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I think we got the timing wrong. // md

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I Don’t Like You// md

I dont like you. i dont like your priorities. i dont like your attitude. i dont like how you treat me. i dont like how you make me feel. i dont like that i feel like a second priority to your girl best friend. i dont like how you live so far away. i dont like how we have such different goals for ourselves. i dont like how we are in practically opposite friend groups. i dont like how different our lives are. i dont like how we constantly argue. i dont like how u tell me nvm. i dont like how you say nothing. i dont like how different we are.

so why do i say that i love you?

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im fighting for a goal i dont even know if i want.

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it’s happening again.

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i’m so sick of myself

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I Asked For Honesty// kf

What you said really hurt me. We had had a strong month and i thought it couldn’t get much better. i was so happy. on top of the world. then i started to think about my feeling and realized; i don’t just love you. I’m in love with you. i know it sounds stupid but i know it. when i look at you, i don’t get butterflies or all excited; i get a sense of calm and relief because i know i’m safe with you close. it’s a feeling unlike anything else. ur all i think about even when i don’t want to. just when i figured out my feelings for you, you hurt me; bad. i asked questions and asked for an honest answer. it hurt on the inside when u said ur gonna be leaving for college in 2.5 years and that’s gonna be the end of us. you told me your gonna move on and fine someone new, never forgetting me but leaving me to find someone new. what if i don’t want to find someone new? actually, it wouldn’t say it hurt; i would say it broke my heart because of everything i had just figured out but haden’s told you. as if that wasn’t worse enough; you then told me 1. we’re not soulmates 2. we’re not in love 3. “we’re not end game; we’re high shcool game” IT HURT! it hurt so bad i didn’t even go to school. i harmed myself. i wanted to OD. i was heartbroken and i biked to you to talk in person. i told u how i felt and u felt so bad but couldn’t return the feeling and i get that. u think im sensitive and u cant talk to me or be honest. i am sensitive but i don’t want you to feel that way. i cry about u everyday and eat less because it hurts. i’m sorry for hurting you and annoying you and making you feel the way i do but it’s all because i love you so much. i wish i had the guts to tell you things like this is person. i don’t want us to end when u graduate. i want is to end when my life ends. i want that to be our end. i feel that ending our love story so early is a crime. like closing an amazing book and donating it. you know the story is still out there, you just can’t have it.

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I can guarantee you that 100% of the time, I miss your voice; even when i’m talking with you.

Chloe’s Tumblr Thoughts// mv

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Finding you took me out. Losing you put me back in.

Chloe’s Tumblr Thoughts

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Do You Regret?// jb

I know that you said you will always be there for me, but I can’t help but think that you don’t want to be. I don’t really know why. You’re such an amazing person and you act like you wanna be my friend but I just don’t know. You don’t know any signs of not wanting to be my friend so I have no idea why all these thoughts are running through my mind. Do you regret looking past what your friends said about me and becoming my friend?

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“I wish you were as obsessed with me as I am with you.”

Chloe’s Tumblr Thoughts// mv

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Being Patient// mv

It hurts me to know that your 2,832.5 miles away and there is nothing I can do about it. The short time we had together was just amazing and I wouldn't have spent those few days any other way. I was worried about what would happen when our time together ended because from what I heard, you have a reputation of having “things” that last a short while then just die off. I grew a strong liking to you. You’re just so damn kind and sweet and still are. I think I am overstaying my time in your life. Its been two months without you being here with me. I miss so much more than I should. There is one thing about you that makes me a bit uncomfortable; it’s that you are so sexual with me. I have told you before that I am a biromantic asexual so when you send “pics” I just act like I want more because I don't wanna lose you but in reality, I really don't want a sexual relationship with you, just a cute little thing with cuddles and kisses and stuff like that. But I don't wanna bring it up with you because I feel like if I tell you that then you won't want to talk and stay with me because I don't wanna have that relationship yet. I feel like that is something you need, so you can go along and find someone that isn't me. If you end up finding someone where you are, I can't be mad at you because your not committed to me; I’ll just be really upset. I know by next summer you probably won't even remember my name but there is a part of me that hopes we stay together and close for a really long time. You have seemed so distant lately; snapping me way less and NEVER calling me. Just the other day, I facetimed you late at night and right before you had to go to bed, you said you would have some free time the next day and would call me but you never did, or the next day, or the day after. I think it was yesterday that I told you we should really call each other more and you just kind of agreed and haven't acted upon that. Im trying by best to keep you around because you mean more to me than you should and way more than I think you realize. Every once in a while I will send you videos of me giving you an update on my life or even just what I did that day. I send you those videos because I don't want you to forget the sound of my voice; I'm sure its not that big of a deal for you; but to me it its. I actually do a lot of sweet things like everyday I give you a “daily chloe reminder” and it’s that I love you. Your barely react and that kinda hurts. I can’t say that I love you because I don’t know if that’s what this is but if love is anything worse than this? I’m gonna need a hospital. All I want you to know is that no matter what, I will always want you around and in my life.

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Stop Putting Yourself Down// dr

Just like everyone else, your confuse me but I guess I understand your a bit. When we met we had something and we acted upon it but you caught me at an immature time and I regret breaking you; I was naive. You’re such an amazing person and don’t deserve to feel what I have put you though and i’m sorry; but you really need to stop thinking so lowly of urself you’re attractive and you have a great caring personality. In the past you weren’t as good of a person as you are now and honestly, that’s fine we were all young and naive. Don’t let how you treat me and others in the past regulate how we think of you. I was a bit upset in the first place but you proved that you had changed and your really amazing; I don’t like seeing and hearing you put yourself down. At most times, I think you are a little too into me but I appreciate it. I don’t really know how I feel about you; I know your amazing but beyond that, it’s hard for me to sum up my feeling towards you cause i don’t even understand them. Thinking about it, I want you in my life but I don’t want be with you: I’m so sorry.

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BE HONEST// nk

This isn’t always true but a lot of the time that people hate their ex, it’s because they still have feelings for them. So when you say that you hate me, I assume it’s because you still have feelings for me. It’s honestly confusing because you say you still wanna be friends but it’s obvious you don’t so why not just be honest with me. You’re honestly so annoying and yes I still wanna be friends. JUST TELL ME YOUR FEELINGS BECAUSE I AM NOT SMART!

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“The scariest thing about distance is you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget about you.”

The Notebook// mv

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“Just once, I want someone to look at me and think ‘damn. I would do anything for that girl’”

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Always with me// pg

It’s not that I like you or love you. it’s that you have had such a huge part in my life and in shaping who I have become. Whether it be you loving me or hating me, you were always in my life one way or another and it hurts to think of you not here. It’s funny how a simple sad scene in a movie could have me thinking about you for hours. I hate you so much and you confuse me and mess with me. I don’t know why i’m crying. I wanna be with you. I wanna go on a date. A real date; but you would never let that happen. I hope one day, you can man up to me and everyone about your true feelings whether they be hate or love.

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F**k Love// pg

Sure, I broke your heart once or twice. But never did I expect when I worked to repair your heart, you would go ahead and break mine. I left you for stupid reason but when you came back, I realized that your are actually my first ever love. You treated me so well so I decided to return that and I did. I thought for a moment that when you asked how I was doing, I could be honest so I was. Apparently I was complaining about unfixable things and was being anoying? I’m sorry; I truely am. I loved you so much, I defended you and supported you. I fought for you and look past so much to get to you but you didn’t feel the same. I wonder when you read this... if you read this... will you know it’s about you? Probably. Will you care how you made me feel? Probably not. Will you ever come back or even speak towards me again? Definitely not. I’m mad at myself for loving you and caring so much. I hate myself for knowing that if somewhere, somehow, you decide to look at me once again and take me back, even as a dare or joke. Even if I know why your doing it. I would no doubt let you have me with no hesitation. I hate that I love you.