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In a Limbo

Why is it so difficult to be happy? We met people that we thought could fill in our hearts desire. We hope and we were happy for a moment but the impact it left us lasts for years or even for a lifetime. We forgive those who have hurt us but we cant forget what they did to us. Its not the fault of your next love if you lack of trust and drives you both nuts. I hate that feeling but its bugging me. I dont trust easily. I love the person but I dont trust him. I want time and attention. I can live life with anything as long as we have decent meals of 3 times in a day and a home. I wanted a simple life with the man that I love and my children. Why is it so hard to achieve it. Piece of cake but why is it so hard to have it? Im frustrated. It causes me depression at times. Ive been crying almost every night and when I realized that my life is so lonely. I have so many choices, options and alternatives... but I want to be with this person who doesnt want to commit his life and love with me. Im so in love to someone who doesnt give back the same amount of love that i want to give him. Its downgrading at times. I felt so cheap already coz im kinda pushing him to like me. Well, he said he loves me but the action and the effort is not convincing enough. Hmmmm... anyway, im still trying so hard to fond mr. Right. Maybe he's really not for me so im still looking around. I wanted it so bad to be him but it seems that im counting on bubbles that soon will pop out and leave me with nothing in the end. Im not getting any younger. I want to get married and have another child with my husband to be. Hayyyyyy... this is life, we cant have evrything that we want. Im moving on. Happiness, pls wag kang mailap sa akin pls.

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A baby will always be a priceless gift from God. It should always be made out of love. The happiest days of my life were the days I conceived my children. I never regreted that I have them even if Im struggling so hard just to provide them with their needs. Some men were just irresponsible not to take full responsibility of their act. A baby needs not only a mother but also a father. Im disappointed with what is happening because at a certain point of my life, our lives, we were in love, we felt and showed love with each other and that's the reason why we have Bene now. I dunno if things will be okay someday but Im hopeful. I will never deprive my son of his father. I love you my Benedict. God will give you your father in His time okay.

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Its For Real This Time

You are that one person that really affects my mood and the turn around of my days. I was often telling you that I am okay whenever we are okay. I am always telling you how I feel. There was even a time that I am often telling you that I love you but I never get the reply that I wanted to hear. Well, maybe you didn't feel the same way yet, or maybe, those times that I heard you uttered those words out of pity on me. It has never been my norms to be the first one to message or call.someone, but I gone beyond it coz maybe you are not like that either. I really liked you a lot. I even loved you so much, actually, I still love you as of this moment Im writing this. What had happened were special to me. We haven't had a physical bonding but those times we've spend chatting and talking were forever be cherished. We're just not meant to be. I dont see the kind of man I would like to spend for the rest of my life. I am very passionate and sensitive whenever I am inlove. Its my dream to find someone who will make me a priority as I am always like that with whoever be my partner be. Im a hopeless romantic person. I am not so fond of gifts but time is essential to me. I came to the point that I need you in my life coz I love you and my life could never be happier without you but you never really understand how I feel because you thougth that its not possible since we havent seen each other for a long time already. I tried to hang on and gone with the flow. Maybe you are right, I have to be patient. I thought I am patient enough to ignore rejections, I am hurting each time I felt being ignored. Well, maybe I just dont matter that much. I felt losing my self respect everytime I asked you to do something for me like the last straw I made on messaging you to call me coz Im missing you and you said you were so busy and will not be able to call me. I felt so low when I read your reply. You were asking me the other day if I ever missed you? And now Im telling you that I am and that's the kind of reply Im getting. Ang lakas maka low steem. So there, I blocked you and will never see you online anymore. That way, I could restrain myself from messaging you and I will never be affected if I saw you online and seenzone me or my messages. I finally ended this foolishness of thinking that maybe we might have a future together. You have so many baggages in life than I am. I only have 2 adorable children to consider with, and you said you had already 4... hmmmmm... You just don't love me. I should move on from here. I would be forever grateful to you for trying to love me and for making so happy those times. We are still friends C and I still love you. I still need you but I guess this should be end this time. It hurts but I would take it as the right decision for you not to hurt me more. Goodbye C. I wish you dont keep life too much to yourself. You have to have someone to make you genuinely happy because you deserve it. I dearly love you that's why im bidding you goodbye. Be with someone who makes you really happy and contented.

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Deal or No Deal

In the first place, ur husband cheats because maybe you are not enough or maybe something is wrong with you.

Second, you should rant your sentiments to your husband because he is the one who has committed to you. He knows his status before he went out or fuck his so called mistress. Now, its either you save ur marriage by dealing it with your husband and in your home or go on and flaunt it to the social media and make yourself a fool.

Coz really, if your husband cheat, either one of you or both of you has a problem and you are the only persons involved to resolve it. :)

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I realized that I should not depend my happiness to someone. I should learn to live independently because I am the only responsible of anything to myself. Much as I wanted to be wanted by somebody, but I guess there is really no one meant for me. I will love more myself from now on. I should be okay all the time for children. :)

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I will always love you my dear children.

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Hopeless Dzai

I've always wanted to be in a relationship because I want to feel loved and wanted by someone whom im also in love with. But always, i fell for the wrong person. Temporary happiness that only last for a month or two and then gone were the spark that i thought of as love. Im crying for awhile and then meet someone again and then it ends again. Maybe there is no one for me yet as of this time. Im giving up. At least it made me happy for awhile. The sadness im feeling right now will eventually over. I truly liked him but I guess, he's just not the one and I should move on.

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My children are my life. They give me happiness that no one can gauge how deep it is. I am contented and happy to see them okay. We maybe far from each other but i will always see to it that they are well taken cared of. I envy those parents who can be with their children... but i have to work for them because unfortunately, their father were all not so responsible with their needs. They value my children with the least of their priorities... but my children doesn't need to feel less as a person just because of their dad... i should be there to complete them at all times and at any cost. I love you mga anak... please love each other for forever for mama okay. I terribly missing you my babies. 😘😘😘

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Why I Love You?

Ive been in love twice and was broken several times already. The thing is, I have so much love to give that whenever I fall for someone, like now with you, I give as much love as I can. I am a very transparent person...You'll know whenever I am upset or I am happy. You can see it in my eyes... I dont exactly know why I love you but I really do. I cant help falling inlove the moment I realized that you are making me happy. I often thanked you everytime we end our never ending chitchats because I am truly delighted with the happiness you made me feel. I started to cherished our moments and I always look forward to our next bonding moments. I dont mind getting hurt again in the future if my now with you will add to the weight of the happy moments I have in this one life of mine. We only live once and I wantbto grab every opportunity that could make it happy. YOLO my love... let's make the most out of life and I am hoping to have more happy memories with you. I love you so much Love. :)

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I smile coz I am trying to show people that i am strong and i am okay. But deep inside, i am in so much trouble and sorrow. When i am alone, i cried out loud to God to give me more strength and to please help me find peace and solution to all my troubles. I am a broken person. I give up life long before but now that i have bene and thea, its so hard to leave... I hope and pray that someone would come along to accept me for who i am... or hopefully, God will grant me a jackpot prize to settle all my troubles and have a good life with my children and my family. I am in deep trouble... behind the smile is a lonely me.

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Faces of a trying to be happy ME. Kaya ko ang life... Aja!

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Meet Benedict Quimiguing ( Benedict Quimiguing Comora)... we'll work on it so that when he grows up he will never be confuse of his identity... He was born December 12, 2017...

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Had a chat with my Babe earlier. Very well explained Love. I hope everything will be alright again. I miss you Baby. I Love You MC. #ootd #happyday

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A picture shows only the outer beauty of a person. There's more to it when you get a chance to know the whole personality of a person. These pictures were taken for my babe and for those people who cares on me.