cleaserene

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03-03-2024

I am happily married now, peace and contentment. The feeling of loving and to be love without restrictions and limitations. I am married to my sunset. We had our fare share of trials but he didnt leave me. He made me complete. To forever!

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i wanted to stop this with the sunset but how.

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what is really love? being in love with the definition of someone is inlove with me.

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three hours of talking was no enough. i know what i did was a mistake talking to the moon. maybe he is my safest place after all.

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9122021

I can't see myself in the future with someone whom i am today

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i dont wanna see him happy

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8312021

I still cant ponder to where my feelings are coming from. Is all the pain and tears all worth it? is this all worth it? I am happy yes. but Why am I still questioning this feeling. That in the midts of everything i still have doubts. Doubts that everything i am experiencing now all the new lessons. is this still worth it? i question that always runs in my mind as to why years ago i was ready to get married and build a future with the moon without any doubt. but with sunset i can even picture myself as to what my future would be. confusing. or I have to much things in mind lately with this pandemic and toxic work place. hays. So help me God.

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on december 04, 2020, my heart officially opened to new love.

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what is this im feeling i just can't explain?🥰

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To my moon. Just found out that you are already in a relationship with someone whom i didnt expect. I glad that you already found your happiness but at the same time sad. Sad. But i know that there someone out there for me. Thank you for everything. And sorry for not being enough for you. Be happy. 09-05-2020

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Why is this heavy feeling. What will happened? Shiiiiit.

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What if I didn't force myself to changed back then? Would we still be together? I lost my self because thats what you wanted but when that moment came. You came looking for what was lost in me and found it on someone else. Isn't that so unfair? I force myself to change because I love you and i didnt wanna lose you but what the fuck did you did? YOU CHEATED on someone whom had the same gestures as me. Why? Ngano?

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September first. I wanted to cry my eyes out. Shiit wrong move coloring my hair to it's natural color. Black. Feeling like looking at my 20 year old self..But then out of the blue feelings came rushing in. I missed my old seld and welcomes it back. But I also missed the feeling of being in love happy in love. Everything happens for a reason.

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8/10/2020

When i lost you i also lost mysefl. It is not easy to cope up with pain. it is not easy. I miss you so much i miss you so much

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6/17/2020 5months 2 days. I miss the feeling of being loved.

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Open your eyes and ears, Te hecho de menos mi estrella de mar. Te quiero tanto mucho

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why are you sad Mr. Bear? 😭