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black pear tree / cleaning crew

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Same as cash - the Mountain Goats / Nine of Swords

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One, two, I don't love you Three, four, any more

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i know we talk about crowdsing no children all the time and it is fantastic and I do love it but ever since I heard the woke up new 06-15-2014 bottom of the hill crowdsing I've wanted nothing so bad as that. it's a song about being profoundly lost and lonely in such a specific way that you can't imagine what tomorrow looks like and you feel like nobody else could ever understand it. and the crowd sang it together. so many people all together alone but mostly just together no one voice distinct in collective anon, this piercing individual loneliness cried out by so many; and I sang, oh, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do? what do I do without you?

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the prose section of the tallahassee liner notes,,, oh my god

these are my favorite sections. i adore the repeated use of summer throughout the notes as a metaphor for how rancid and intense everything is turning out. “we entered our new house like a virus entering its host” is such a vivid and effective image. as a creative writer this is making me kind of wild.

also the “shared walk down to the bottom” bit is making me think of several things:

1) song reference: i will walk down to the end with you/if you will walk all the way down with me (old college try)

2) their path across the southern part of the country and hitting a physical “bottom” in tallhassee

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I don't mean it when I tell you that I don't love you anymore

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commentary by john darnielle about the song tallahassee / blood bank - jon iver / idylls of the king - the mountain goats / orestes - a perfect circle / medusa in a stone garden - molly ofgeography / international small arms traffic blues - the mountain goats / january 31, 438 - the mountain goats / two - the antlers / francis forever - mitski / in two - will paquin / atrophy - the antlers / ep 246: a story about him - welcome to night vale / hair match - the mountain goats

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" and then we fell down

and we locked arms

we knocked the dresser over

as we rolled across the floor

i don't mean it when i tell you

that i don't love you anymore "

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the mountain goats + burning

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what if we held hands.... and we were twin high maintenance machines

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i love listening to old mountain goats songs where its toeing the line between music and tv static

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found in a copy of wolf in white van from the durham public library

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look i love no children as much as the next guy but it actually pains me that oceanographer’s choice isn't the designated tallahassee track for people to go crazy over like listen to it and tell me i'm wrong

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and the daylight keeps ta worrying me

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john darnielle this is so fucked up why would you say something like this.

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i used to love you