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what i get attached to is the images my brains create

my brain intoxicates me with you

it draws the picture for me to get addicted 

why are you doing this to me?

i thought we were working together but no, you want me to starve, to dissolve in my obsessions

you don’t think logically, you don’t know what is good for you, you are sick yourself 

i don’t trust you...

you are the illusionist of all kind, thriving on the illusions you create 

but i don’t like you like this 

let’ see what happens when i take away what you like from you, let’s reverse the roles

i am going to starve you

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I noticed that recently i feel warmth towards girls that don’t look like hot ass girls. When i see them i immediately understand man who are attracted to normal type of girls with normal type of vibes

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Where is the snow

It used to come tocover our faces in its coldfur

To wash the year long heated debates, emotions, events from our red cheeks

The winter is warm, doesn’t let us rest and fall asleep for a while in our new skin

The warmth is old...

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the past filled me 

the foundation of experiences 

allowed me to float 

in the present

be reckless

i knew i can come back to the sweet memory

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i gave you the affection

you took it

you didn’t return it

i gave myself an affection

and the world danced around me 

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Is it what we yearn a love or something else? 

is it because we can’t connect with the trees around us 

or it is because we can’t find a language to speak to ourselves 

is it a pain of not being able to find a form through which we can flow

maybe because this form has not been built yet

you feel love and you dissolve, you are a flow, you fit into this world

when you stop feeling loved, you lose the flow and you lose the form

you try to rebuild the language, you try to speak to yourself 

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is the world talking in sounds

or in words

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I would like to go back to our past

But I don’t know how to talk to you about it

I don’t know how to make it conditional

And is there a point to be emotional

I would like to develop inner more straightforward voice that I could share

It doesn’t guarantee that others will listen

But what other choice do we have ?

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The smiles I used to send won’t return any more

They are hanging in there, not sure if they are there with you still

They changed their tone and are playing their melody now

Without us

Did they ever need us in the first place ?

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Not sure which part of my past I am missing more

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Daydreaming about human interactions

I started to think about man in various different dimensions

different viscerality of man darkness

daydreaming ways in which we could interact

thoughts and dimensions we could connect

who we could be in those times of untouchiness 

times of social distance 

when even glimpse is on a distance 

random topics sparking another level of making us closer 

how creative we can be to find a visceral common ground?