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[cloudyfm]

rcinberry​:

orion spent, maybe, 4-5 hours shuffling through her closet for an outfit that would suffice for the evening that was planned ahead. orion contemplating leaving once she approached his door and she had stood there for a while before giving him the idea she was there. although the thought had been there, the nerves that had ran up and down her back washed away as soon as his presence was there to neutralize. she greeted him with a hug that only lingered seconds after, her stomach churned at the thought of them spending the evening together. it was stepping into a new chapter for them; not like their occasional hangouts that ended in takeout and poking fun at one another and there was no further thought given to it. a fantasy turned reality, not one that she would ever imagine turning into a reality. “what are we doing?” her tone is sing-song, “you were cryptic for the last few days.” orion keeps her gaze eye level with him. “do we have a fancy chef cooking for us?” she follows him through the house, listening in on his banter but she couldn’t exactly focus in on what he was saying completely - she was in a daze, this only felt unreal with every step that she took towards the back patio. though she had been in this house a week ago, it felt different. as she steps outside she was welcomed with a display of mixed foods and decor, her eyes scan the area, making sure not to miss a detail he curated before glancing up at him, “a picnic?” she uses a single digit to bring his face to hers only to place quick kiss on his lips, pulling back slightly to meet his look with a softened expression; orion’s heart fluttered against her chest at his notion, “for me?” she repeats quietly, turning her gaze back to the set up. she didn’t make a single movement as she was fixated on the gesture from him. // @cloudyfm​

the day had gone by in a blur , barely focused enough to do anything besides make sure that what he set out for her would be perfect . maybe it was cliché , cheesy even , but more than a small part of him felt like he had to make up the last four years in one night . it was his way of making sure they were okay even after everything that had happened between them . more so than anything , it would have been a lie for him to say he hadn’t replayed their almosts from when she stayed with him - it was enough to make it nearly impossible to shake the anxiety he felt now . after he sees her enter , the smile on his features becomes impossible to shake . ‘ still cryptic . . . it’s a surprise , ‘ he starts , slowly leading her to the backdoor . rather than responding to her string of guesses , he simply allows his beam to only grow . when they finally step outside , he can feel the breath within his chest halt . truly , elijah had no idea if this was the best way to go about a first date . truly had no idea if she would even want to do what he had planned - considering their options were limited at this point , this was the most creative he could get . it’s not that he cared really as long as he got to spend time with her . he debates on breaking the silence until she brings him in , the smile playing against his lips is now coy as he pulls back . he can physically feel himself breathe again . ‘ do you like it ? ‘ rather than waiting for a response , he takes her hand in his & leads her to sit down next to him . ‘ it was either this or we watched a movie & i’m pretty sure i’ve made you watch every movie i own . ‘ at this point , he’s rambling to himself trying to ease the nervousness he’s been dealing with for the last twenty - four hours . a nervousness strong enough that riddled him with a sleeplessness the night before . elijah finally looks over at her , fingers toying with the wine glass he’s set up , ‘ you look pretty . ‘

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daisychvins​:

colette continues to swing, the cool breeze on her face combined with the screeching of metal bringing her back down to earth. she clings to elijah’s words, willing herself to heal despite the unspeakable hurt she is feeling. finally, she allows her feet to skid through the dirt, bringing her to a stop so she can look at him fully. “thank you,” she murmurs suddenly, eyes locked on his, “you are the only person who doesn’t treat me like i’m fragile. maybe it’s fucked up to say, but if there’s anyone i have to share this hurt with, i’m glad it’s you.” their own bond, a constant back and forth of playful and bitter, now strengthened in some crooked way. “maybe i should just say fuck it,” she agrees, “fuck america’s sweetheart, right? fuck the media, fuck yale, and fuck relationships.” 

he didn’t know how to comfort her - in fact , know what to say at all ; this wasn’t something he normally had to do with her . but elijah still wanted her to be okay , parts of him even caring more about her hurt more than his own . his head is leaning against the metal of the swing , watching her come to a halt only to nod at her affirmation . ‘ because i know you’re not - ‘ the statement is matter of fact before he continues , ‘ is it bad to say that i’m kind of honored ? the colette ahn is sharing their hurt with me . . . unparalleled . ‘ he laughs at his own joke , yet his tone was far less jovial than even he intended . it was his attempt to lessen the load of the conversation . it failed . ‘ god , you are so fucking smart . i’m actually at the point of saying fuck love too . ‘

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daisychvins​:

“maybe i was being generous,” she admits, making herself laugh, “but honestly, we share everything anyway, so i knew i needed to get your rating before i let that one go.” colette basks in the compliment, winking at her counterpart, “lilia, baby, if you wanna get married you just have to say so.” 

‘ i can promise you that that is one thing we would not share , ‘ she gestures towards the phone in colette’s hand , almost nodding to herself assuringly . ‘ col . . . are you asking me to marry you ? i’m shocked - in disbelief . how could i say no to someone like you ? ‘

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“” (lilia)

send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

lilia: ive been waiting for you to apologize to me for months and ive just given up at this point .. what did i do wrong??? wil please tell me what i did wrong i trusted you. i literally trusted you and got nothing back. maybe that means nothing to you but it means a lot to me and i hate you for it. i wish it was different but i guess karma fucking sucks

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lilia and avery: $ ✉♀ / eli and annie: ⁇&ツ / eli and goose: ø$%

FOR AVERY:

send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

lilia: can you plleeeaasseee pick me up im lonely, i want a wine night ):

lilia: sorry that was meant for colette.

send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

lilia: mom just told me everything. i think ive written this up like 12 times because i honestly have no idea what to even say anything. you dont have to forgive me ive kind of given up on that ... should i have given up?? you didnt deserve what i did to you. avery if i knew earlier i would have come to you and i mean that i just. avery i miss you. they lied to me i miss you i miss you so bad. im sorry fuck

send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

lilia: i know you didnt want me at the hospital but i promised you i wouldnt leave you alone. that stands.

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FOR ANNIE:

send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

elijah: bestie u r not gonna like this .... bestie ur not gonnaa like this .... bestiieee u r not gonna like this. i stole ur cat food ???????? FOR CHEWIE ... NOT ME

send “&” for a LOVING text.

elijah: i went to target for something last night and found this marker set made for toddlers and it reminded me of u (: i want something drawn for me that belongs in the moma by tomorrow

send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

elijah: ok this may sound stupid but i found a movie i think you would like?? and yes i know im in it but i havent shown it to u yet and i want u to see it. please please pleasseee say yes ur opinion matters ok

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FOR GOOSE:

send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

elijah: are you awake?? i know this is sudden but i really wanna get out of the house and i want to go on a drive but this time i rly dont wanna run into federal property. if u can promise me that then im coming to pick u up

send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

elijah: no baby its ok dont worry im free tonight

elijah: oops dont worry not for u haha would be funny tho

send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

elijah: pls dont take this offensively but im genuinely wondering how u arent prematurely balding dude

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✆ @ ♀ “” (eli & seb) ⁇ ø ♀ (eli & orion) ✘ (lil and kai)

FOR SEBASTIAN:

send “✆” for a MORNING text.

elijah: can u wake up i want to slap ur ass good morning for luck

send “@” for a SCARED text.

elijah: please call me i think i fucked up .... .. dude i literally fucked it with beryl i dont know what the fuck to do 

send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

elijah: i just called my parents and it went to voicemail lmao are you going to be home soon i want to smoke

send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT.

elijah: i miss you ... ik youre in dubai with annie and i hope ur having a fucking amazing time, im happy for you guys. idk i just it feels weird without u ?? like im missing a limb or something ??? idk what im saying im going to bed ig goodnight

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FOR ORION:

send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

elijah: BOOOOOOOOOO it’s late ))))): but clal me abou t last night. please i wanna talk 2 u ....,.. i cnat stop thinking abt u

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

elijah: i know its 4am but ive been thinking and i need ur opinion ?? ok anyways do you think worms on a string have feelings yes or yes

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

elijah: im sorry orion, for everything im so fucking sorry. i know i said this all to you already but i literally just am going to keep saying it until i know you believe me. i mean u said you did but its not enough. ive felt like what it was like to have you back and im not losing that again

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FOR KAI:

send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

lilia: god youre suck a fucking joke. literally can u not tell that half of this group thinks of you as one? grow up before you pick fights with me no reason, maybe then ill give you my time.

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Send “✆” for a MORNING text. Send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT. Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text. Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text. Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text. Send “#” for a RANDOM text. Send “@” for a SCARED text. Send “&” for a LOVING text. Send “%” for a CURIOUS text. Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text. Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text. Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

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how self assured would you say that you are? (for lilia)

‘ i think i’m a capable person , i don’t think that’s so bad . with my family , it’s kind of hard to think of yourself as anything but . ‘

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elijah, why are you always so willing to point the finger at everyone else? do you ever think that maybe some of the things that happen to you are due to your own actions?

‘ i don’t really consider it pointing fingers if some of them deserve it . ‘

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(for all) is there anyone here that you feel really safe with? like you can go to them and you just know itll b okay?

‘ annie , seb , ori , & col . it’s all a different safe , though ? like seb , i’d trust him with my fucking life . i know that seems like a reach , but i’d do anything for him at this point . annie , i mean i said this to them before , but i wouldn’t just bail anyone out of jail , yeah ? they’re my family , as fucked up as it is . orion . . . she’s my person , so . col is practically my sister , & yeah i care about her more than i want to admit sometimes . sofia too , actually . i know we had our problems , but she knows me better than most people ever will . ‘

‘ colette , one hundred percent . she’s the only person who knows things about my family that i probably would never have spoken aloud . annie & violet maybe , too - only because i don’t have to lie about my shit with them . & max just makes me happy in general . . . i don’t know about safe , but happy . ‘

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elijah, are you happy that you found out that beryl is your sister? or do you wish that you stayed an only child?

‘ honestly . . . yeah , i’ve always wanted a real family , you know ? i mean , i wish i found out from her , maybe it would have ended differently . i kind of fucked it , so it’s not like it matters anymore . ‘

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do you think acting is for you or do you want to do something else with your life? (for eli) / have you ever wanted to change something about yourself? if so, what? (for lilia)

‘ honestly ? not really . i kind of grew wanting to act & since my parents were in the industry well - it all just fell into place . maybe when i was younger i did it because i had to . now , i kind of love it . it’s fun & a distraction from everything . ‘

‘ not really . . . does family count ? ‘

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(E) why did you believe annie so easily when you could have easily fixed your issues with your friends a long time ago?

‘ it was a mistake . my loyalty to annie wasn’t the only thing that made me act stupid , i’m pretty sure that’s kind of obvious at this point . ‘

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(c) don't you care what you did do avery?

‘ i never claimed not to care about what i did to him . i think about it everyday whether or not he knows . avery can hate me for as long as he wants to , but he’s still my brother . ‘ 

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(E) do you regret dating Sofia?

‘ no ? a part of me will always care about her - you can’t just get rid of four years . . . i regret a lot of things that happened between us , but i’ll never regret dating her . ‘

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(e) how are you going to continue acting after this clubs over like u were branded cheater, liar and a fraud

‘ pretty people still get hired . ‘

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who in the elites has brought a positive change to your life? ( lilia )

‘ col , i think . . . she’s kind of just someone who i can trust with anything . if it wasn’t for her , i honestly don’t think i would have made it . ‘