me on my journey.

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Day 30: May 16, 2024

hey everybody!!! im not even gonna lie i got 2 hours of sleep and i am not living. im just existing. physically im here. mentally im out. today was a whole lot of chatting with new people which was really really fun, but i think im lowk at the point where my social battery is out.

today i hate bplate for lunch with Nataley and Charlotte, we had chicken, potatoes, and pistachio bread. I also got Green tea Yakult with agar boba which was definitely something!!! Lastly, i tried gogobop for the first time and it was so gas. im acc so full this is unreal. i am basically a balloon. inflated but going with the flow.

im off to yet another chit chat sesh. i have a midterm tmr that i need to lock in for afterwards. tiring day asl but loved the convos so imma give it a 7.25/10. [9:57pm]

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Day 29: May 15, 2024

i had my psych100a midterm today and i am prayingg that it went well. i am actually so cooked its not real LOL. in happier news, i had panda which ive been craving for a while and then got epic right after. i was lowk full so i ordered the calzone thinking it would be mini but when they brought out that thing that was the size of a huge dead fish on a platter i was gagged. like jaw dropped. i have never seen food that big. its sitting in my room now tho but wow like world record hugest calzone ive ever seen.

i have so much work to do but i guess that's a tomorrow me problem.

byezit! [5:32pm]

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Day 28: May 14, 2024

What a good day today !!! I went to see Aaron May in concert which was actually so fire. I learned new songs of his that I did not know existed not gonna lie. I also had to walk 5 miles before, so standing in concert was lowk a lil tough but yk we thug it out.

earlier that day i had a scone and a great yap sesh with nat and jj. so so fun, so much lore unraveled. i was third wheeling the jp food sesh. thanks for having me guys.

at the end of the day i went back to the dorm to work on 7c reading guide and psych 100a hw. lovely end to the day!! overall 11/10 lowk. goodnight! [10:52pm]

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love my psibs❤️

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my self care this week is eating bc i like food. yumalicious!

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Day 28: May 13, 2024

hello world. today i got approximately 4 hours of sleep and went to my first lecture in a week. i sat with my friend and he gave me kimchi!! top 10 gifts i've ever received in my life tbh.

afterwards, I went back to my dorm and got to catch up with my roomies because i haven't seen them in basically a week and i missed them very very much. we ended up eating at De Neve for the different hot dog every day challenge. Today was made especially for me because it was the "Seoul Dog" and it had kimchi on it. lowk mid but A+ for the cultural effort.

i've been feeling so congested all day and it's caused me to have a headache sooo not vry fun. not my cup of tea tbh. plus two midterms this week and a lot more work just got dumped on me today. so highk stressed but yk we thug it out. 2.5/10 day please mr. flu leave me alone.

now onto updates on my beautiful JP kels!! she was very very productive today, managing to do a lot of homework. she also got to refresh by watching a movie. i'm so happy for her, for she has a huge burden looking over each and every one of us, so i'm so glad that she got to chill today. i love you kels!! [1:34am]

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Day 27: May 12, 2024

HOMEE!! So I still can't speak, which is depressing. I had KOREAN FOOD TODAY THO SO GASSS. I have also been in bed all day today sleeping. I feel so unproductive lol but for the recovery !! trust the process. I had like 4 different medications I am so lost rn.

I probably slept for like 16 hours, which is probably more than I've slept combined total this past quarter. tmr marks my comeback era tho i'll be back.

i didn't realize that i missed home till i saw my parents yesterday, so super happy to be with them today. i'd say today is a solid 5.5/10 day. goodbye mr. flu please leave me alone. [5:10pm]

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Day 26: May 11, 2024

Today marks the solid chunk of our 24 hour lockin. Men down? 0 DUHH WE ALL GOING STRONG. It was a super super fun experience being with the same set of people for actually 24 hours. I feel like these have got to be the people I've seen most this quarter but not complaining !! I love them all so much!!

I was still sick though during the lockin which sucks because I was basically silenced. Little mermaid post making the deal with Ursula. No voice no sounds. Quite the experience for me! I've always been told that I seem like a pretty quiet person, but being forced to be quiet was actually so hard. I miss talking. BUT AYO SHOUT OUT TO MAK AND DANIELLE FOR TRanslating for me. Thanks!! Also for food we ate a lot of chicken quesadillas yum!

Other than having every swallow I take feel like daggers jabbing at my throat, I'd say a solid 8/10 day. Lovely people lovely day. [5:04pm]

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Day 25: May 10, 2024

Friday!! Let's see. So I woke up with a still sore throat, actually I completely lost my voice today.

I had B-Plate with Nat nat and it was so gasss the lemon poppyseed bread and strawberries combo is top tier trust. AFterwards, I met up with Kelsey to dance together, a little bonding activity yk. But she felt sick so she had to go :(. HOPEFULLY SHE'S FEELING BETTER.

Afterwards I sat on the De Neve lawns to chat with AJ, and learned a lot. Amazing conversationalist fr. After wrapping up, I headed to B-Plate, again, for dinner.

Um I also went for a second dinner though: CANES. FOR THE FIRST TIMEE. I think I overhyped it, but it was still pretty good. i have also been told I live under a rock by one too many people, but hey at least I'm experiencing my firsts. I would say a solid 9/10 day for me. [8:52pm]

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Day 24: May 09, 2024

Thursday is like weekend clickbait. it's like you're almost there but sike you're not. time is actually slipping through my fingers because in theory, I feel like I should have ample time for everything, but in execution, it doesn't happen.

Today I had a 9:30am lecture through zoom--LS40 where we learned about something related to the Titanic. Afterwards, I met with an alumni, and she was super chill. I had lunch at De Neve with one of my friends who is a huge scaredy cat when it comes to horror movies. He is not mysterious and nonchalant.

I then went thrifting with Jocey bear, nat, and celine which was so so fun. I found a couple of cute things but they were highk out of my price range unfortunately. I also got boba afterwards, I know, quite the fatty moment. happy calories don't count tho.

My friends and I spent a good chunk of our time at Sunset rec today playing makeshift volleyball or spikeball. and not to sound corny and all but outside air really does make a positive impact HAHAH. LIKE DEADASS THAT was probably the most alive I felt all week especially with school being online.

oh ALSO HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. Sam and I went to get street burritos and it was my first ever burrito experience. HIGHK 10/10 DAY YAY. BYE! [11:00pm]

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my beautiful JP kels❤️❤️

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Weekly Reflection #4: Proud & Humble

Out of all the moments of my life, the moment I am most proudest of has to be getting into college. All throughout highschool, the pressure of getting into a good school has loomed above my head, controlling all the extracurriculars I joined and pressuring all the competitions I entered. It is fruitful to think back and see that all the hard work and effort that I put into my studies and clubs paid off. All the pain and struggles, the countless early mornings, the street cleanups, and more were all collectively contributing to my bright future. I am so proud to be where I am now, UCLA, and to be with the friends that I made and the classes that I am taking. I am proud of my involvement in this school, ranging from clubs to orchestra. Not only am I proud, but I am also endlessly grateful for being able to be here. 

On the other hand, I have also been humbled at college. My number one humbler has been the cleaning ladies for the dorms. As my roommates and I live in a private bath plaza triple, our bathroom gets cleaned every week. However, twice already, we have received a note saying that our room was too messy or our bathroom was too messy to clean. This has to be my greatest, most humbling moment ever. One time, we were told that there were too many shoes in the hallway, which prevented them from being able to even enter our room. Thanks to this, my roommates and I vowed to keep our room cleaner. We began to vacuum every week and make sure that the hallways are no longer cluttered. Furthermore, we began to take turns removing the items to clear our restroom before the cleaning lady came. It was quite a lesson learned. 

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Day 23: May 08, 2024

I woke up with a fever and sore throat--so fun :D! I was basically bedridden until now because I had to force myself to get out to study for my midterm, the more demanding issue at hand. BUT SORRY SAM ILL BE POSTING THE VLOG TMR I didn't wanna half-ass it.

I am prayingg that the midterm will go okay because lowk LS40 is the class I'm struggling with the most rn. Hopefully all goes well today, but as of now..2/10 day. Below mid bruh we are in da trenches. [5:33pm]

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day 22: May 07, 2024

Today started off okay, we had remote classes for the first day this week. I did wake up with a sore throat tho.. Afterwards, I went to go visit Makeila before she goes home for the weekend and we had Rende East : Curry Udon and Donkatsu and Salmon. So so good. I am no longer a Rende hater. Afterwards, I met up with Joshua Ji and talked for a while before calling my parents and checking in on home. Overall, it was a pretty chill day, not counting the fact that I have a midterm tmr and I am scared for my life. 6.5/10 day. Thanks! [11:51pm]