chogie432

[chogie432]

I feel tired... Not the kind of tired that can be solved by relaxing or sleeping. Im stuck in limbo between not wanting to die and not wanting to live, drowning in the sea that we call life. All of my desires are short term and pointless, I can’t see beyond them. I isolated and searched myself in hopes of finding my inner badass but now I’m just sad and frustrated. How can you reconcile with yourself when you hate everything about yourself and nearly every decision you’ve made? I’m searching for a way out and I’m scared it will lead somewhere I don’t want to go

[chogie432]

black and white tattoos

look for his ass then we find em!

[chogie432]

I turned myself into the complete opposite of what I wanted trying to please my family I’m done with that if I choose to be a cashier at Safeway for the rest of my life that is my god damn choice and I’m not letting anybody take it away from me again

[chogie432]

I don’t understand I’m polite, I’m interested, I put zero pressure on anyone to do anything for me and yet they always leave me. Why do people always say one thing and act the complete opposite. I just want someone I can be myself around but everytime I even try to put effort in it’s spit back in my face. I’ve done so much soul searching and tried my absolute hardest to be my best version and all I’ve gotten out of it is scorn and disgust. Why is it always a struggle just trying to have a conversation why is it a struggle just trying to find someone who wants to be around me for more than a couple hours I don’t understand and I’m so tired of trying. And you try to talk to people and all they say is "You’ll find your person" I haven’t found ANYONE. My own family wants to forget about me any of my old "friends" haven’t thought about me in years. I can count on one hand the amount of times I’ve been invited to even so much as a kickback by ANYBODY in years. I want to be a provider and supporter of someone and all I ask is they support me back but it’s obvious that just isn’t possible. It’s all meaningless

[chogie432]

Call me a spirit because of all the times I’ve been ghosted

[chogie432]

fuck nudes, send me a song

[chogie432]

[chogie432]

#mood

[chogie432]

[chogie432]

[chogie432]

[chogie432]

[chogie432]

Decided I’m just going all in and anything I like is getting reposted no matter what it is

[chogie432]

instead of "Ask me", I want you to tell me your story

Tell me about:

Why you’re single

How’s your relationship going?

What do you dream about at night?

What are you afraid of?

What’s your favorite song?

Tell me about the book you’re reading

A poem or song lyric that won’t leave your head

Tell me about your secret crush

Where would you go if money wasn’t an issue

What’s your deepest wish

Do you believe in magic?

Tell me a ghost story

What’s the weirdest thing that has happened to you?

What do you need to get off your chest?

What are you mad about?

What are you excited about?

Are you afraid for the future?

Fill my Ask Box

[chogie432]

I don’t understand what is wrong with me that causes everyone to say they love me but I immediately take a back seat to anyone and everyone else. I have been led on, dropped, ghosted and just plain treated like shit for to fucking long. I just want someone who won’t play games and lead me on

[chogie432]

My selfmade black ice controller faceplate 🙌🏻

[chogie432]

happy pride month everyone