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manifesting 2024 is the new 2014 which means im back on tumblr

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WHY ARE MEN SO DUMB.

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feelings are kind of like this these days

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in my normal people era (im pretending its a good thing cause I AM SCARED

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the category is can't flirt for shit

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i love my mom (she will never understand why do i use of medicines and alcohol to fill a void she can't accept that she is respondible of)

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literally why do i make everything in life so serious when its not. no one cares

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having feelings for someone being a teenager and specially a girl who like girls is so struggling and painful but at the same time so exciting that sometimes i have to stop to think about it before i go insane,but all the pining all the hinting on it all the trying not to be too touchy so bad,its so hurtful but the rush of it is also something that i would never forget the feeling off

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i expected my matty healy x taylor swift post from months ago to reach target audience for multiple reasons but certainly none of them included dating rumors... wtf is going on

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went missing from tumblr: either ive died or im happy

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if i could talk to my younger self first thing i would say is that she is not dramatic for crying abt being gay... that shits hard bro

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im not a manic pixie dream girl,im just a girl who happens to be manic and occasionally enter peoples life for fun

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liking soneone is already so fucking bad but liking someone when its your friend and you're both girls makes it so much worst and SOUL CRUSHING like ill be chilling one day and on the other il trynna be subtle abt staring at her istg it HURTTTTTTTSSSSSS

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me when my therapist says that the reason why i never ask for help ever and feel the need to do everything on my own and solve the deepest shits ever by myself isnt bc i relate to "you're on your own kid" and its actually bc i was neglected as a child 😦😦😦😦😦

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alright alright,i know its been somedays and i know i havent spoken about the last episode of tlou yet,but god i just been speechless it just havent left my mind since and i am LOSING it over that episode,it might be because of how excited i was with it but i gotta say,i have never watched something that portrayed the teenage lesbian experience as this episode did,bella ramsey is A FUCKING GENIUS,and we need to lock neil because THIS MAN IS MESSING WITH MY HEAAADDDD. god all the pining,the little stares i could feel it all again deep on my stomach,always waiting for the perfect time,always wondering if its worth messing the friendship,always SO self conscious and CONFUSED. bella ramsey portrays it SO well,i could recognize the way she looks at riley and know its love from a mile away,the fliperama scene :( the way she gets so happy and carried away and then the eye shut i just remember feeling that SO VIVIDLY. its the "i could've kissed her and i didnt" moment,its the "did she felt that" moment,its the "but she's supposed to be my best friend" moment,its the "its for the better that i didnt" moment and its THE WAYY bella showed that so so well,all the insecurities of a first love,ellie constantly fixing her hair after she realizes riley thinks about her appearance on that one store,its the way she knows she shouldn't sneak out with her but she still does BECAUSE RILEY IS EVERYTHING SHE WANTS. everything about this episode makes me feel SO SEEN and it warms my heart and at the same time shatters it,and yes i will be rewatching it... A LOT

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us solitaire people need to unite and discuss how wild solitaire addiction is. i swear if the term solitaire addiction exists i have that shit deeply... i start playing because im bored and 3 hours later im yelling at the game because i lost and im still playing trying to beat my timing over and over again... i cant do this anymore it's starting to get to me i DREAMED i WAS PLAYING SOLITAIRE and i could see the entire game on my dream idk wtf is happening anymore but IT IS NOT FUN.