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Stonewall Riots + 5 Names To Know

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man, that’s what makes me sad about all this mogai shit. “well i feel masculine sometimes, but i’m never a man, and feminine sometimes but i am absolutely NEVER a woman, and i’m trans in… some way… and sometimes i am attracted to women in a gay way but OTHER times it’s in a Queer Masc (but not butch) way, and i also like men in a gay way but… not(?) in a Queer Fem way, and oh woe is me, it feels like every door in the community is being slammed in my face!”

like, babe: chill. this entire set-up you’ve built for yourself sounds massively anxiety-inducing and maybe you’re having a hard time finding community because it sounds like you’re, y’now, still kinda figuring yourself out.

and i think you’d likely have an easier time with it if you hadn’t been suckered into a school of thought where all those feelings need to be pinned down with exact labels and where, incidentally, you’re told that almost everyone who could help you (i.e. gay men, lesbian women, and “binary” trans people) hates you and thinks you’re awful.

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every time I see more of the ‘ao3 is evil’ crap circulating I think, ‘well, tumblr is evil too and I don’t see you stop using it’

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i do NOT want to see anyone coming for me with that “queer” bullshit about Chechnya. None of the men being rounded up and tortured are queer or demiromantic or nb afab or asexual, they are gay men. Keep your homophobia to your fucking self please and thanks

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in response to the crisis going on in chechnya right now, i wanted to underline how important it is to understand the complexity of russian homophobia, which has proven to be distinct from many western strains of homophobia due to historical circumstances. historically, same-sex attraction has been seen as non-russian due to its connection to bourgeois decadence of the west (which opposed proletarian values), as well as long-term invisibility of the LGBT+ community under stalin and its sudden reemergence in the 90s (when the soviet union collapsed) which shapes much of contemporary homophobia. there are also other factors, such as promotion of hypermasculinity within the soviet union after WWII and the generally sexphobic culture prevalent under the regime. while biological arguments (”it’s unnatural”) and religion have also played a role in modern russian homophobia, it is the association of LGBT+ existence with the west that has causes the most retaliation against LGBT+ activism. (we can see this most evidently with sochi olympics and now with the chechnya crisis; external activist efforts are rejected because ‘the west is trying to meddle with russian politics/values’ and internal efforts are rejected because ‘they’re brainwashed by the west’)

since i just finished my massive research paper on russian lgbt+ history, here are a few sources that i would highly recommend for learning more about how russia came to be so homophobic:

DAN HEALEY (aka the champion of russian LGBT+ history): 

Book: Homosexual Desire in Revolutionary Russia: The Regulation of Sexual and Gender Dissent - excellent and meticulously detailed overview of the complexities of russian LGBT+ lives at the beginning of the 20th century; discusses both progressiveness of lenin’s regime and the violent repression and erasure of LGBT+ identity under stalin, as well as so much more

Journal: HOMOSEXUAL EXISTENCE AND EXISTING SOCIALISM: New Light on the Repression of Male Homosexuality in Stalin’s Russia; a more brief overview than the book; may be more easily accessible. strongly recommend if you’re interested in history and want a starting point for learning about early soviet politics and how they affected LGBT+ lives

BRIAN BAER:

Book: Other Russias: Homosexuality and the Crisis of Post-Soviet Identity; excellent examination in the role that invisibility of the LGBT+ community (due to stalin’s repression and sudden reappearance in the 80s and 90s after gorbachev’s reforms) has played in making russians believe that same-sex attraction is a product of western infiltration into russian society. offers excellent criticisms of discourse surrounding russian LGBT+ issues by western scholars.

DAVID TULLER:

Book: Cracks in the Iron Closet: Travels in Gay and Lesbian Russia; offers a more accessible insight into russian LGBT+ society through recounting the author’s travels. over all a good book, but is not as far reaching or deeply analytical as some of the other sources. there’s a preview on google books, so you can easily skim through it.

MULTIPLE AUTHORS:

Book: Out of the Blue: Russia’s Hidden Gay Literature; An Anthology (ed. Kevin Moss); a wonderful read revealing numerous hidden gay/LGBT+ figures throughout russian literary scene. you’ll be surprised to find how many of the famous russian authors and poets were not straight.

Book: Gender in Russian History and Culture (ed. Edmondson); features a chapter by my man Healey discussing lesbianism and the medical/endocrinological discoveries of the 1910s-1920s that shaped russian discourse on homosexuality later on, as well as many interesting discussions about womanhood in russian and early soviet society.

if you went to discuss anything with me or have any questions about russian LGBT+ history, homophobia, or things about my personal experience as a same-gender attracted russian & ukrainian woman, my inbox/IM is available (just keep in mind that this is a highly sensitive subject for me and there may be some things i’m not comfortable disclosing)

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Every day is freaking non-oppressed majority day!

I got tired of saying the things, so I made gifs.

Use as you will. Credit nice but not required, if you want something I haven’t covered, let me know.

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since no one else is gonna say it

shoutout to the trans boys who are excessively masculine to help ease their dysphoria

shoutout to the trans boys who learned how to use makeup just to make yourself appear more masculine. shoutout to the trans boys who dont want to touch makeup even for that just because of feminine connotations

shoutout to the trans boys who are teaching themselves to walk like a typical male would to avoid their hips naturally swaying

shoutout to the trans boys who are repulsed by their body and how feminine it is

shoutout to the trans boys who hunt, woodwork, work on cars, or partake in any other traditionally masculine activity

shoutout to the trans boys who have to completely reject traditional femininity to feel less dysphoric

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gay couple: *existing happily*

tumblr demons: omg they look like twins

gay couple:

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So do y’all poke fun at straight white couples as much as you do gay ones or?

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i wonder how many teenagers that identify as ace think sexual attraction is thinking someone and immediately thinking “wow I wanna BANG them RIGHT NOW” and not just “oh, wow, she’s pretty, it’d be nice if she noticed me… anyways time to live the rest of my life.”

Like YES in more contexts that are ALREADY sexual–like a strip tease or like during literal physical intimacy–it may be more sexual but most “sexual” attraction is just… aesthetic attraction that might invite sexual feelings if like you linger on it or if you’re already turned on but like?? most of the time it’s just “she’s hot.”

like it really isn’t that deep. it doesn’t involve a physical response like 90% of the time. the people around you aren’t hard every time someone pretty breezes by.

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never forget that castro’s homophobic ass also had detention camps for gay people. it didn’t end with ww2.

gay oppression continues to be a huge problem that we have to address.

especially with what goes on in other countries where oppression is at its highest, not only in chechnya but also in many african countries, jamaica, and in several asian countries, not to mention the continued homophobia in western countries.

fighting for gay rights is as important now as it’s ever been, don’t let “q***r” activists tell you any different.

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They literally look just alike………

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Y’all wanna know why marriage equality is such an important right for us to have?

Because less than thirty years ago, the AIDS crisis was decimating our community and leaving thousands upon thousands of spouses unable to visit their partner in the hospital, unable to collect the body and hold a funeral, unable to stay living in a place under their spouses name, unable to receive inheritance or anything left behind by their spouse.

But y’all idiots think it’s ~assimilation~

fuck you all and fuck you for claiming “homonormativity” exists. This “assimilation” bullshit you claim we’re doing IS BECAUSE WE WERE BEING SYSTEMATICALLY MURDERED BY THE FUCKING GOVERNMENT YOU FUCKING TWATS

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the idea of amatonotmativity makes me physically dizzy from how upsetting it is