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Emotions tend to take you far away more than you willing to walk the walk, i am much of a individual that take the walk, no matter how much I run a way I keep finding myself drowning in emotional complications, I cannot see beyond I hope that only eventually there would be something better to get out of it if not I am indeed wasting my time of things don’t matter, maybe if I take away those elements that makes me emotional I can head into somewhere there would be leas hurt, I need to bring that part of me where i never lost myself to any emotional feelings came my way, pushing my boundaries is what I do best and this is the biggest challenge to get pass the emotional needing! Sooner than later I will head out to that place I find myself and never to return to anything I left behind.

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Here we keep stepping up from yesterday to better tomorrow 🌟😎

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Mind over matter, be constant for yourself be persistent. You are your own universe! Use it wisely to spread out your energy!

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Sexuality demonstrated in secrecy, most of the men I’ve come across are being drawn to satisfy their pleasures of needs in sexual wellbeing by being the dominant person, collapsing some other word, sometimes when they cannot dominate their own life this is the pleasure to seek validation that lift them up it’s like seeking that superiority not addressing the real problem,

I’ve addressed this dark side of sexuality in my own experience ones who dwell on it need to open their eyes to the bigger picture missing. I happened to fell in love with someone so ungrateful, took such a huge part of me, I completely lost myself over it, I cannot take my time back again it’s a goner for good, had two options to go to pick up myself or drown in it, I choose to pick up and walk into somewhere better because I know deep down I love myself and I owe it to myself and to the world.

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I’ve changed to adopt myself into people and situations, that’s is the most wrong I have done, I loved with pure energy and happiness my intentions were truthful, people decided to do me wrong knowing that it would have hurt me, we are all struggling to survive kindness is needed, I find it so difficult to get myself out of this darkness, why I ask myself again why did I put myself here knowing what could happen, it’s like I knew what I got myself into and I didn’t care what could happen the damage it could cause me, I have avoided myself taking certain paths myself, so I need to use my brain power in order to survive, I don’t need validation, need to work towards my goals, I am super power and I need to spread it out!

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Love happens naturally, now time is so crucial that we meant to do background checks before falling in love which is so scary,

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Note to myself, i needed gold, I was trying to make gold out of rock that was meant to be gold in years of time, it was my fault for trying make the rock into gold in instance, takes years of process we cannot change the nature of elements, time is everything, I understand every journey is different, we need to talk on our own pathways, it will always lead us to beautiful destinations,

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It’s a internal pain struggle, more times you dwell in sorrow it’s harder and takes more time to come out of it, I’m feeling tired beyond words and trying to catch my emotions in one place, feeling not myself and I dunno where to begin with, hopefully this won’t be forever, things will get better eventually, I can create the future that won’t have these negativity anymore. Will this feeling fade away that I’m scarred for life, my life choices out of love taken me to a bad place and why there is a emotion as such it’s a scary place for to be, triggering every step of the way, all the mixed feelings in my mind, slowly I will get better I owe it to myself because I’ve been through hell a lot and I need to love myself in order to get myself into a better place. I need to set soild boundaries, so this won’t keep repeating over and over again.

[cleyara]

We cannot be helped if we don’t need the help we getting, it’s a survival game out here and it’s difficult when not being communicated properly, discovering our life potentials and working towards for some better outcome it’s always would be the biggest challenge we face, breaking out from our old habits and push it towards our life potentials will always make the soul alive. It’s a journey of a lifetime make sure to enjoy each moment including the bad ones.

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New perception is what needed in order to overcome obstacles. Endless possibilities all that lies beneath you. Get in touch with your surroundings and observe it’s beauty. Nature speaks its own language of love and wisdom. If you open yourself enough to listen to hear all that need in your life because you are part of it.

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Effortless Love.

Can I destined to be with the effortless love or no love gratitude without no effort is made. Emotions always surround me like a hurricane. I’m drawn to it like a magnet, Can I resisit ? Or overcome it. My head runs wild. I wonder what it’s like to trap your emotions all in a one box and not let it out. Maybe I’m already doing so or heading that way. Either way I can be happy overall for reaching out so far. I cannot move around my life right now. Peace that I seek is within me.

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It’s not okay to be continuously drown yourself in misery. That easy flow don’t run on me anymore. Carelessness has become a habit. Will things change or keep at it? Most importantly am I willing to go through as such. Question is am I capable to handle that comes my way? What is my fate? Am I dreaming about something that don’t exist? Even after all this years I’m still questioning myself. Meaning that it will continue to happen,

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PEACE!!! Thanks for everyone for a awesome night! And so sad for not having enough pictures as well! Missing some faces! #srilanka #beachywaves (at Tuk Tuk Wine & Dine) https://www.instagram.com/p/BojiNYwhoH6lQAz9vwN-DHB3rulU8kJJTbYt500/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ua8arycg1e9e

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Home

Home is where you express yourself better than anywhere else, you could act on yourself without judgement, feeling free from rest of the world finding that comfort is home. It can be a person or a place , your mind is free to make the decision you could be anything. Let your mind wonder around to find the perfect thing that makes your home,

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ART AND SOCIETY - THE CITIZENS by Richard Hamilton #prisoner #politicalstruggle #violance #unitednations #humanrights #art #devolopments #bold #tatemodern #contemporaryart (at Tate Modern)

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okay here is a thought, i live in a world where i find worlds beauty in a different way than most people. they make excuses to get what they want all the time, one thing we all need to stop being the victim of all the negative things happening around us. in a way we are responsible for whatsoever and do we get to live like that? we all live only once. i lost people whom i loved very much. be humble in every possible way and help yourself to overcome life and the time ahead of you, use that time wisely, all the wrong happening makes us who we are, i am not proud of most of the things happened in my life but i am proud that i have overcome many of them, it is hard at first but you get along sometimes to be alright with it. i had to make myself to be positive in my most difficult situations in life. im glad in a way these things happens to me it made me to grow as a person to make myself better everyday. we all make bad choices that doesn't mean we have to drown in them. we all got freedom to make decision in life in our own way. who knows what happens tomorrow so live it, embrace it while you can because nothing lasts forever.