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One of the stylists

Let’s call him plant daddy

And he was talking about a client who passed away and how her life was towards the end. I let him know I was ear hustlin and that I was worried my life was going that direction.

He told me we are creating our life everyday by our choices.

Felt that.

Clocked in on a Sunday for a double - to get some cushion on the damage done on my finances. The choices that lead me to have my hours cut, but at the same time working on the next big step for me

The medical coding and billing course.

I decided that maybe the social work route ain’t for me. That I need something different. Not going into the reasons of why lol

But the social work route was not it. I’m mapping out the shits of the steps it’ll take and even the end goal made me feel drained.

So yeah. Completely different route. But I ain’t trippin.

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The trend is your last face less pics is your aesthetic

But does hands and shadows count?

Because if that’s the case then… redo

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Here’s a non secret secret

I like to think of thee iPhone as our version of a Pokédex

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Tiredt

Too much caffeine

Highlight of my day is making flash cards for the responsibilities of a job description I got an interview for.

I think it will help me reflect on my experiences and on the back of the flash card I can write out exactly how.

That’s part ✌🏼for that activity.

Lowlight:

Drinking so much gad dame caffeine til I was sick.

More semi highlights:

1. Used a post it to step my eyeliner game up

2. Tried them frozen pork ginger dumplings from trader hoes. Fire.

3. Got back on my duolingo shit

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Forced my self to take a break from decluttering. Things I have left to do are:

1. Makeup stuff ✅

2.Box of papers

3.Purge the wardrobe

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June 2023

That’s a wrap! I’m excited to see the differences between June 2023 vs June 2024! 

Reflections on June 2023 to come shortly. 

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Song credits: "Charge it" by Enny

Click the "Keep Reading" for my reflections

2022, was a lot. Here's a recap.

underpaid/overworked

high expectations

stopped community organizing

break up

new relationship <3

broke

family stuff

non existent social life

Tough times, but solid ones as well

When I was applying for jobs last year, I was working as an elementary school site coordinator in SFUSD. The work was dope/admirable, but I felt funny trying to teach kids social emotional skills when I myself struggled with that as well. So, I think I needed some time to detach from the social work scene and get my money/mind right.

In a job I was looking for stability and something that could provide me routine and predictability.

It was between the position at the salon vs. being a building manager at WeWork (lol don't judge me u hoes). I had both interviews lined up.

However, there were certain things that have drawn me to the salon.

My colleague by mistake navigated her hair appointment to that salon same week I had my interview.

On my first day of shadowing I was met with the same classmate that I met on my first day of orientation at SFSU for Social Work

I later found that I have visited the very same building in high school.

LOL. Those are my signs.

But this space turned out to be nurturing for me and where my whole life I was treated like a baby, I feel like shed that layer and stepped into my first decade feeling like an adult forreal.

Taking time away from the social work field and being around people who don't know of me was a clean slate I needed. I learned that I could be responsible and still maintain my inner dork. I also had a secret goal to take pictures of my outfits daily to jump start my journey to have a capsule wardrobe, but that is an ongoing project. I definitely became more responsible with money management. Time management, too.

There's a whole lot to reflect on, but all in all. To sum this bitch up nicely. I'll end on this thing I found on an instagram reel.

Ok I can't find it anymore, so it aint verbatim, but....

You can have purpose right. However, it is okay to step off the path that isn't aligned with your purpose. You can always get back on my G!

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Life Update

I miss blogging. 

I’ve been working as a receptionist/salon coordinator for 1 year as of tomorrow! They’ve been treating me well and I love the relationships I’ve made here. Working in a space of mostly women has been healing for me in many ways. 

I put my final days of notice in as of recent and I am looking for something that aligns with my journey to become a therapist. So yeah! I did my undergrad in Social Work. An unexpected turn from wanting to become a highschool or college counselor, but I like where I am headed. All the twists and turns in my 20′s is funny, but I think they’re all cumulation of experiences that sums up perfectly into social work. 

It would be cool if oneday I could be a teacher/artist, but aye. We gon see how 30′s will do me. 

As of now, I got 2 opportunities lined up for case manager positions and I am excited to see what will be presented! Til then - i’ll be bloggin and documenting my journey. Growing my brain and understanding the would round me.