ciitrustears

[ciitrustears]

i feel like i've been a snail lately when it comes to being around here. life just gets busy and i am dealing with some medical stuff when it comes to my arm so typing can be a bit much. but i miss writing so i am going to try to get back to it!

[ciitrustears]

ELLA PURNELL

[ciitrustears]

SABRINA CARPENTER photographed by David LaChapelle for Rolling Stone (July-August 2025 Issue)

[ciitrustears]

"who said i won't finish them?" asked june, a playful look in her eyes. a mock gasp fell from her as he tossed a pillow in her direction. she knew that maybe she flirted a bit much. especially with him but she felt like she was making up for lost time. though she wasn't sure that it was harmless flirting on her part but she didn't know how he felt," maybe i'm just waiting to see if you'll ever make a move, ever consider that?" she wasn't sure if she should say anything more," but i can stop if you really want me to."

closed starter for @ciitrustears

"don't start things you won't finish." chandler hid how flustered he was by june's words behind an eyeroll, throwing a decorative pillow from the couch in her direction. he liked to refer to himself as a victim of her flirting, the playful relationship between the two a source of amusement, he presumed. lately, it was getting to his head. "you like playing with me too much."

[ciitrustears]

the sound of a knock caused dove's head to lift. she was packing up her make up after getting into some comfortable clothes. that night it was an oversized purple rain t-shirt and some shorts. a smile appeared on her face when she realized it was elias," i was going to ask if you could, my car is still in the shop." she had been surprised the first night that elias has worked. they weren't typical for security but dove didn't think it mattered," but maybe we stop for some food? i'm craving pancakes and my treat? since you're going out of your way for me."

closed starter for @ciitrustears

elias knocked before sticking their head through the dressing room door, despite how much of dove they saw on a regular basis. they shot her a smile as they stepped inside, thankful for another night finished up. "did you need a ride again tonight? you know i don't mind." the security job had been out of their comfort zone at first, but they'd quickly taken to it. it required less brain power than what they'd been doing most of their life and it came with the added benefit of being around beautiful women.

[ciitrustears]

status: closed

for: @thursdaygrl

"either this is just random or you are stalking me," said wyatt, realizing that she had slide into the booth in front of him. it wasn't something that he had been expecting. he was someone who stuck to routine and that meant eating a meal at the same place for his lunch. he was half certain that he was going to work his way through the menu," i thought i told you to stay away? didn't i?"

[ciitrustears]

the conversation was not something that she had expected. especially because before that day, she thought everything was fine. she knew that things were tense but she had hoped they could move past it. instead she found herself feeling like the world was spinning out of control. it seemed that she had finally said the right thing when he snapped out of it. he was staring at her and had an almost dumb look in his eyes," don't make me repeat myself." she hadn't meant to confess but it felt like she didn't have a choice. he leaned in, his hand covering hers as he stared down at her. she inhaled sharply and nodded," i thought you knew." she wasn't sure what he was going to do as he seemed to process it all. her face flushed but she nodded slowly," you really did." she honestly had hoped that he'd work up the nerve but he hadn't. her breath hitched as she realized he was pulling her towards him. at his question, she rolled her eyes before she pulled him into a kiss. it was gentle and she only let it last for a few seconds," what do you think?" her words were barely above a whisper as she wondered if he was going to finally do something.

dawson had been trying so hard to remain level headed about this. he was being realistic and logical, accepting pre-emptively that alma wasn't his and could never be, now that she was with his friend. he was doing what he could to make things easy and there she went stomping through every attempt. it really did take her exclaiming in frustration for him to realise what she was saying, to snap out of his tortured existence for a moment. he blinked back at her, lips parting and a stunned look taking over his expression "what?" he had leaned closer to him, one of his hands covering one of hers against his cheek as he stared down at her. "you... oh, jesus christ." a million thoughts ran though his head, so many things he wanted to say or do, but he was still too dumbfounded to really do any of it. "i really fucked this up." he spoke softly, eyes filled with a completely inappropriate longing. his hands moved of their own accord, one finding her waist and then the other meeting it there, pulling her closer to her. "you mean that?"

[ciitrustears]

SABRINA CARPENTER via TikTok (June 11, 2025)

[ciitrustears]

JACKIE TAYLOR & SHAUNA SHIPMAN Yellowjackets | 1.01 "Pilot"

[ciitrustears]

SABRINA CARPENTER performing 'Juno' at the Primavera Sound Festival (June 6, 2025)

[ciitrustears]

status: closed

based: linked in source

with: @attitvdes

billie wasn't even sure how the whole started. they had been joking about picking something to watch. that had turned into bickering over the remote. she hadn't realized she had basically crawled into his lap in her attempt to reach for it. one of her hands went onto her shoulder as the other reached for his outstretched hand. her fingers clawed at the remote when she felt his hand come down against her ass. a gasp escaped from her, her entire body going still," di-did you just?" she wasn't sure what to do but then their hand came down again. her other hand dropped to his other shoulder, laughing a bit even if she felt so flustered," st-stop, you win! you can have it."

[ciitrustears]

out of all the things she thought that dawson would bring up, it wasn't her staying away from him. she really felt like her mind and body were on different pages. it wasn't like she hadn't known how he felt. he sometimes reminded her of a lost puppy with the way that he looked at her. that didn't mean that she didn't want him in her life," you thought wrong." it was the closest they had been in months. she knew that he wouldn't have closed the distance. it was certainly different to be doing what she was but she wasn't going to back down. she could see how stunned he was by the way he reacted. it wasn't like she had planned on blurting the words out but she had," dawson," she breathed," for crying out loud!" her hands dropped his only to cup his face," why can't you just stop being so in your own head and realize that i wanted you to be the one who asked me out in the first place!"

as difficult as this was always going to be, dawson hadn't expected alma to have so many... feelings about it. he had thought maybe she'd be a little upset or put off, but not that she'd genuinely be upset at the idea of him wanting to make space between them. he had assumed her ignoring his very obvious feelings for her meant she was just trying to forget about it. now? he wasn't sure what it meant at all. "it should be, though. i thought maybe it would be." he replied, his voice much softer now that she was so close to him. dawson swore he was trying to do the kindest thing for both of them, but she was throwing a spanner in the works. not only that, the next words she spoke made him freeze. "what?" she was struggling to get the words out, dawson almost thought he was hearing things. "are you... are you serious?"

[ciitrustears]

Patrick Schwarzenegger as Saxon Ratliff The White Lotus Season 3 /for @lilysjmes

[ciitrustears]

open to: males & females

connection: childhood friend, friend's sibling, sibling's ex, fellow vlogger

please do not like my starters

"you don't need to overreact," said hazel, struggling to not squirm in her seat. it wasn't something that she had meant to blurt out. especially since it wasn't something that most people talk about," i know, i know, it's been over a year since i've gotten laid but i travel, a lot for work, what do you expect?" she wasn't sure why she was even trying to explain," and most people don't like what i do for work so dating is out of the question." her hand reached to brush her hair away from her face," its not that weird, is it?"

[ciitrustears]

SABRINA CARPENTER Manchild (2025)

[ciitrustears]

the sound of his voice snapped thea out of the daze she seemed to be in. his words caused her to groan helplessly. deep down, she knew that he didn't care about the money the men gave. she had lost track of how many there had been that night. she had been nothing more than a plaything, tied up in the chair. her chest heaved as she knew that she was completely wrecked. she still couldn't believe how her life had been completely changed. all because her uncle, had convinced her parents that she'd be safe in the states with him. those words couldn't have been further from the truth. she knew that she had to keep him happy. he was swooping down and peeling off the tape," i-i did good?" she felt like she had done nothing besides allow herself to be used," i thought i was mad-made for you."

♡ closed starter for @ciitrustears / starter call #14

"looks like you've made quite a bit tonight.." he whistled as he eyed the basket on the side of the lounge chair full of money. fitz didn't have a specific amount he charged the perverted men who knew where to find her. as long as they knew that they were being filmed, he didn't care if they paid or not. especially since the live feed of her being used and abused was making him enough money. "you did really well tonight, baby.." he lowered himself in front of her. still tied up to the chair, every inch of her covered in cum. "you were made to be fucked like this, thea." he pulled the tape over her mouth before darkly grinning at her.

[ciitrustears]

"how is you pushing me away not being a dick?" she asked, knowing that she was probably pushing her luck. it was evident that she had taken him by surprise. she wasn't going to make any of it easy on him. not when she felt like she hadn't done anything to deserve what he was doing. things had been weird for a while but she didn't think that he would be willing to not have her in his life. he didn't pull away when she reached for his hands. her breath hitched when he squeezed but he still wasn't looking her in the eye. she forced herself to take a deep breath," its not that easy, what you are asking." his question took her by surprise and she wasn't sure what to tell him," you could-you could ask me to leave him." the words came out of her mouth before she really thought it through," ask me to be-be yours."

"alma, i'm not saying this to be a dick to you, i'm trying to..." the words seemed to die on his tongue as she got closer. his body stilled, his feet not moving though his brain yelled at him to create more distance between them. he'd thought this conversation would be easier, that she'd understand and keep her distance like he'd asked her to. he hadn't expected... this. her hands grasping his suddenly, making his heart skip a beat. he was at a loss for words and he couldn't help but squeeze her hands, though even just looking at her hurt. "i know. i know i missed my chance. i'm trying to accept it, i just need you to let me." he managed to choke out. "there's not another option here..." he hesitated. "is there?"