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You seem so happy and I’m so sad

You seem so sad when I’m so happy

So let’s puzzle these moods

Cause right now we’re for each other

Don’t matter tomorrow , right now

But it will be eventually

So wear that condom shirt

And enjoy this pleasure with hygiene

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Today, I realise the possibility of being in a 3rd World War in just 7 months. So why shouldn’t we not enjoy these times and do what we want?

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I’m desperately unwell. I got the runs, I had fever last week and when I try to sleep I constantly wake up in between my sleeps to go to the toilet and I constantly dream with asian people giving me definition of things non-stop. I’m going INSANE

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I’ve been unwell this week. And I’m upset REALLY upset not because of being unwell, but because this is the consequence of some of my decisions. Where the fuck did I have my mind ? Where do people have their minds to do such a thing ???

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I cannot sleep. So I’m going to put my headphones on and dance

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Does fame still exist if everyone is able to reach it ?

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Prep time song - life is excellent (film) of the artist David Robilliard by the sexy flame hot mother fucker Russel Tovey - 9:33 (references for the future)

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Today I realised that my fear of having to leave my sweet home ( london) is due to being 7 years since I’ve been here, the stage time where a lot of people move out of a country or stay for longer, break up relationships or keep together for even longer. I realise this is what the name of my second album “belongingness” is about . Belonging to the world, but also until what time will I be exception to the rule and not be like the others, or the other way around. Is the pleasure and the pain of fitting in and fitting out

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it all feels so pressured when is not and tomorrow I will definetly need to hoover my bedroom

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sometimes I wonder if I still enjoy London. Not because of London itself, but because it feels like I've got some sort of ADHD and drives me nuts. But after writing this thought I realised that it has nothing to do with London and I am relieved about it. #londonishome

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Had enough of talking to people who don’t want to listen to me

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I do believe we can create something new. From what I’ve learned, the ingredients need to exist from our reality But we can make an unusual recipe that no one has thought before. And if someone has thought something similar , you just need to have one different detail to exactly be completely unique.

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I’ve been seeing a deep sea where all my body and personality are under my foot, and I’m able to reprograme it

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If others aren't like you

Why do you hear them sometimes?

Asking questions against judgement

Not everyone is mature

Sometimes you suffer a bit longer to grow a bit bigger than others

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Spinning so many ideas… how about this one about time- do you remember when you had a watch and you had it always fast 5/10 min ahead? What if that helps me to be more present nowadays?…

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Last pics of 2023

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Today, more than ever, I need to think super differently and trust my instinct ✨ toast to that 🍻