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YOU don’t know how right YOU are????????

you say leave behind anyone who does not try in your friendship you to faced cunt 

i hate you you fucking bitch 

why would you do this?? why?? why would you never try then fucking go flaunt that in my face? are try and help you and what do you do to fuck al you ignore me and make me look like an idiot.

what do i have left to do? 

let go 

let gooooooo 

after every fucking problem i have help your fuck two faced ass through and you just leave e when i need you the most 

bye then good bye to you all...

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내 기억의 구석 한 켠에 자리잡은 갈색 piano 어릴 적 집 안의 구석 한 켠에 자리잡은 갈색 piano

그때 기억해 내 키보다 훨씬 더 컸던 갈색 piano 그게 날 이끌 때 널 우러러보며 동경했었네 작은 손가락으로 널 어루만질 때 I feel so nice mom I feel so nice 그저 손 가던 대로 거닐던 건반 그땐 너의 의미를 몰랐었네 바라보기만 해도 좋았던 그때

그때 기억해 초등학교 무렵 내 키가 너의 키보다 더 커졌던 그때 그토록 동경했던 널 등한시하며 백옥 같던 건반 그 위 먼지가 쌓여가며 방치됐던 니 모습 그때도 몰랐었지 너의 의미 내가 어디 있든 넌 항상 그 자릴 지켰으니 그런데 그게 마지막이 될 줄 몰랐네 이대론 가지 마 you say

내가 떠나도 걱정은 하지 마 넌 스스로 잘 해낼 테니까 널 처음 만났던 그때가 생각나 어느새 훌쩍 커버렸네 니가 우리 관계는 마침표를 찍지만 절대 내게 미안해 하지 마 어떤 형태로든 날 다시 만나게 될 거야 그때 반갑게 다시 맞아줘

그때 기억해 까맣게 잊고 있었던 널 다시 마주했던 때 14살 무렵 어색도 잠시 다시 널 어루만졌지 긴 시간 떠나있어도 절대 거부감 없이 날 받아줬던 너 without you there’s nothing 새벽을 지나서 둘이서 함께 맞는 아침 영원히 너는 나의 손을 놓지 마 나도 다시 널 놓지 않을 테니까

그때 기억해 나의 십대의 마지막을 함께 불태웠던 너 그래 한 치 앞도 뵈지 않던 그때 울고 웃고 너와 함께여서 그 순간조차 이제는 추억으로 박살난 어깰 부여잡고 말했지 나 더 이상은 진짜 못하겠다고 포기하고 싶던 그때마다 곁에서 넌 말했지 새꺄 너는 진짜 할 수 있다고 그래 그래 그때 기억해 지치고 방��했었던 절망의 깊은 수렁에 빠졌던 그때 내가 널 밀어내고 널 만난 걸 원망해도 넌 꿋꿋이 내 곁을 지켰지 말 안 해도 그러니 절대 너는 내 손을 놓지 마 두 번 다시 내가 널 놓지 않을 테니까 나의 탄생 그리고 내 삶의 끝 그 모든 걸 지켜볼 너일 테니까

내 기억의 구석 한 켠에 자리잡은 갈색 piano 어릴 적 집 안의 구석 한 켠에 자리잡은 갈색 piano

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10 Tips for Weight Loss

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1. Ride your bike for as long as possible and when you think you cant go any longer convince yourself you can and then do it. 2. Call your best friend and remind him/her of your favorite memory that you share. laugh about it. cry about it. remember. 3.TALK TO SOMEONE 4. Leave the house. Explore. Go find a world that you want to live in, Even if you have to create it yourself! 5. Call your grandparents. Let them ramble on about how pretty you are and how they are positive you are doing well in school. let them love you. 6. Wake up early. Super fucking early and do your hair and fix your makeup so its just right. take your time. 7. Or don’t. sleep in super late and wear sweatpants, a t-shirt and a bun. fuck makeup you don’t need it. 8. Put on your favorite pair of socks. slide around the house. play. laugh. fall. 9. Find a random blog on tumblr. or someones twitter. or instagram and message them telling them you think they are lovely and that your here for them if they ever need you. do what you’ve always wanted someone to do for you. 10. Build a fort. Alone. You don’t need anyone else dictating the way it should look. Its yours. you made it. 11. Open a window. sit down next to it and let the fresh air in. stay there for 10 minutes and just breathe. i promise it will help. 12. TALK TO SOMEONE!!! 13. Go pet your dog or cat or any pet that you may have. and if you don’t have a pet go see a friend who does. 14. Throw things. its okay you can replace them later. every now and then we need to let out aggression and its much better to break a lamp then your veins. 15. Write a letter to someone in Africa. or Pakistan. or France. Or Germany. Spellcheck isn’t always right but it can be useful. 16. Go to school and hug everyone with a name that starts with a vowel. (A,E,I,O,U, AND EVEN Y). 17. Bake a cake. Sit downstairs near the oven and smell it as it bakes. Let the warmth in the air fill you. And when your done treat yourself. eat the whole thing alone. Fuck calories. 18. Listen to Holiday themed music. get into the spirit. whether it be March or December. 19.TALK TO SOMEONE. 20. Watch a movie. A happy one. None of that The The Fault in our Stars Bullshit (sorry John). 21. Call your mom and ask her whats for dinner. Chances are it will be something super good and you are going to want to stick around to try it. 22. Wrap your arms around yourself as tight as possible. Keep them there. When it feels like you can breathe again let go. 23. Cry. its okay. You don’t have to act like your not hurting. let yourself cry. 24. when your done laugh. let go. let yourself laugh. 25. Pray. to any god you believe in. and if you don’t believe in god pray to something. or someone. even if its Barney from How I Met Your Mother. or the Stuffed animal you got when you were 5. 26. Turn off your Phone. Just for a day. Don’t check and see which celebrity cheated on who and which girl from school may be pregnant. Just relax it will all be there tomorrow. Take a day for you. 27. Shake up as many cans of soda as you can find. Put some back. Throw the others as far as you can and watch what happens when it hits the pavement. 28.Write a letter to yourself. Talk about why you want to die. Talk about what makes you want to hurt yourself. BURN IT. ALL OF IT. Rip it up into as many pieces as you possibly can and throw i into the garbage disposal. You don’t need those insecurities any more. 29.TALK TO SOMEONE. 30. Turn off all your lights and get a flashlight. Make shapes in the walls or just lay there and enjoy its florescence. 31. Close your eyes. Count to the highest number you know. When you’ve reached that start going backwards. 32. Go get something to drink. Water preferably. And just sit down and drink it. Take your time. 33. Compliment yourself. Blatantly. it could be at school or home. Tell yourself your gorgeous and that your wonderful. even if you don’t believe it. continue doing this. 34. Dance. In your Kitchen. Or Bathroom. or Hallway. try out new dance moves. you might be super fucking good. 35. Curse. Name every Fucking curse word you know and say that shit out loud. SCREAM THEM. Sing them. Fuck Fuck Fuck. 36. Draw something. Pretend your good even if your not. 37. Lay in bed and turn off all of the lights. Play your favorite album out loud. Listen to every word and fall in love with it all over again. Remember why you chose it as your favorite. 38. TALK TO SOMEONE. 39. Write a poem or a journal entry. even if it starts with “Dear Diary”. your not some petty teenage girl just because you write out your feelings. 40. Edit something. Your blog or a Picture or an essay. The control it gives you will feel wonderful. 41. Take a shower. A long one. If you want to cry you can. If you want to dance you can. Let yourself do as you please. 42. SCREAM. AS LOUD AS YOU CAN. 43. or don’t. whisper. tell the entire world how you feel and imagine them listening. imagine them understanding. 44. Hug your mom. Or Your dad. tell them you love them. 45. Text a friend or a sibling. and tell them you love them. tell them what they mean to you. don’t leave any of it out. 46. cry. its okay. 47. Seriously don’t try to stop yourself. Don’t blink them away. Don’t turn your face, let yourself cry. openly. 48. Put in your Headphones. You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. You don’t owe anyone anything. 49. Talk to everyone. Ask them how their day is going. Ask how their last class was. or How their parents or doing. or How it felt to graduate or get a job. just Ask. 50. TALK TO SOMEONE. 51. Kiss someone. I don’t care who. you don’t have to make out with them. A kiss on the cheek will suffice. 52. Put on your Favorite pair of Underwear and the biggest t-shirt you own. walk around the house. Fuck pants. 53. Binge watch an entire series on netflix and then dedicate your life to it. (we’ve all done it guys no shame) 54. Complement others. A lot. like on everything. 55. Paint a wall. or make a poster and hang it up in your room. 56. Throw away something that you shouldn’t have. maybe its an EXs jacket. or a picture of someone who hurt you. get rid of it. 57. Google. just Google like 4 words that you can think of. and see what comes up. it could be. puppy, cheese-its, Darth Vader, and milkshakes. or Slasher, wig, dinosaur, Aladdin. 58. go to the park. sit on a swing and just fly for a little while. 59. Make a plan. A goal for next week. Like wearing your favorite outfit. or telling your crush you like them. something small. when you reach that goal make a new one. 60. TALK TO SOMEONE. 61. Clean out your closet. Give everything you don’t wear anymore to goodwill. or Donate it. You’ll feel better trust me. 62. Study. Pick a subject you enjoy. if you like Math study Math. if you like Psychology then research about that. 63. Take a nap. a long uninterrupted nap. Fuck homework. Fuck stress. Just sleep. 64. Make your family dinner. they will appreciate it. and you get to pick what you eat. win win. 65. Cut your hair. Dye it. style it different. Make a change. it doesn’t have to be big. 66. Take a bath. Find all the bubble bath in your house and make a mixture. Fuck it. Pour the whole bottle in. 67. Youtube is cool. Watch a magic trick. or how to fill in eyebrows. or someone sing. 68. Friends are cool too. Invite one over. 69. ;) 70. TALK TO SOMEONE. 71. Turn on some music. Get in the shower. fuckin dance bc that shit is fun as hell okay. (disclaimer: its fuckin slippery man) 72. Your eyebrows. 73. Try out that hairstyle that you’ve seen your favorite celebrity do. you know the one. 74. movie days are fun. 75. Clean your room. 76. paint yourself. like draw a daisy on yourself. or a skull. Skulls are cool. 77. Take a baseball bat and a can of soda and go to town on that shit. 78. Musicals are fun, singing and dancing AND acting. sign me the fuck up. 79.TALK TO SOMEONE 80. go through your “junk drawer” and organize it. 81. go online shopping. bc new clothes and you don’t have to leave your bed or put on pants. 82. Take a bunch of selfies in poses that make you feel hot af, you don’t even have to look at them if you don’t want to, delete them if you want to, or post them if you want to. 83. Stalk your favorite celebrity (they’ll never know) 84. write a letter to someone, it could be Harry Styles, or Obama, or your crush, or yourself in the future. 85. Vine can be annoying but if you find a viner who makes you laugh stalk their profile until you laugh so hard you cry. ( I do recommend avoiding Nash Grier but if you must) 86. Kick ass music can put you in a kick ass mood. 87, TALK TO SOMEONE. 88. Chat rooms can be fun. (please be safe though, don’t give out super personal info) 89. write out a list of places you want to go and things you want to see, include pictures and plans and brochures and flip flops or snow boots. 90. tumblr. it can be an amazing source of support if you let people on here help. accept their advice and try it no matter how dumb you find it. 91. work out. (I know it sounds terrible but the endorphin’s will give you a natural high and that’s rad as fuck) 92. Make a twitter that doesn’t have your name or any direct information linked to you and just rant bc nobody will know who it is and it will feel like someone is listening!! 93.TALK TO SOMEONE!!!!! 94. Puzzles are so fun and they require you to think about what you are doing to keep your mind off of whatever is stressing you out! 95. plant some flowers in mason jars. they are gonna be fucking cool when they bloom. 96. Origami is a thing apparently and it can be really cool if you like crafts like that. (if things like this stress you out pls avoid this) 97. Make a bucket list and attempt to plan the things you’re going to do on it or do some of them. (one of mine was to go to school with bubblegum pink hair and i permanently dyed it tru.) 98. PLEASE PLEASE TALK TO SOMEONE PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU SO MUCH! THE LINK TO A HELPLINE THAT YOU CAN CALL 24/7 http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html 99. if you dont want to talk to a random person on the self help hotline you can message me at http://neccessity.tumblr.com/ask 100.TALK TO A FRIEND OR A NEIGHBOR OR A TEACHER OR A PARENT. 101.everyone who reblogs this is here for you and is available to you please please please talk to someone. YOU are needed. YOU are loved. YOU are intelligent. YOU are smart. YOU are absolutely beautiful. and YOU are going to make it through this!

101 things to do instead of hurting/killing yourself (via neccessity)

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You can’t wake up, this is not a dream.

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rape

at first, i thought the sting was a bee’s – a quick pinch; a little bump, swollen red for a few hours, maybe a day or two; but it’s become a festering wound, pieces of me rotting away from the inside:

yellow teeth and melting gums, forty extra pounds to replace the wings clipped from my back.

as i was splayed across the concrete of a church parking lot, i could not cry out for Jesus

i didn’t feel the bruises forming around my neck, the same ones my roommate helped me scrape back with pennies and frozen spoons as she asked me about

the size of his dick. she told me to try tattoo concealer for the rest

and fell asleep.

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10 Tips for Weight Loss

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YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE?

YOU know what you did you fucking cunt!!!!!!

you are a sick freak

you manipulative little dirt bag 

how do you play THREE fucking people 

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