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what depression is really like:

not showering regularly

not bushing your teeth regularly

living in filth

caring about your grades but not enough to do anything about them

thinking about suicide more than graduating

considering suicide whenever any problem arises

tired

no motivation

no energy

walking is so hard

sometimes even talking is too much work because you’re so god damn tired

laying in bed for hours because you’re too tired to move

feeling nothing but sometimes everything

knowing you’re not alone but still feeling alone

that constant mindset of, “Who cares? I wont be around much longer anyways.”

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Absolutely TIRED of being stuck in this situation. This year has been hell with losing everything I worked so hard on last year, having to move in with my abusive uncle and now this virus has made it even worse. I’ve lost so much weight thanks to not being able to afford food. My mental health has completely shit the bucket. I’m tired of dealing with my uncles abuse, and the. this morning he locked us out of the house...AGAIN and we’re stuck in the car with nothing and unless he decides to change his mind, we’re stuck. I’m over it..I wish I had anyone to help, but I have no one. I really just want to disappear. I feel like the absolute worst cat mom having to put Eira through this.

I’m sure no one will help, but please if you can even if it’s just to get some food. I just don’t know what the fuck to do right now. Message me if you have any questions 💕

Cashapp: $brianapietropaula

Venmo: @brianajeannep

PayPal: if you have PayPal send me a message! I have one I can use but don’t want to post is publicly

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the duality of cat

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y’all heard her

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Every reblog this post gets, I will tell my dog he’s a good boy

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What an absolute clown. Fuck exclusionists

pls give me 1(one) reason aces have ever been oppressed, and 1(one) example of aces being a part of lgbt history(before 2004 at least) and then maybe i’ll consider the idea that aces belong in the lgbt community lol

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These two have the same voice actor

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I’m a cis-gender man which basically means that, when I was born, the doctor went “It’s a boy!” and when I was old enough to understand I agreed with him.

The thing is, I don’t know why I feel like a man.  I was teased and bullied for it a lot when I was little.  I’ve never had stereotypically American male interests.  I never cared about sports or cars or guns.  I was more interested in music and cooking and the arts.  I’ve always been emotionally in tune and sensitive, even when I did my best to suppress my emotions to survive a childhood of abuse from other children.

It’s not physical either.  I don’t feel like a man because I have a penis or a beard.  If you put my brain in a robot body or any other body, my essence would still feel male (I assume).  I literally can’t imagine what being any other gender would feel like, since I feel so acutely male.

I think that’s why the concept of being transgender always made sense to me.  I’m a man.  I don’t have any bloody clue why I feel like a man, but I don’t feel that it’s tied to my body or my interests or the way that I’ve been treated.  I feel like a man because of something beyond that.  Something ephemeral.  So, why couldn’t others feel the same?  Why couldn’t a person who’s been misidentified as a girl feel like a boy for the exact same nebulous reasons that I do?

And, since gender really doesn’t make any sense to me anyway, why couldn’t there also be people who feel as if they don’t have one?  Or who flow across genders like a ship on a map?

Are there people out there whose sense of their own gender is inseparable from their physical form?  If you put those people into robot bodies or, simply, other physically different bodies, would their gender identity also swap?  If so, why?  Are they actually more lost in their gender identity than I am and they need to hone in on the physical in order to anchor themselves?

Why do people feel like they are the gender that they are?

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Absolutely TIRED of being stuck in this situation. This year has been hell with losing everything I worked so hard on last year, having to move in with my abusive uncle and now this virus has made it even worse. I’ve lost so much weight thanks to not being able to afford food. My mental health has completely shit the bucket. I’m tired of dealing with my uncles abuse, and the. this morning he locked us out of the house...AGAIN and we’re stuck in the car with nothing and unless he decides to change his mind, we’re stuck. I’m over it..I wish I had anyone to help, but I have no one. I really just want to disappear. I feel like the absolute worst cat mom having to put Eira through this.

I’m sure no one will help, but please if you can even if it’s just to get some food. I just don’t know what the fuck to do right now. Message me if you have any questions 💕

Cashapp: $brianapietropaula

Venmo: @brianajeannep

PayPal: if you have PayPal send me a message! I have one I can use but don’t want to post is publicly

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Muffin still chuffs a little when I put her harness on, but I open the door and all is forgiven

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And as a lot of black people are doing now—I want to open up donations for this time! I don’t have a job at the moment and donations can help out with a lot of things! I’m also trying to get another system to continue my videos and podcasts since my computer is having difficulty, and a little extra money would help with that in addition to helping me get by now and in the future!

So if you enjoy me and my content, and are able to, please consider donating! And also send good vibes/thoughts etc., regarding my job searches!

Cash.app - $Averies

Paypal.

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do you guys realize that…the videos and articles about the “good cops” who are “protesting” are propaganda designed to make you think “not all cops are bad”? do you realize that when the chief of police of flint said “let’s not make this a protest, let’s make it a parade,” he was successfully de-escalating the situation and dissolving the protest?

the police force has been corrupt since long before you and i were born. people don’t become cops to protect and serve, they become cops to feel strong and to use their strength against others. you are falling for propaganda if you believe that white men kneeling a la colin kaepernick mean the cops you see firing rubber bullets and batoning people are the exception to the rule. 

all cops are bastards. full stop. 

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Breonna Taylor’s birthday is this Friday, June 5th. There are still no arrests or charges for her murder and little attention paid to her case. On Friday, here are a list of actions you can do: https://msha.ke/30flirtyfilm/

Please celebrate her and continue seeking justice for her.