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#GOD I wish that were me 

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神奇的9君

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“My 20s have been the loneliest era in my life. I am surrounded by people but not connecting with anyone. Everyone is living their own lives while I am still waiting for mine to start. I feel lost between what I should be feeling and how I actually feel.”

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one of the things i've learned is to grieve for the things i've lost. this isn't just for people but for the moments i can never have back, for the places i could never visit again, for the chances i did not take, for the moments i was so selfless i didn't bother asking myself what i wanted, for the things i have outgrown that were hard to let go of... for everything in the past i can no longer welcome in the future.

grieve for them. free yourself of the things you keep carrying simply because they took time in your life. it's all right to be sad about the things you had to leave no matter how much you want to hold on. it's okay. you're okay. they're just no longer yours this time.

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i am utterly disappointed in who i have become. i wanted to be someone better, someone important, someone beautiful. but instead i waste space, i waste time and i burden the people i love. this isnt the future i had in mind for myself and i know its too late. i’ll never get that future i dreamed of as a child.

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“I found out that I was cheated on. It hurt, a lot. I put my trust in someone who I loved and cared for and they betrayed me. He mistreated me and disrespected me in ways that I can’t even begin to try to understand. For me, it wasn’t the cheating that hurt most. It pained me to think of him with someone else when he was supposed to be with me, promising someone else the same things he’d told me. That hurt of course but what hurt the most was the lying that followed. He told me it was only me, that he only wanted me. He made me think I was crazy for thinking he would ever do that to me and so I began to believe that too. I knew he treated me badly but in my head, I never thought he would go that far, I never thought he would do the one thing that would hurt me the most. We had our moments, we weren’t perfect but I thought we both knew the moment one of us done something with someone else that was it, he promised me he’d tell me if he ever done that but he didn’t. He lied to me for months, made me think I was the guilty one, the horrible one but it was him, it was always him. I tried to love someone who done unlovable things, someone who didn’t actually want me to love them in the first place and do you know what? That’s a pretty fucking shitty thing to find out but I’ll survive. I’ll learn and I’ll grow and I’ll love and most importantly I will hurt. I will continue to hurt until I stop but I’ll know I done all I could. I took a chance on someone because I loved them and I managed to love an unlovable person and I am proud of myself for doing that and I’ll be even more proud when the day comes that I am over him and what he done.”

— how my 2018 started.

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Hi. Kamusta?

Hello, ayos lang. Ikaw? Kamusta na?

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*binge watching my life falling apart*

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di ko alam pano ako nakukuntento sa almost 5 minutes na conversation natin araw-araw luh highlight na yon ng araw ko kasi isang kamusta mo lang tumitiklop agad ako bwisit na buhay to

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use headphones!!

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And there’s no guarantee, that this will be easy.It’s not a miracle you need, believe me.I’m no angel, I’m just me, but I will love you endlessly.Wings aren’t what you need, you need me

Endlessly - The Cab

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Adrian: Where’s Kamilah?

Lily: She’s busy doing stuff.

Adrian: Okay, what about MC?

Lily: She’s busy being the stuff

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BLOODBOUND MC: INSIDE PHONE EDIT 📱🦇