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4am-7am, threeeeee hours of sleep. i feel so sick 😃👍

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my two pondersome questions tonight thus far: why did they choose the animal bear for t.eddy bears (why did they decide bears would be comforting for children), and what does the narrator in sp.ongebob sound like in other languages (what silly accent does he have in other language dubs)

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maybe im just not getting any sleep. sp.ongebob w eyes bloodshot creaky wide open dot jpeg

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welp.

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weird part of this disorder is when big things happen and everyone is talking abt it in brain. like. i think s.inglets probably just have busy thoughts that crash into each other, but for me it is like having multiple layers of these busy crashing thoughts. i get actual headaches from it. anyways apparently everyone in brain has smth to say abt all of this and i feel like a child stuck in the middle of an argument at a family gathering. i just want to sleep but everyones got shit to say and discuss and figure out. :(

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i just hope mini g.olf is actually fun 😭😭😭

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shes waiting on a response probably and all i can do is sit here and try to breathe bc my ribcage is broken and caved in or smth

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brother prob just told neighbour everything. shaking so hard rn. why does everything happen at once. I can't fucking breathe

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i don't think i can share text even censored esp bc this place is not sh-dowb-nned anymore and i worry f.amily will somehow find it lmao but holy fuck i feel like im going to throw up

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literally right in the middle of trying to figure out how to crawl out of my bedroom window when i get an insane text from sister and then right after i open my phone and start reading it i hear the neighbour/family friend talking to brother outside (he is the worst person to have talking to her bc he will absolutely spill the beans about mother's medical shit even after all these reminders to keep it to only immediate family knowing). holy fuck i am a bad YA novel's protagonist rn.

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idk if i can fit thru window 🤔 i think i can if i twist around a bit but it's difficult bc theres gravel right below my window and that'll hurt my hands if i put my hands down onto it lmao. i thiiiink i can manage to make it work but I'm waiting on brother to either come back inside or stay outside, he's not rly commiting to one or the other and i dont want him seeing me do this lmfao

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For the love of god stop

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i have not felt hungry at all today, everything I've eaten has just felt like shoving gravel down my throat. I'm just so tired and i don't want to be awake.

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idk i think we are just exhausted. want to lay down and curl into a ball and cry. i dont want to do any of this anymore. it is all so sucks.

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perhaps somewhere in here i can find some good doodles to cobble together a ref sheet for Perlant .... it's just tiring to look through and figure out what is usable and what is not

(sketchbook page dump)

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#mybone 🫶

trying to figure out a themed outfit or design for the beaftie for a.rtf.ight this year fjdkdl