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This is too sick!

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Many truths

I really haven't felt full or complete. I've been looking for something or trying to do something to fill in a piece I've felt missing. Sometimes I fill it with anger, remorse, embarrassment, shame and pride. Recently, been filling it with cannabis and food.

I realize that these last four years in college have been very lonely. Full of missing something, someone, and some relationships.

I feel tired even though I just got 12 hours.

I'm doing nothing but what I thought I was supposed to be doing but yet I still feel like garbage.

I always think I can't trust anyone. With my thoughts, with my feelings, with my constant switch ups on ideas. I probably can't though

I can't be the only one who thinks all their friends hate them.

I can't be the only one who actually misses having a best friend. You need someone to tell you you're fucking crazy.

Where is someone I trust?

4 years ago, I was scared, anxious, and ready to start new. Not realizing I'd dropped everyone around me in making it here.

Now I'm scared, anxious, and terrified of having to focus on rebuilding a social life that I severed and burned, ignored and found enemy with.

Now I'm spending 4 years trying to figure out how to start over again. But part of me just wants to fix and keep what I thought I wanted to leave behind.

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People use Twitter and Instagram to honestly vent. I use Tumblr and Snapchat.

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4 years ago I had more friends, weighed less, and was still just as stressed out.

When will I be happy?

Like, actually fucking satisfied.

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when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

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I lost like all my friends at once so I've been trying to work from the ground up. It's not working. My social life is a wreck I don't know how to fix.

its kind of sad when you hit up and old friend and you both really miss each other but the connection just isnt there anymore

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OH YEAH!

Follow @sarcasticmellowdramatic

That's where I should be word vomitting.

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Found my password. Guess I'm back. Idk.

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I overshare to friends thinking it'll make me feel better but I usually feel dumb afterward.

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Hiya

Remember when I used to vent on here. Now I just randomly cry in my car while screaming song lyrics to get out my thoughts..and record on Snapchat.

How's your day?

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its kind of sad when you hit up and old friend and you both really miss each other but the connection just isnt there anymore

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If you never catch that you didn't watch the movie enough

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This is so important. 

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